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mujhe to kuch bhula he nahi.. beemar hota tha. khana nahi khata tha beemar hone ki waja se.. kisi ka 1 mesg. just 1 mesg mujhe theek kar deta tha.. mera dil karta tha main khud ka kheyal rakhon...

ye 1 khubsurat ehsaas hai... sab se khubsurat rishta hai.. is duniya ka...

1 dosre ka sath dena.. ager main gir raha hoon to os ka farz hai ke mera hath tham le or mujhe girne na de.. or ager same yehi os keyliye hai to mera farz hai os ko girne na doon.. eysa hai ye rishta...

but os ne kya kiya,? sath dene ki jaga mujhe he gira diya,? or jab bhe os se pucha eysa karne ki waja to jawab bachon wale diye, ya diye he nahi,! ya ye keh diya mere paas faltu baton ka jawab nahi, lol

ager eysa he karna tha to 2 kadam bhe sath kiyon chali wo,!! ?

ager os ki chotti si soch os ko ye kehti hai ke wo 2 kadam sath chalna os ki galti thi to kya koi solid reason hai os ke paas,? explain karne ko hai kuch ke galti kese thi,? bachon wala reason nahi, koi solid... kehna asaan hai na, galti thi kese ye sabit karne ki baat hai,!

aaj kehti hai wo sab batain jo main ne kin on ka aaj koi maltab nahi,! to kya tab matlab tha? ager tha to aaj kese khatam ho geya? os ko samjh he nahi ati os ki baton ka matlab kya hai os ko bhe shayed baad main samjh ati hogi ke wo kya bolti hai, lol

or ager galti thi bhe os ki nazar se to kya os ko nahi lagta 14 dec wale din ki galti zeyada buri thi,!! main manta hoon os ne bohot baar kaha hai ke os ne mujhe hurt kiya hai, bohot bura kiya hai ye os ne kaha. but os ne ye kabhe nahi kaha ke 14 dec wale din ki os ki galti thi,! os ne accept he nahi kiya,!! balke wo ye kehti hai os ki galti wo hai ke meri life main ana,! main os se kehta hoon ke ager 1 galti kar li thi to dosri kiyon ki?

1 galti ager kar li thi to osi pe rehti. kasam se zindagi haseen hoti.... kuch bura na hota :P ye os ko sochna chahiye magar wo ulta he soch sakti hai sidha nahi..

1 galti kar li os ko continue rakhti kuch galat ho he nahi sakta tha,! But os ne wo galti ki jo os ko karni nahi chahiye thi....

ye ehsaas duniya ka khubsurat ehsaas hai.. main janta hoon is liye . feel kiya hai kese bhool sakta hoon.

meri itni buri halat rehti thi din raat jab main apni life ko or aney wale waqat ko le kar pareshan tha tab.... os ka 1 mesg ata tha * kese ho? * mera jawab hota tha sad hoon. or on ka jawab ata tha * sad na raha karo sab theek ho jayega main hoon na tumhare sath ansar * os ke eysa bolne se mere andar 1 ajeeb se energy a jati thi.. mujhe zindagi khubsurat lagne lagti thi.. mera dil karta tha ke main khush rahon.. main bhool jata tha ke main kis mushkil halaat se guzaar raha hoon.. ye power hai is rishte ki,!

beemar hota tha os ke haal puch lene se meri tabiyat 90% theek ho jati thi... dil ko sakoon milta tha ke koi hai apna jis ko fikar hai.. acha lagta tha ke mujhe kuch ho jayega to kisi ko farak parega... warna 1 mesg se bhala koi kese theek ho sakta hai? ye sab feel hota tha mujhe.

eysa 100% mumkin hai ke pyaar mei eyse din a sakte hain ke shayed Ap ko 1 pal feel ho ke ye sab barbaad kar dega ya kuch cheen lega.

eysa possible nahi.. pyaar Ap se kabhe kuch cheen nahi sakta.. balke Ap ko deta hai .

