Hello people.😊 I felt like writing a monologue so Here's a little something to What I wish would happen in D3. So this is what Sharon's Heart Says:
She flopped herself down on her bean bag, and wiped off the streams of tears falling down her face. His words kept ringing in her ears "toh uske paas relationship todne ke alawa aur koi option nahi bachta". She remembered how pale his face looked when he had said that, so unlike her face which had reddened due to all the crying.
She couldn't believe it that he said that. Sure, they had fought, broken up earlier. But this time when he said that, she felt his voice crack. She realized how difficult it must have been for him to say that. How difficult she was being to him!
That moment, it seemed to her that he had given up. He was so exasperated of running around, making others happy, making her happy, that somehow, their friends, her, and he himself had forgotten about his happiness
. And her mind went in a frizzy thinking of all the things he had been through in the past few days. It told her so many things at a time, that she couldn't think anything. It's one of those moments when you have so many things going on in your head, that your mind goes blank. And then, she felt a pang in her heart. Slowly, his picture flashed in her mind, when he had held her hand and made that promise during their Camping Date. Oh how adorable he looked with that smile!
Then she began whimpering, and spoke to herself, trying not to choke on her words "I am Sorry Swayam, I am so sorry. I let you down again, I failed. As much as I tried, I don't know how I kept forgetting that your happiness lies in me, being there by my side. I wish I could undo all the harsh words I said to you today, and in the past. I wish I could explain what you mean to me.
I was mean to you always, and you were always so gentle to me, so tender, always ready to give your love, never asking anything in return. I remember how I used to show that I loathed you in the beginning. The truth was that I was scared to let you come near me. That's because I know that I don't deserve you. I was scared that I might end up hurting you, and I kept pushing you away, but the more I did that, the more I brought pain to you. I don't know when I started falling for you Swayam, probably it was when I saw you looking at me lovingly over two years back, while you stood on the steps, and all I did was scoff at you. Probably it was when I told you that you were a good dancer, and asked you to keep it a secret, probably it was on Rose Day when you put that Rose down, probably it was when I danced with you, probably it was when I came to know you were my secret admirer, or maybe when you said the book is shut unless I want to open it. It could also be when I was jealous when others teased you with Kria, or the time when for the first time, you raised your voice in front of me in the canteen during the sixth dancer incident, or the time when you were ready for a Trial relationship coz that is what I wanted.
I fell for you more when after our break up, you still cared for me so much going out of your way to make sure I was comfortable. You kept your distance when you felt that's what I wanted. You took care of me when you came to know about my asthma, it worried you more than it worried me. I fell for you more when we laughed sitting down after our dance at that wedding, laughed our hearts out. I fell for you deeper when you said I looked "khoobsurat" . and although it was late when I did come around to accepting my feelings that I love you, I also realized that I have been in love with you all along. That day, when I finally told you I love you, I saw how much it meant to you. That beautiful smile of yours, and that spark in your eyes managed to take away all my fears, and all I knew is that it was worth it. That you deserve a chance, that WE deserve it.
You have always managed to read me like an open book, and knowing the fact that you loved me no matter what just made me want to fall in love with you even more, if that was possible. I wish Swayam, that for once, I would stop expecting you to understand what I feel, and come around and say this to you. I wish I can just pull you into a hug and tell you everything will be fine. And I wish I stopped being so stubborn. And I wish that we would sail through this storm in our relationship, and I know that we will, because I won't give up on you Swayam, I won't let you give up on me, and we won't give up on our love"
Leme know your views on this. Positive, Negative comments are welcome.😃
Love,
Payal😳
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