A guy probably in his 20s was lying on the hospital bed staring at nothing but the wall engrossed deep in his thought she was thinking about the person who mattered the most to him..the person who meant a lot to him and the memories that he ha d spent with her and while this only he remembered that day.
Swayam was sitting on the bar counter with a empty glass in his hand which I think was his fifth one for the night he said "woh aisa kaise kar sakti hai..ussne aik baar bhi nahi soocha ki mujhse kaisa lagega.aik baar bhi nahi socha ki mujhe kitna hurt hoga.main hamesha uski help karta tha..maine kabh bhi use kisi bhi cheez ke liye blame nahi kiya.tab bhi kuch nahi bola jab usne sabke samne mujhe slap kiya..kyonki I loved herI love her mujhe use tab pyaar hua jab maine use pehli baar dekha." Said a completely drunk swayam people say when you are drunk you are not in your senses..I feel when you are drunk u speak your heart out thats what swayam did he spoke that out loud but no one heared him because at that hour of night not many of the people are in a place like this and those who are,are very much in the same condition as he was.and so he continued nodding his head negatively "naa pyaar ka koi time nahi hota..koi place nahi hoti koi fixed decided conditions nahi hoti its unconditional eternal..aur mujhe Sharon ko blame bhi nahi karna chahiye maine use pyaar karne se pehle yeh shart toh nahi rakhi thi ki who bhi mujhse pyaar karegi who muhse pyaar nahi karti ..."he said completely broke down.it had been a long day for him and a though one too first he was so nervous about how will he confess his feeling true feelings to Sharon and when he did but before that..they were very good friends of each other Sharon used to talk to him for hours..discussing every random thing and also because he was the only one Indian guy in her batch at new York .she used to talk to him about her insecurities ,problems, difficulties even swayam was the one who carried loads and loads of shopping bags when she would be busy looking herself in the mirror checking that she looks THE PERFECT DIVA or not.being The diva she never allowed anyone especially a guy to pay for her but for swayam it was totally different she forced him to pay all the bills when they went shopping together at it was most of the time even swayam was the one on who's shoulder she would cry for long hours.and swayam thought all of this to be her love but after hearing Sharons reaction after he proposed her changed his mind and he thought he misunderstood her well Sharon said.."swayam I like you but I dont feel this is the right time" and with that she excused herself from there leaving swayam shocked and confused he didnt knew what she meant by not the right time but he thought that she meant she doesnt likes him at all and she said that only as a friend..And it was better to think it that way rather creating some false hopes the drunk swayam remembered it and again the confusion began to irritate him when once he thought that what she meant then why was his heart not able to accept the decision of his brain..In this frustration he banged his hand on the table along the glass.breaking it into pieces which pierced his hand and it started bleeding
He smiled at himself when he remembered that day.it was so foolish of him to think that Sharon didn't loved him..but he cant blame himself..Anyone would think in the same way he himself was relieved the next day..the day which he likes to refer as the best and the worst day of his life.
Swayam was pacing towards the back stage of their college it was the usual placed they used to hang out and talk completing their assignments.but today he was worried for the first time to go there.because it was only yesterday he confessed his feelings to her and he always feared that it could break their friendship and what was she wanting to talk about he made his steps quick and reached there.there he was standing in a white dress looking even more beautiful than an angle and she said.. "swayam you were always there when I needed you you always tolerated my stupid talks always listened to me patiently when I used to blabber about TV serials always completed the oh-so-boring computer assignments for me always messed with any person who spoke ill about me always carried my shopping bags always came with me to watch the Twilight series even when you hated it a lot always was the first person who wished me good morning and good night..always you have done everything for me and never asked something in return and today I want to ask you something actually tell you something..like you have done it in the past always love me because I love you too Mr.Shekhawat" with that she hugged swayam tightly and swayam hugged her back he was way too shock as she was proceeding her words..Because she was saying all that with immense love in her voice and he was in tears as she ended.and then it struck to him and he broke the hug and asked her... "wait a sec...Then what you meant yesterday?? And why the hell you did that?? Tumhe pata hai I felt so bad after you went from there.haan??" " Aww I m sholly but you know I always wanted to tell you what you meant to me and kal I was dressed in our event uniforms...aur it was the IT event actually galti tumhari hai tumhe bhi wohi din mila tha I mean seriously swayam and moreover I was way too tired and in the middle of nowhere you suddenly confessed to me that to bich sadak par I wanted my confession to be special you know and at this very place jahan meri tumhare saath itni saari yaadein judi hui hain" "really now tumne sirf iss wajah se mera dil toda kyunki tum event uniform main thi I mean you are impossible Sharon" " arre sorry bola naa.now what you want me to do??" "I want you to come with me on a long drive now!!" " long drive abhi !!!" "haan thats your punishment" " punishment???. agar tum hamesha inti cute aur romantic punishments doge naa toh be ready for my plently of mistakes" "I am ever ready agar tumhare mistakes itne sweet note par end hote hain" " oh please..hum aisi cheesy baatein kyun kar rahain hain?? Lets go..!! hum time waste kar rahain hain" "your wish is my command.."