or wo mature keh rahi thi ke aj kal ke kids ki problem hai ye, os ko baat karne ki tameez kitni hai yahan se samjh a jati hai, or samjh ? lool kids? to jaye Apne he mom dad se bole ke alag ho jao, kiyon reh rahe ho sath? ye to kids ki problem hai? or wohi kaam karo jo main ne kiya,! matlab kisi ka dil dikhao or naya ashiq dhond lo,! ye karna mature hai or meri wali feelings rakhne wala kids wali soch? lool ye kis taraf se khud ko mature bolti hai.!!!

jahan pyaar zarorat se zeayda hota hai na wahan eysi batain ho sakti hain. pyaar koi bhe ho, behn wala, dosti wala..

mere dost mujh se kehte hain ke tumhari jin se dosti kam hai on se kabhe naraz nahi hove or jo sab se zeyada kareeb hain on se kiyon naraz ho jate ho ansar?

jawab ye hai ke jo mere itna kareeb nahi ager main on se naraz ho geya to wo kahain ge go to hell ansar nahi to na sahi,

lekin jo mere dil ke andar hai wo eysa nahi bolne wale,! mujhe maloom hai wo mere apne hain. is liye apna samjh kar to eysa karta hoon ke wo gussa to kar lain ge lekin eysa nahi bolain ge mujhe.. lol

jese mere ghar ki baat thi. mere Dad ne mujhe nahi danta kabhe, mama to dant deti thin, wo bohot baar kehti thin ke dafa ho jao mujhe apni shakal na dikhana, lol kiyon kehtin thin ke main on ka beta hoon, wo kuch bhe bolain gi hamara rishta khatam to hone nahi wala tha os se, lekin kya meri Mama kisi anjaan larke ko keh saktin thin yehi sab? nahi na? to ye sab ager ho to wahan he hota hai jahan pyaar ho zarorat se zeyada,!

wo koi 1 baat sabit kar de jo main ne os ko eyse he free main mu utha ke mana kiya ho kisi cheez main, bina kisi reason se,! ya os se kaha ho ke tum meri har baat maan jao, main ne to wo sab bhe kiya jo os ne mujhe karne ko kaha bhe nahi tha, lol

ye meat na khana mujhe mana nahi kiya tha onhon ne.. onhon ne bus ye kaha tha ke ghar main nahi khana bahir jo marzi karo.. to main ne socha kiyon na main khana he band kar doon... ye onhon ne karne ko nahi kaha tha but main ne phir bhe kar diya. ye asaan nahi tha. is tarhan se or bohot si batain jin ko main ne socha ke ye karna hai mujhe.

but koi 1 baat jo main ne os pe dabao dala ho ke eysa karo jesa kaha main ne? koi 1? lol or ager kiya to os ko reason diya, eyse he mu utha ke nahi bola,! os ko samjhaya ke ye baat hai is liye eysa kaha main ne,!

ye main is liye keh raha hoon, os ne khud kaha tha tum mujhe khushi nahi de sakte dec 2015 mei kaha tha :P to bhai kon si baat thi jo main ne kuch eysa kiya jo eysa laga os ko,!

os ko kis bewakoof ne kaha ke main dreams ke andar reh raha tha? lol main on ko pura kar raha tha,! mujhe koi magic nahi ata tha ke 1 he week ke andar sab karta,! main ne jo time diya tha os ko summer 2016 os se bhe pehle kiya main ne sab, or jo kiya wo har koi nahi nahi kar sakta. ager main ne wo khud keyliye kiya hota to aaj mere paas kiyon nahi wo sab? lol hota na mere paas ager main ne khud keyliye kiya hota....

eysa kese ho sakta tha wo mera dil tor rahi hai or sab kuch mera barbaad ho jaye? isi liye hova becoz har jaga he wo thi mere dreams mei jin ko main pura karna chahta tha,! or shayed ye galti kar di thi main ne jo har baat mei os ka naam rakha tha...

