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Sharon in the beginning
Sharon during the beginning was introduced as a girl who was impulsive, hot - tempered, egoistic, self-obsessed, control freak, proud of her riches, selfish, who only had eyes for materialistic gifts (Swayam gifting her being a secret admirer and she gloating and getting impressed with the choice of gifts.)
But somehwere deep down in her lay an inncoent, and a simple girl. Swayam fell in love with that girl and his simple ways and giving her special attention made her feel like a princess,which she loved being. She got infatuated with his simple ways and being treated like a princess always. She expected him to come behind her like a loyal puppy, even if she rejects him n number of times due to her ego (coz it has always been that be it her friends or family everybody has only listened to her and followed her orders, it has never been vice versa,)
This habit got imbibed in her.
Sharon in trial relationship
Sharon had gone through many ups and downs in her life after the footloose eliminations, where Swayam stood near her like a rock. She was definitely grateful to him for that as during that time even her best friends left her but still she was not sure about her feelings, her ego, her reputation, etc came in between and though she softened she was yet not ready to give him a chance and so that talk on the terrace during the charity event.
But when she saw Swayam breaking badly, she felt bad. So she decided to give them a chance as she was also very confused about her feelings towards him. It was just a simple crush for her but deep down she loved him, but she was yet to realize those feelings for him.
But still she was not ready come in front of everybody, giving the excuse that they themselves were not sure of their relationship, but somewhere the reasons were her ego, her reputation of dating a weakling and being made fun of was also there.
During that period also, she wanted Swayam to act according to her wishes and not get his wishes in the front. It was always her in the relaitionship and never us. (the self-obsessed nature came here.) But Swayam accepted all those. Its not that she did not try to change herself but she definitely wasn't comfortable with those changes otherwise she would have never continuously rant that she was changing for him, trying to make him feel, how much she was doing for him.
During this time, her head started getting cleared and she realised that her feelings were just not simple CRUSH but deeper than that, it was love. But at the same time, her weakness also came to the fore which was unable to solve problems in the relationships as she cannot let go of her ego and bend. She realised that Swayam was getting into trouble due to her, so in order to stop giving him pain and also not bend, she found the easier solution which was to break the relationship. She justified the proverb -- " One can break but not bend."
Sharon, after she came back
When Sharon came back, she realised she had Aasthma so as she did not want to give him pains, she decided to use the tried and tested method of staying away from him, but his pain melted her and she revealed her problem and also told him about her wish of breaking up. Once again her wish was put at the top.
After that, Swaron became more close and it got more difficult for Sharon to control her heart and she finally gave in and confessed her feelings to him. She in her excitement was ready to let it be official but Swayam was apprehensive, as he knew Sharon was impulsive as well as short-tempered. He did not want to go through the ordeal of insult once again which he had endured many times, so they went into a secret relationship.
The testing times started and it was seen that Sharon is definitely smitten by Swayam and does love him a lot but still, has not given herself completely in this relationship. Swayam's opinion never mattered to her. Though she loved him a lot, She wanted him to dance to her tunes and not vice versa. That's why her signing of contract papers, her hiding things. Sharon during all times only wanted Swayam to understand her emotions, her pain, her happiness, but as a girlfriend was not ready to understand him and his emotions. Her ego, her habit of getting things done according to her wish without any argument was evident in all the fights Swaron had.
It was clear in their verbal spat, when Swayam came back after the night and revolted to her words stating that - " He also had the right to be angry and not be sensible always. Afterall he is a human too. " Sharon's answer - " No !! You do not have the right to be angry at anybody."clearly stated that she never put Swayam at her equal. For her, his emotions, his feelings were negligible when it came to weigh between her pain and emotions.
After the spat, she was not ready to listen to Swayam and understand him and compromise on things, she once again chose the easy path which was to break the relationship rather than sort out the relationship by talking and compromising a little.
After that spat, She never came down to talk, always gave him attitude but was not comfortable with Aashi given more importance. She still wanted him to come behind her like always, apologize and sort out the matter.
As Rinni said -- " Sharon is possessive of her things. She is not ready to share it even if she does not like it and never uses it. She is addicted to Swayam's special attention and now that she does not get it, she does not like it and lashes at the person who is getting her share."
Sharon wanted Swayam back in her life but was not ready to go and talk to him, but as she was bothered with Aashi and the constant pressure from her heart, she decided to take the first step but she found out a solution where Swayam would have to give in first and not her,
But Swayam understood her game and manipulated the whole game. She got furious once she found out and confronted him, but once again allowed her ego to rule herself and not bend and say I LOVE YOU first. She does not feel the need to apologise as she does not see herself in the wrong light anywhere in the fight as always and once again wants him to apologize and sort out things.
And now that Swayam blurted out the secret in his defense,along with her ego, the fear of losing her prestige comes in and she flatly denies the relationship in front of all hurting him to the core and making him face his worst fears come true that, he and his emotions were never in her life and she could leave him and go away anytime.
Sharon has an ego which is too big for her BOOTS, for her nobody is equal to her and this attitude has to go, if we want a proper Swaron relationship. Sharon needs a BIG SHOCK to break these traits. I hope Swayam finally leaves her and gets seriously involved with some other girl. He should even stops interacting with her then only will she get to learn.
I know its a very long post and no one would read it and even if somebody has read it, I will be ready for all theTomatos and Chappals as I really dunno what I have written in the thread.
Udne Ki Aasha
