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Hey all!
This is my first ever OS. I do write. But not on fiction. Hope you'll enjoy. And, do not forget to comment and review. :)
Introduction:
This OS is from Sharon's pov. More like what Sharon writes in her diary. Their story started from being "friends on facebook" to actually being "friends forever". Sharon then did not know that being a FRIEND for FOREVER will ever hurt her.
Swayam and Sharon had graduated from the same college. Back then they only knew each other's name.
After graduation, Swayam opted for higher studies and Sharon went in for a job. They one fine day Sharon found a friend request from him on facebook. So,the nerdy guy knew what FB is, she smiled and accepted. She did not know that one click would "click her life".
Here it is-
Dear Diary,
#I am not sure of my feelings. Oh, don't pretend! you already know what am I talking about.
Have I fallen for him? Or on the verge of falling? Or in the first place did I really feel anything for him? Arrghh!
#I shudder when I think of what would have happened if I had not made a fake id and talked to him like a long lost friend on FB. Ofcourse he being so simple and genuine told me the bits I should ought to have known before falling for him. Yeah, you guessed it right he likes someone else. Had I not known, I would have taken his care otherwise and thought he likes me too. Or, have I already?
#By doing this I have been manipulative, I have been a liar. So I don't deserve a person like him. Serves me right he likes someone else.
#But, I am glad we do acknowledge each other's presence and absence. God! Why did he once say."Thanks to FB, I can connect to you while being 2000kms away." I guess thats the monstrous thing about love, the most genuine and oh-so-casual thing spoken by him/her seems so fairy tale like, without the slightest hint about it to him or her.
#Sometimes I think all this is self constructed. By me.
#I'm just one of his friends who helps him pass his time when he has nothing to do. Sharon, what the hell are you doing?! Have you ever seen him up online when he is busy just to talk to you? Unlike you?
#Oh yes. Wait up. He did message me once when I did not turn up for few days that he was missing me. And, that did not fail to make my heart skip a beat.
#Even after knowing he thinks of me just as a friend, why can't I stop dreaming of having a future with him?
#He is totally weird. Weird of the kind that some might think he is mad. But I like his weirdness.
#I get affected by what he thinks of me.
#Oh yeah. It was his birthday when we exchanged numbers. I couldn't say no when he asked. Actually I was more than happy when he asked. So the Sharon Raiprakash voluntarily gave her number to a boy.
#We still haven't talked yet. Though he has hinted he wants to talk,I have cleverly avoided they topic on our chats. I want to talk but I did not grab that oppurtunity. Well, thats me. Complicated me. Sigh!
#He catches me off guard with his simple questions. The sarcastic/witty side of me goes for a stroll then.
#I sometimes wonder has he ever thought of having a future with me and then shoooed away the thought?
#Does he already know what I think of him? Hmmm, he is smart that way. Or, he is actually too dumb to notice even a tiny bit?
#Maybe my show of I-need-nobody already chased away the 0.001% of a future ?
#Maybe he doesn't feel I'm of THAT type.
#When he says I am not what I seem. I am sad and complicated. My mind screams-" Hell! Me too..we'll fight it together!"
#I may have not told you but you have turned out smart after college.
#I like your gentle fingers.
#Do you really like that other girl? Maybe you really do, coz you are a one woman type guy. So you'll never leave her. And no chance she'll do so. She has got a diamond hasn't she?
#Ok, I know she is the gentle, flowerly type and me a bit violent and on-your-face type.
#Why do I have this hope that I'd be the one to comfort you like if 'anything' went wrong.
# Am I jealous?
#"The me" is ready to be the second girl.OMGF.
#Do you know you are the most genuine person I have ever come across?
#Do you know that your simple words are so deep and meaning to me? And that you do flirt, unknowingly.
#Why can't I possibly distance myself from you?
#I hate chessy! But from you its seems so cute.
#I know I'm friendzoned and yeah that hurts.
#You called me on my birthday and I delibrately did not recieve your call. I didn't want to get affected. But yes that was special. And, with that I lost my chance to talk to you maybe for forever. Because you haven't mentioned wanting to speak to me anymore after that.
#I will always wish you success,where ever I am, wherever you are.
# I want to get out of this before its too late. Or is it already?
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Thank you amy lovely readers for coming down to the bottom. Hope I didn't bore you much.
Love Always. :)
