SwaRon OS: Maybe.. Its still not time..
Thanks mujhe nahi Sharon ko.. Simi ko propose karne ke liye iss se better setting tujhe mil hi nahi sakti'
Haan woh Nil ne hi toh di thi mujhe rakhne ke liye'
Ek minute.. Ek minute.. Kahin tumne yeh toh nahi socha ki woh ring maine tumhare liye'
Iss liye tum baar baar shaadi shaadi kar rahi thi'
Sharon humhare pyaar ko ring ya kisi aur cheez ki stamp lagane ki zarurat thodi na hai.. Shaadi ho ya na ho tum humesha mere liye wohi rahogi jo pehle din se ho.. The love of my life.. Today.. And forever..'
Sharon (to herself): Shayad.. Shayad.. Bas yahi hai.. Yeh hi tha.. Kya Swayam humari relationship ka next step nahi lena chahta.. Kya.. Hum kabhi boyfriend girlfriend se jyada ya aage kabhi kuch nahi ho payenge? Kya Swayam mujhe commit nahi karna chahta? Iske aage humara koi future hai?
Sharon.. Stop! Stop it! Stop thinking over it so much.. Swayam aisa nahi hai.. Woh commitment se nahi darta.. Yeah! Jab.. Jab right time hoga tab shayad woh mujhse puche.. Yeah! I should just wait.. Just wait for the right time.. Yeah!
Sharon tried convincing herself as much as she could.. But still.. Still that stinging pain wasn't ready to leave her.. That disappointment didn't leave her.. She didn't know why but it hurt her.. Hurt her bad at that moment when.. When Swayam handed that ring to Nil.. When all the set-up she put up for her proposal was actually for her best friend.. She wasn't jealous or disappointed that Simi and Nil were now together.. But it hurt her that Swayam failed to understand her.. When he failed to despair her feelings.. When all her hints went unknown to him.. When he didn't know the actually reason behind her tears.. The same Swayam who read her like an open book failed to know her today.. When the Swayam who understood her unsaid words didn't respond to her screaming eyes.. When the Swayam who was never afraid of taking a step forward stood still when he realised that she was ready for the next step.. She missed him.. She missed Her Swayam.. She missed Her loverboy.. Who seemed to be lost in the real world.. When they were facing the real challenges in Life..
This was surely not what she wanted.. This was surely not what she expected.. She didn't have the slightest of the doubt that he would change to such an extent..
Sharon wrapped her arms tightly around herself.. Prevent herself from falling apart.. Trying to hold back the broken pieces that were left.. At that moment Swayam didn't take it as a big deal when he hugged her.. trying to console her with his words.. But the damage was already done.. She was hurt.. She was broken.. She was shattered.. She tried to control her tears.. But failed.. Miserably..
Sharon (mumbling to herself, crying): I miss you Swayam.. Miss you..
She kept mumbling and giving in.. Broke down.. Reality had hit her.. Hard..
In the guest house..
Swayam was sitting on the steps at the entrance lost in his own thought..
Swayam (in mind): What just happened? Yeh kya ho gaya? Kaise ho gaya? Sharon.. Sharon ko laga ki main.. Aur main (covering his face with his palm) Yeh maine kya kar diya? Shit! This is such a mess..
All the moments of the last few days crossed his mind..
Tumne humare relation ke baare main kya socha hai? Main guest room main nahi rehna chahti'
Kab tak.. Sirf coffee tak.. Ya saari life tak..'
Don't tell me tum.. tum shaadi tak wait karoge?'
Hum humara honeymoon Spain main manaenge'
Shaadi ke baad hum cook rakh lenge.. Tumhe problem nahi hogi'
Main itna andha kaise ho sakta hoon! Sab kuch mere saamne tha.. Right in front of me.. Aur main.. Shit! (running his hand through his hair) Sharon harr point pe.. Harr occasion pe mujhe hints de rahi thi.. Aur maine sab dekh ke bhi andekha kar diya.. Main aise kaise kar sakta hu! Jaane anjaane main maine Sharon ko bahut hurt kiya hai.. Aur woh.. Jab Nil ne Simi ko propose kiya.. Tab bhi.. God! What was I thinking! Mujhe Sharon se baat karni hogi.. She needs me..
Swayam got up in jiff determined to talk to Sharon.. Determined to mend things up.. Determined to apologise to her.. Determined to comfort her.. He turned on his heel and walked into the guest house where their friends were busy chatting around.. He looked around.. But she wasn't there..
Swayam (to himself): Yeh Sharon kahan chali gayi?
