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jis game ki waja se hum sab mile they doc vijay ne wo delete kar di, koi 1 thread bhe nahi raha os ka,

7 saal ka sath ho geya sab ke sath, or mujhe khushi hai mere apno ke sath meri baat bhe hoti hai, bus wo MB kahin bhaag gayin, or RB just yahan he dikhte hain ager ayein to,

baki sab se thank GOD hoti hai <3

meri pyaari pyaari sisters,, PB, NB, Jenny Aunty, or Jenny ki dosty Zola madam,

or meri sab se achi friend , Naaz madam <3

mere bhai, Sid bhai duniya main nahi... baki sab theek rahain yehi dua hai meri <3

❤️love u all.❤️

main ne ye DP kis ki laga rakhi hai, pagal kahin ka

zindagi kitni bore ho gayi hai, yahan koi hai bhe nahi mere paas :(

main happy hoon aj kal, dukhi wala happy, jab manzil samne ho or kuch wesa ho jesa Ap chahte ho to kasam se bohot khushi milti hai. or mere jese looser ki ager itni si baat bhe puri ho jaye to bohot sakoon milta hai. magar afoos hai main zinda kese raha.!

ye 12 june nahi ati shayed, main marne laga tha kuch din pehle, wo kya hai main jo kehta hoon wesa ho jata hai...main ne kaha hai main maron ga kab ye mujhe nahi pata lekin meri halat marne ke bohot kareeb hai. kabhe bhe, kisi bhe time kuch bhe ho sakta hai.

jesa ke 1 heart attack mujhe 2017 main hova,

then os ke halaat main ne phir se peda kiye or jan se feb 2019 tak kafi chance tha, lekin os se pehle he stent dal geya to problem solve,

lekin main ne phir se smoking se or sad rehne se ye halaat phir se ho gaye,, smoking to main ne he ki lekin sad rehna ya nahi wo mere control main nahi hai,.. april se he mujhe pain feel ho raha tha, magar kamyaabi june main mili, may ki waja se, mujhe dil ki gehrai tak dard feel hova tha. kisi ki baton ne mere dil ka pehle se zeyada bura haal kiya. or jaldi he ye ho geya,

2nd heart atack aney ke baad, main kitna kamina hoon mara nahi phir bhe, lol

ye os din subha, feel ho raha tha os din ke aaj kuch hoga mujhe or ho geya,

kuch may ki yadon ki waja se, or kuch wese he health bohot kharab hone ki waja se main feel kar raha tha ke mujhe kafi pain ho raha hai heart main, wo dukh wala nahi dosra, or jis din hova os din bhe 3 baar eysa hova jese marne laga hoon, or phir kya hova tha sham ko wo mujhe yaad nahi raha,

ticket meri confirm hai, yahan mar jata to family meri mujhe zinda na dekh sakti,

hamesha ki tarhan jo kehta hoon wesa ho ke rehta hai,

log heart attack se zinda nahi rehte, or ager reh jayein to 2nd wala on ko maar deta hai, os se bhe bach jayein to 3rd wala Ap ko zaroor maar he deta hai.. ager os se bhe zinda raho to no problem, heart itna nazuk ho jata hai ke kabhe bhe bye bye ho sakti hai, heart kabhe bhe fail ho sakta hai then,

reason ho ya na kabhe bhe ho sakta hai, ye kafi serious baat hai. jis ko main eyse he samjh raha hoon,

ye rahi meri family ke sath kuch batain, main zeyada nhi dikha sakta .

ye eid ke dino ki baat hai . june ke start main,

ye sab kehna asaan hota hai.. pain to hota hai jab eysa kuch ho to, jo bhe hai 1 insaan hoon main, ''os ki nazar main'' insaan nahi wese to insaan he hoon, lol is liye heart attack ho ya kuch or pain hota hai,

magar its ok, meri zindagi ki koi keemat nahi hai,

mujhe june ke start main he hova, or os ke 2 din ke baad mere 1 dost ke Dad ka heart fail hova or on ki death ho gayi, or mujhe dukh hai, ke mujhe kuch kiyon nahi hova,!!! abhe bhe sans chal rahi hai meri.. akhir kiyyooooon.!

zindagi to meri 14 dec ke baad he khatam ho gayi thi, or jo meri health thi wo dheere dheere eysi stage pe hai ke mujhe yakeen nahi ata 29 saal ki age main itni problems hain mujhe, or ye sab kuch mujhe os dard ki waja se hova, or koi waja nahi hai, har time pareshaan rehna, sad rehna, ye Ap ko zinda nahi rehne detin chezain,