main os ko may 2019 mei keh raha hoon ke main jo kar raha tha tumhain khushi hoti, khusi deta tumhain os se,!

or mujhe is ka jawab wo gusse se de rahi hai ke dont say that again, mera koi taluq nahi tum se,

insult he karni hoti hai os ko to mujh pe ehsaan na kiya kare baat karne ka, lol os ki baton se meri jo halat hoti hai wo meri health kharab ho kar bahir a jati hai,

wo mujhe batain suna rahi hai ke mera future decent hai, to main ne kab kaha tha ke decent na ho?

os ko maloom hai ke os ki family ko jitni khushi hogi os ke goals pure hone pe shayed os se zeyada mujhe hai....

kitni pray ki os ne khud keyliye 4 saal ke andar? kitni pray ki os ki family ne os keyliye 4 saal ke andar? main ne daily ki.!!! 4 saal se daily ki or kar raha hoon. kabhe kabhe din main 5 baar, to kabhe kabhe 1 baar. or main dil se ki.. kisi ne nahi kaha tha mujhe eysa karne ko.... mehnat to osi ko karni hai, main dua to kar sakta hoon.. or to kuch karne ka haq mujhe mila nahi :P

to eyse insaan ko wo a kar batain suna rahi hai ke mera future decent hai, tum se is ka koi taluq nahi. i know wo jo bhe hai, jo bhe kar rahi hai khud ki mehnat se. but os ka matlab ye nahi ke wo mujhe hurt kare. os ki waja se.. main ne pray kar ke koi ehsaan nahi kiya os pe, dil main hai is liye kar deta hoon... or main ye bhe nahi keh rha ke Mom Dad se zeyada khushi mujhe hogi, but ye kahon ga ke utni he hogi,!

main lakh bura sahi.. magar jo bhe kiya tha main ne, jo bhe socha tha wo galat kese ho sakta hai.. os ko maloom bhe nahi main ne kya kya socha tha... os time surprise tha, or abhe btaya to insult hogi, lol

aj kal ki duniya main kon karta hai kisi keyliye eysa.. os ne mujhe eyse deal kiya jese keh rahi ho ke sochna bhe band karo,

mere dreams kya they os ko maloom hai? lol mujhe bill gates se agey jana tha? no,!

mere dreams os keyliye they or os se agey kuch nahi tha,! os ke naam se start hote they or wahan he khatam ho jate they.. main ne apne liye kuch bhe nahi socha tha.. koi 1 cheez bhe nahi.... ager sochi hoti to aaj wesa karta main right....

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main ne khud ka ghar kesa tha wo bhe ready kar liya tha.. os ki pic niche dikha raha hoon but full nahi dikha saka, siraf thora sa ta ke sabit ho ke main ne wesa kiya,!

50 se zeyada files hain os folder ke andar jis mei detail hai ke wo ghar kesa hota, KSA house,

main ne os ghar ke andar 6 bedroms rakhe, then change kar ke 7 kar diye,! reason?

main ne socha jab Mom Dad old age mei jayein ge to hamare paas rahain ge..❤️ ye sab karne ki waja kya thi? mera pyaar tha.. or ager ye baat main os ko keh doon to 100% jawab ayega tum hote kon ho eysa sochne wale....lol

but main ne ye 2015 ka socha hova tha.. main ye nahi keh raha duniya main eysa koi nahi sochta, but ye kahon ga har koi nahi sochta.. log apne Mom Dad ka sath chor dete hain os age mei or main ne on ke Mom Dad ko apna samjh kar itna socha.. abhe wo yahan bhe bolegi a kar ke bakwaas band karo tum kon ho eysa bolne ya sochne wale?