Swayam walked out of the house and started looking around.. He checked the veranda.. And all the places around the house wherever she could be.. The tension slowly building up.. But to his shock she was no where.. Then he rushed to the place she had called him before.. The place was still lit up.. He looked around there and it just added on to his guilt.. She decorated this place for him.. for them' And he?! He turned from there as he didn't find her.. He dialled her number but it wasn't reachable.. He tried again.. and again.. and again.. But got the same response.. He marched back into the house where his friends were.. But now he was worried.. Hell worried.. He knew she was in pain and she would want to stay alone but this place in unknown to all of them..
Swayam (worried): Guys! Guys Sharon kahin nahi hai.. Kisi ne usse dekha kya?
All looked at him in shock WHAT!'
Rey: What do you mean kahin nahi hai.. tu ne theek se dekha kya?!
Swayam (running his hand threw his hair): Haan Rey! Main yahan aas paas sab jagah dundh liya.. Par woh kahin nahi hai..
Vicky: Par woh jaa kahan sakti hai!
Simi and Nil looked at each other at first and then at Swayam.. They knew the reason.. Rey saw the anxiety on Swayam's face and moved to him..
Rey (putting his hand over his shoulder): Dekh.. Tu tension mat le.. Woh yahin kahin hogi.. Tum dono ke beech kuch hua tha kya?
Swayam: Rey woh..
Vicky: Yaar tum dono jab dekho tab jhagadte rehte ho.. Ab itni raat ko Sharon ko kahan dhundenge..
Swayam looked horrified.. He was beyond worried now..
Rey: Guys! Yeh sab discuss karne se accha hum Sharon ko dhunte hai.. Bharat tu yahan rukh aur agar Sharon wapas aaye toh hume phone kar dena.. Aur hum sab alag alag direction main jaake dhundte hai..
Swayam was the first one to rush out.. He just had to find her.. His guilt was just adding onto his anxiety levels.. He walked through the farm with a torch in his hand.. Calling out her name.. Their other friends were also looking here and there.. calling out for her.. But didn't get a response..
Here Sharon had walked aimlessly while lost in her thoughts right to the other end of the village.. She had come to the small lake of the village and settled down on the rock.. She had lost the track on time.. She was numb to her entire surrounding.. She didn't know where she was.. It was just her thoughts.. Running all over her mind.. Right now she just wanted to be alone.. Away from everyone.. Even Swayam..
She was bought out of her chain of thoughts when she felt a tap on her shoulder.. She turned to look who it was and just smiled as that person took a seat next to her..
Rey: Kya baat hai?
Sharon said nothing but continued starring at nothing in particular..
Rey: Swayam ke saath kuch hua?
Sharon simple nodded her head negatively..
Rey: Accha toh yahan kyun baithi ho?
Sharon (softly): Bas.. Aise hi..
Rey (smiling knowingly): Maine sunna tumne Swayam ko Nil aur Simi ka proposal set up karne main help ki..
And that was it.. Sharon's face dropped.. She continued looking ahead without wanting to give anything out to Rey..
Sharon (fumbling): H..aan.. Woh.. Main.. woh..
Rey (placing a hand around her shoulder): Hey.. Mujhe yeh toh nahi pata ki Swayam aur tumhare beech main kya hua hai.. Par ek baat yaad rakhna.. I'm your best friend.. And I'm always there.. to listen to you..
Sharon turned to look at Rey with brimming yes.. She lightly nodded at Rey who gave her an assuring smile in return..
Rey: Chalo.. Wahan sab tensed hai tumhare liye.. Specially Swayam..
Rey stood up and held out a hand to help her get up.. Sharon was hesitant at first to face Swayam after the entire situation that took place but then held Rey's hand and followed him back to the guest house..
Here Swayam was going mad.. He had been looking around for Sharon like crazy.. Calling out her name.. He run his hand through his hair messing it all up.. But he didn't care.. He was just frustrated he couldn't find Sharon knowing that she was hurt.. He ran a bit more ahead trying to look through the darkness if he could stop her..
Swayam (to himself): Kahan ho tum Sharon?.. Where are you?
Just as he took another step forward he felt his phone buzz.. He got out the phone and picked up the call without looking at the caller id..
Swayam: Sharon!
Rey: Sharon nahi Rey!.. Main Sharon ko guest house pe leke aa gaya hoon.. Tu bhi aaja..
Swayam immediately cut the call and ran his way back to the guest house.. He wanted to get there as soon as possible..
As he reached, he saw Sharon being hugged by Simi and the rest of the gang was standing around her.. He without give a damn about the other rushed forward and pulled her into a bone-crushing hug.. He held her tight.. He held her close.. Not wanting to let her go anywhere..