2 din ke baad pure 3 saal or 6 months ho rahe hain, main ne itna survive kiya, os ka matlab ye nahi main hamesha survive kar sakta hoon.

dukh hota hai kabhe kabhe ke ye sab main kar raha hoon, or jo mere control main nahi wo akhir kiyon nahi hai. main eysa tha nahi. weak hone ki waja se ban geya,. or is main meri galti hai na,

meri Mama meri taqat thin <3 on ke baad wo jaga main ne kisi or de di to ye sab kese na hota, yehi to meri galti hai.! kisi ki baton main ana, kisi ke drame ko sach samjhna, ye sab galti hoi hai mujh se, or os ki keemat ab main ne he pay karni hai apni zindagi se :P

kuch logon ko thora sa read karna chahiye ke jo log heart patient hon on se kesa salook karna chahiye, 1 chotti si baat on ki jaan le sakti hai, dil weak hona or baat hai, os ka patient hona or baat hai, or mujhe ye dono problems hain,!

jab kisi ko is baat ka pata bhe hai ache se tab bhe mere sath kisi ne os tarhan se baat ki thi to eysa kese ho sakta tha ke main dil pe na leta baton ko,, log kehte hain eyse logon ka kheyal rakhna chahiye, magar mera jis se taluq raha os ki soch hai ke eyse insaan ko itna rulao ke wo tarap tarap ke mare, or Ap ki galti beshak itni he ho ke ap kuch sawal puchne ki galti kar lo, ya koi req karne ki galti kar lo, wo samjhna bhe nahi chahte ye pagal itna kiyon mar raha hai,! eyse logon ki nazar main beekar batain hain sab ,

on ko maloom nahi hai on ki baton ne mere is dil ka kya haal kiya tha. or thanks on ka ke onhon ne may main mere sath janwaron jesa salook kiya jis waja se main sad zeyada hova or beemar zeyada hova, i hope next time wo 1 baar mujh se baat karain zaroor, or next time zara zeyada ''batameez'' ho kar or heartless ho kar batain karain mujh se, os se mujhe help milegi marne main,! or wo ager ye kaam kar dain mera to on se acha duniya main koi hoga he nahi <3 kiyon ke on ki har baat jo wo gusse se karti hain ya nafrat se karti hain os waja se mere ansu atey hain, or jab ansu atey hain to zahir hai dil ka haal bhe wesa hota hai,

is baat pe on ko dil se, yaar dil ki gehrai se thanks <3 ehsaan kiya hai onhon ne mujh pe.

wo heart patient nahi, summer 2015 main ne eyse he kisi baat ka gussa kiya tha to rone beth gayi thi :P kiyon ke meri baton ne on ke dil ko hurt kiya tha, or mere sath to wesa bohot hova, record hai har saal hova , 2015,2016,2017,2018,2019,

1 zehr hota hai jo Ap ko osi waqat maar deta hai, magar ye wo zehr hai jis ne mujhe dheere dheere kahtam kiya, ab zehr jesa bhe ho Ap kese zinda reh sakte ho os se, wo bhe jab eysa insaan bohot talent wala ho, os ko pata ho ke kisi ki life se kese khelna hai, Ap os ke hathon se bach he nahi sakte :)

main soch raha hoon ager ye wala main survive na pata to kya hota? kisi ko pata bhe nahi chalna tha main zinda nahi raha ab, koi batane wala nahi na, ho sakta tha main mar jata or is ka yakeen 1 saal ke baad ata sab ko,

ye funny ho jata, meri last posts jis ne bhe read karni thin os ne sochna tha ansar pakistan geya he nahi is liye post he nahi ki, os ko kese pata chalta wo pakistan ki jaga kahin or he chala geya hai, jahan se koi wapis nahi ata, lol

is liye main baar baar kehta hoon 1 saaal tak na dikhon to bina kuch soche 100% sach maan lena,

1 sad baat bhe hai, pehla 2017. 2nd 2019, to kya 3rd wala 2021 main hoga?? nahi nahii. itna time nahi bardasht kar sakta main.

jab mujhe hosh aya tha wapis to main 1 dam se sad ho geya. ye soch kar ke abhe bhe zinda raha? akhir kiyon.. itni saza kis liye GOD jee?

kisi ko bhulana ya khud ko theek karna wo mujh se nahi hota,

or jo ho sakta hai os keyliye mehnat karni chahiye, aaj se nahi, abhe se, or abhe se nahi, isi waqat se,