AYLS CC: For Better or Worse..in Good times nd Bad - Page 75

shit

[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9F2iahDuoyU[/YOUTUBE]

WAS DIEING TO SEE THIS SINCE THE DYA I SAW THAT AVI OF URS BUT DIDNT HAD THE FREAKING GUTS TO SEE IT...SHIT...SHIT

HA...I DNT LOVE AY?...I DNT DESERVE AY?...I DNT FEEL AY?...U R FREAKING KIDDING ME RIGHT..RIGHT?...U JUST GOT TO BE KIDDING ME U GOT TO BE KIDDING ME U JUST GOT TO BE KIDDING ME U GOT TO BE KIDDING ME U JUST GOT TO BE KIDDING ME...NO ONE NO ONE CAN SNATCH THIS FORM ME NOT EVEN ME MYSELF OR MY CRAZIEST PATHETICEST OF DOUBTS FEARS MESSED UP FEELINGS MENTAL BLOCKS CALL IT WHATEVER NO ONE CAN SNATCH THIS FROM ME NO DAMNED ONE

[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PDlWWuncH3E[/YOUTUBE]

APNE FRIENDS...APNA BAND...APNA MUSIC...OMG ITS AMAZING HOW HOW HER EYES CHANGE WITH EACH ONE OF THESE THREE WORDS...ITS LIKE WOH FEEL KAR RI HAI KI IN THREE WORDS KA USKI LIFE MAIN KYA MENAING HAI...HE IS NOT FELEING IT RIGHT NOW HE ISNT EVEN SEEING IT WOH SIRF APNI LIFE KE IFS BUTS GALTIYAN BURIYAON SE GHIRA HAI JO NAHI HAI HE IS FEELING THAT WANTING THAT MISSING THAT BUT JO HAI WOH NAHI DEKH RAHA NAHI DEKH PA RAHA...THEEK HAI MAT DEKH SHE WLD SEE FOR HIM SHE WLD BELIEVE FOR HIM...AND MY FREAKING POINT IS SHE IS NOT JUST TELLING THIS JAISE AA KE SHE JUST CAME AUR LECTURE DE DIYA SERMON DE DIYA NOPE SHE IS FEELING THIS WITH HIM BELIEVING THIS WITH HIM FOR HIM LIVING THIS...SHE IS FREKAING LIVING THE MENAING IMPORTANCE BLESSEDNESS OF THE MERE EXISTENCE OF THESE WORDS IN HIS LLIFE..AISE LIVE KAR RI HAI JAISE YEH SAB USKE BRIDGES HAI U KNOW...USKI PRIORITIES USKE SAPNE...OMG...AKE USNE USE CONSOLE NAHI KIYA KI OO YUVI ITNA BURA HUA CRAP NAH SEEDHA AAKE BOLI FINE BURA HO RAHA HAI AUR HONE JA RAHA HAI BUT HELL IS BURI CHEEZ MAIN JO KUCH ACCHA ALREAYD HAI HAMRE PAAS USE MAT BHULO...HER GALAT TURN HER GALAT HAPPENING MAIN KUCH ACCHA CHUPA KUCH SAHI CHUPA THE VERY REASON KI KUCH GALAT HO RAHA HAI IS PROOF KI ISMAIN KUCH SHAI CHUPA HAI AGER NAHI HOTA TOH BHAGGU HAMARE SAATH GALAT HONE HI NAHI DETE...OMG

I think i know the problem u have been tyring to spell it out for me sicne months and months now since freaking more than half an year DAMN IT but sometimes my brain goes itna zada dudd that it just doesnt gets the damned thing...problem yeh hai ki i ws tyring to wiegh love measure love quantify freaking love...i was tyring so hard to not love MD utna jitna i love AY i mean WAT THE HELL? as if AU ki u know magic sirf tba hi maintian hogi when i love them THE MOST ager woh us top position main na ho ya ager koi aur wahaan tak pauhchne ki koshish bhi kare toh ay ki magic diminish hogi REALLY? REALLY I MEAN REAL FREAKING LY?...HOW PATHETIC CAN I BE?...maine khud ne unhe itna materialistic bana diya toh life invisible kaise rahegi just freaking kaise? as if its not abt loving Ay but its abt lovign them the most WHAT FREAKING CRAP WAS THAT IS THAT?...and i know i wld again again sink into this hole I KNOW MYSELF I AM DUMB IN MY HEAD but i am glad am thankful at leats in this one moment I can see the clarity..AND NOW I KNOW NAPS WHAT U MEANT WHEN U SAID WHAT U SAID TWO THREE DAYS BACK...i know what u meant...I KNOW IT...MD r our bridge lekin diff kind of bridge they make us just insanely happy without any damned reason...but AY connect us with Bhaggu and now I fele MD would too coz now I am not going to hate myself for loving them...I just knwo one dmaned thing Ashi yuvi define my existence YES THEY DO THEY ARE PART OF M SOUL AND NO MATTER WHERE I GO NO MATTER WHOM I LOVE NOT LOVE THEY WLD ALWAYS BE M FAITH I AM WHO I AM COZ OF THEM THEY MADE ME BELEIVE AND BUS BAKI SAB REST OF ALL MY LIFE IS JUST GNG TO BE ABT LIVING THAT BELIEF THAT FAITH IN DIFF DIFF THINGS FACES MOMENTS...AND MD R PART OF THAT SAME DAMNED FAITH..IF A DIDNT MAKE ME WHO I AM I DNT THINK I WLD HAV BEEN ABLE TO SEE THROUGH MD..AND ITS NO COINCIDENCE HOW INT HE WORLD FILLED WITH MILLIONS AND MILLIONS OF MD FANS LOVERS ADORERS WE R THE ONLY ONLY FREAKING TWO PPL WHO SEE THEM THE WAY WE DO...ITS NO DAMNED COINCIDENCE

OMG THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE SO EASY LOVING MD LOVING AY BUT I MESSED I UP AND MADE IT ONE OF THE BIGGEST COMPLICATEST MESSES OF MY LIFE...OMG AM SO DUMB SO LUNATICALLY HOPELESSLY DUMB

OMG I HAVENT FELT THIS PEACEFULNESS WITHIN ME SINCE AGES THIS CONFIDENT ABT WHO I AM SINCE FREAKING AGES I HAVENT FELT IT HAVENT FELTT THIS FREKAING PEACE OMG I JUST HOPE I JUST PRAY WITH EVERYTHING IN ME THAT THIS MOMENT THIS FEELING STAYS WITH ME AND I DNT FIR SE FALL INTO THAT CONFUSED MESSED UP PIT

i dunno what to sya i jsut dunno what to say

[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MDktrbKZRyc[/YOUTUBE]

lol nitzie, i understood that...i was jus saying in general abt my stupid sleep

OMG OMG OMG YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH and guess what there r chances Patrick and Ellen might stay for s nine their contracts end at end of s eight but there r chances they might and stay and I so badly want them staying I wld b ok if they dont stay too provided thei go together whatever they do they have to go together THATS ABOUT IT but I am wanting them to stay i am wanting them to stya more MerDer am no finished loving MerDer yet MerDer r so not finished yet they r not they can never be and I cannot wait for a certain someone to continue her GA journey

i love this friendship i love this friendhsip i freaking love it just love it i love Alex Karev

AND THIS...THIS IS MY FREAKING FVT FRIENDSHIP OF GA FREAKING FVT OMG I LOVE THEM I LOVE GIZZIE...FOR THEM FRIENDSHIP IS WAS WILL ALWAYS BE PRAYER OF LOVE