Sharon was taken by surprise.. But as soon as she realised it was him she responded back with the same intensity.. She could feel his uneven breath on her nape.. She felt his panic by the way he held her.. She started rubbing his back trying to calm him down.. As his breathing evened he pulled back holding her by her shoulder.. Rey on the other hand gestured everyone to leave both Swayam and Sharon alone.. Everyone silent walked off without disturbing the duo..
Swayam (warning): Don't you ever do that again!.. Tumhe pata hai main kitna darr gaya tha?! Kaise kaise khayaal aa rahe the mere dimag main.. Ek toh yeh jagah nayi hai toh upar se itni raat ho gayi hai.. Tumhe kuch.. (he shuddered down at his own thought)
Sharon kept listening to him with a tiny smile on his face.. She saw the concern on his face.. the fear and panic in his voice.. As she felt him shudder she pulled him into a hug feeling guilty that he went through all of this because of her action.. She nuzzled into the crook of his neck and clutched his shirt on his back.. Swayam too wrapped his arms around her closing his eyes and taking in her presence.. She knew he still needed that assurance that she was there after all this panic and the situation that they had been through.. She had seen a few traces of guilt in his eyes which did indicate that he was blaming himself somewhere.. She was hurt due to some of his actions but those were all unintentional.. That's why she didn't want him to feel guilty about it..
Sharon (softly): Tum kyun darr gaye the Swayam?
Swayam went still for a moment.. His eyes snapped open.. He tightened his hold around her but kept looking straight.. Trying to build up the courage he needed to talk to her..
Swayam: Sharon.. woh..
Sharon got out of his hold and stood right in front of him looking at him with a light frown.. Whereas Swayam was unable to look into her eyes.. He was so thrown back with the entire scenario that now he didn't know how should he apologise..
Sharon: Kya baat hai?
Swayam (closing his eyes): I'm Sorry..
Sharon's frown vanished and she looked at him with a straight face knowing where all of it is going.. She didn't want to break down once again.. Not in front of him atleast.. She didn't want to see that guilt..
Sharon (softly): Don't..
Swayam's head shot up.. He looked at her with all the guilt he felt.. He saw her trying to control herself.. Trying to control her tears.. Which just deepened his feeling because he knew she wouldn't want to shed her tears in front of him at the moment.. He rested his forehead against her and let all of it out
Swayam (closing his eyes and gulping down the lump): I'm sorry.. Tumhe itna hurt karne ke liye.. I'm sorry.. Tumhe nahi samjhne ke liye.. I'm sorry.. Mujhe pata hai aaj maine tumhe hurt kiya hai.. I'm really very sorry.. Main..
All this while Sharon had just closed her eyes and let her tears flow.. Her hands has travelled up his shirt and she was pulling him closer by his collar.. She wanted to push him away for a while but whom was she kidding.. She needed him the most to comfort her all this while..
Swayam (looking at her): Sharon aisa nahi hai ki main tumhe propose nahi karna chahta ya humare relationship ka next step lene se darta hu.. It's just that I'm waiting for the right time.. Pehle main khud ke dump e kuch karna chahta hoon taaki main tumhara haath pakad ne ke layak bann saku.. Tumhara dhyaan rakh saku.. Abhi mere paas jo bhi hai sab mere papa ne diya hua hai.. Aur main tumhe mere ghar main.. Humare ghar main leke jaana chahta hoon..
Sharon (placing a finger over his lip): Shhh.. I know.. (resting her forehead over his) I know..
Swayam (with brimmed eyes): Sorry...
Sharon (creasing his stubble with her thumb): I love you..
Swayam face split into a heart warming smile.. He stood straight and at first wiped out the tears on her cheek before it stained her angelic face.. He slid his hand along her jaw and moved forward placing his lips over her forehead.. He let his lips linger around for a moment longer.. He skimmed down from between her eyebrows and down her nose.. He placed another soft kiss on the tip of her nose.. He then shifted to his left placing another kiss there.. The to his right repeating the process down on her chin.. He then looked at her as she had closed her eyes and had a smile dancing on her face.. A smile he can put down the sky for.. He moved upwards and placed soft suckling kisses over both her eyes.. And the shifted back with his gaze fixed at her..
Swayam (huskily): I love you too..
Sharon very slowly and calmly opened her eyes.. She felt a heavy weight off her after each kiss he gave her.. Her sight was looked with his.. All they could see was love.. endless love for each other.. With the same smile Sharon took a step forward and resumed her previous position in his arms.. Nuzzling closer to him.. He smiled at her cute gesture and welcoming her wrapped his arms around her protectively yet possessively.. Both stood like that for god knows how long.. But this time with a content feeling.. All the mess being cleared.. All the guilty gone.. And the love was back.. They were back.. And that was all they both wanted..
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