ye they mere dreams,! ye they mere goals,! jo os ne pure nahi hone diye, becoz wo mature hai or main ullu kahin ka na samjh, lol

main ne sab is liye nahi socha tha ke wo aaj mujhe ye batain sunati ke tum ho kon ye sochne wale, ager tab ye kehti na wesa 2015 ke andar to dekhta main kese is ke sath rehne ka sochta bhe :P but tab wo mujhe ullu bana gayi na apne talent se. main ne to soch liya tha, os ne blackmail kar diya mujhe apne ansu dikha kar,!

ye hai wo KSA house, pura nahi dikha sakta, ye main ne final kar ke rakha tha.! har tarhan ki detail hai is ki mere paas. lawn se le kar backyard tak.

ye just normal sa sample hai, bana to nahi tha is liye wesa dikh nahi raha jesa hona chahiye :) wese bhe pura thori hai ye, thora sa he show kiya,

dil kar raha hai pura ghar show karne ko lekin... nahi

ye sab karne ko os ne nahi bola tha mujhe, ye bus mere liye hai ke main kitna serious tha :P zahir hai os ne khelna tha mujh se os ne bhala kya dream dekhna tha , lool,

main ne dekhe bhe or pura karne keyliye mehnat bhe ki,! siraf is liye ke main os ki baton se ullu ban ke yakeen kar betha tha ke ye sachi hai :P

ajj dard hoga mujhe jab ye sab toot geya...

main ne on feelings ko rokne ki koshish ki ke ansar naaa plz ruk jao.

mujhe pata tha aj kal ke log pyaar kese karte hain is liye.

lekin mujhe os ke andar 1 alag si cheez dikhi ke shayed ye wesi nahi.. or wo tha os ki care karna, mere hand pe halka sa cut laga tha.. mujhe 12 hours ke andar he bhool geya tha ke kuch hova mujhe, lekin os ne 1 week tak daily pucha ab kese ho? ye sab batain kisi or main nahi dekhi thin,!

or jab ye sab start hova tab bhe main ne pehle 2 months os se 1 he baat kahi thi ke dekho abhe ye feelings mujh mei zinda ho rahi hain. ager tum ne baad mei mere sath kuch galat karna hai ya abhe time paas he karna hai to door raho. becoz ager mera pyaar zinda ho geya to phir tum jana chaho gi bhe mere dil se to ijazat nahi hogi. os ne mazakh se kaha tha ke tum rok nahi sakte ager main ne eysa socha to. Lol then main ne kaha i know isi liye kaha ke mere dil se jane ki ijazat nahi hogi i mean wese to chali jaogi but main kabhe bhula nahi sakon ga.

or mere baar baar eyse he sawal puchne pe os ne gusse se kaha ke yakeen kiyon nahi karte? mazakh lag raha hai tumhain ansar??

tab ja ke main ne apne dil ka wo door open kar diya os keyliye jo aaj kisi or ko wo jaga milti to shayed main khush hota. Lol

2014 os ki 1 baat pe mujhe ehsaas hova kuch or main ne socha ke jo mujhe lag raha tha shayed wo sahi hai... main ne socha ansar bache abhe bhe time hai ruk jao..

os ne mujh se eysi batain kin ke main pareshan ho geya ke akhir kya karon? Khud ke dil ki sono ya os ki sono,?

Jab main ne feel kiya ke wo sad hai becoz of me to main ne kisi se baat ki or pucha ke kya karon main,?.

To onhon ne kaha bhai tum zeyada serious le gaye ho eysa kuch nahi hai or wo kuch galat nahi karegi ye meri guarantee hai.. to main ne on se kaha ke chalo dekh lete hain thora sa or samjh loon on ko. Lol

On ko chance chahiye tha main ne diya or dil se diya khush ho kar....

warna 1 he galti pe eysa kiyon sochta ke is ko life se nikalna chhaiye? isi liye socha tha ke main khud ko ache se janta tha.. main ne socha ager thora time or ho geya to main akhri sans tak nahi bhula sakon ga or ager is ne kuch galat kar diya to main barbaad ho jaon ga... isi dar se os ki pehli he galti pe main ne alag hone ka soch liya tha.. but wapis trust kiya main ne,