Forever 21 GEMs (Invites Only) - Page 28

How are you all? I missed chatting with you. I have "retroread" with much interest, both here and in ED.😊

Soundarya - janamdin mubarak to your little cutie!😊

Kodai - glad to "meet" you!

I will take my leave for a short while from ED but hope to be back eventually. Enjoy your discussions!

I am not able to stay writing for very long at one time now. I hope it will soon change for the better.

Please do think of me sometimes.

God bless you.

-Bhakti

I am having just some bad days now; I hope they will pass soon. I have gotten myself into trouble and am not sure if I can get out. I was trying to help my husband come out of his silence but it turned into something else so quickly. Everyone became angry, everyone crowded into that tiny room where the four of us stay (me, my husband, our children.) My MIL yelled on me that I was causing unhappiness, she slapped me. My husband rose up and for the first time ever he snapped and he hit me. So hard - I saw a flash of white light and heard such a loud bang at my ears. Back and forth he hit four times. I had so much blood I spat in the basin, it just wouldn't stop coming out. Maithili was crying so loud and my MIL grabbed her from the kamband and threw her so hard onto the bistar. Everyone yelled and yelled on me to make her silent. My MIL took my son away even though he was calling and calling for me. Hearing him calling for me all the sense went out of me. Nothing mattered to me at all, just his cries. They all left the room and just my poor baby Maithili was left screaming on the bistar. I took her and sat on the floor and curled over her. I gave her milk to try to make her quiet but it took such a long time and I just didn't know who I was crying for, for her, for me, for my husband who has lost his head with wishing he had never had wife or children to care for at such a young age, for my little son whose birthday it was yesterday and I was not even allowed near him to wish him. Finally late last night he was crying so much for me they just pushed him back in the room with me and we three curled up together and he slept peacefully in my arm next to his sister.

For few days they took the laptop from the room because they thought I am becoming too forward from learning things. But then my husband just put it back in all of a sudden; did not even say anything but I have dared to use it a little at a time. It is a relief, like looking out of a window from a prison wall.

I read all the ED discussions today just enjoying the light talk; it was a relief to pretend for that little while that that was all I had to think about! They had made me show what it was I read on IF etc. but only I had enough English to understand it so I don't know what they made of it! It did strike me as a tiny bit funny in all this that they would think I am learning to rebel from reading epi discussions! But, having met you all there and here, perhaps it is a little bit true.

Bless you from Bhakti

Feeling so helpless at not being able to reach out. Please send me your number...I am in Bangalore, have PMed my number to you as well.

Please be strong, we are with you. Can you communicate with your family?