And with that the sat in his car and drove without any destination he was driving at a comparatively high speed and talking to Sharon about every big and small things about their future and how would they continue their relationship sharon had already made number of demands from swayam. which included he would never shout on her he would always now come to drop her home and pick her up too and the most important he would never talk something rubbish about Twilight and Rpatz swayam laughed aloud on hearing that... and Sharon said "what ??I am serious" making swayam laugh more harder "swayam!! I am very serious.." sharon said in a tensed tone..swayam stopped laughing but kept on giggling they also spoke about trusting each other...spending time with each other...however busy he would be he wouldn't forget her.and they would never leave each other what ever happened suddenly out of the blue Sharon said "swayam would we marry here or in India??" swayam looked at her shocked!!! he never expected Sharon to say this so early they just confessed and so it was a shock for him and he was staring at her and doing so he lost the track of road and forgot that they had entered the city Sharon realizing this shouted swayam" look forward!! " their car was about to hit the car in front of them and with the speed he was driving he became worried and applied sudden brakes..turning the car his side so that it would hit when he was sitting that was the most wrong decision for him...the car hit with a lot of force at his side but another car which was at their back hit their car on the side where Sharon was sitting that was the last thing he remembers of that day and he shouted "Sharon..!!!!!!!!!!!..."
Swayam was crying badly on his bed in the hospital when he again remembered...
He opened his eyes and found himself in a room ...surrounded with many instruments and he felt a severe pain mostly on all his body... but more on his back.he realized that he had a white cloth around and hat he is in hospital..The events of last night went through his mind and he remembered his last word ...he moved his eyes around the room and doctor was asking him" how do you feel now??" checking the reading on those instruments"where is she??" said swayam "who??" said the doctor he knew whom he was asking about as their friends had came to the hospital till then and told the doctor "Sharon..!! where is she??!! "he said in a loud voice" swayam relax.." " where the hell is she damnit!!! Tell me!!! "swayam..calm down.". "are u telling me or not..??!!! han!" shouted swayam and began breathing heavily as it was not good for him to shout so loud at that point "swayam please don't shout..." "I wanna meet her know or else" said swayam trying to move up "swayam please lay down okay... okay..!! I would take you to her wait nurse..!!!!" the doctor dint had an option left..he called for a wheel chair and took swayam to Sharon..there she laid..also with many plasters around her swayams heart broke to see her like that and he blamed himself for it and went near her with the help of the doctor and hold her hand.and called her name out but she didnt respond..and her hands were cold.very cold a fear ran in swayam's veins..and he asked "why is she so cold??" the doctor kept quiet"why the hell she is so cold??" swayam repeated the behavior of the doctor was irritating him swayam "I wont hide anything from you she actually had a severe injury on her head and many clots in her brain I am sorry but we couldnt save her" "No!!!!!!!!!!... no... she cant leave me like this...no she cant do this to me...no!! how would I live without her..?? she..she said she that we would never leave each other..she she promised me no...nahi...!!Sharon pls wake up Sharon pls don't do this to me..pls sharon I m sorry I promise I wont drive like this again... pls Sharon wake up pls.." said swayam caressing her face and trying to wake her up as she was in deep sleep "swayam control yourself" said the doctor.. "shut up!! Just shut up!! Nothing could happen to her u get that Sharon pls wake up shronnn..." he said as his voice fainted.and he became unconscious and doctor took him away.
After that day and that incident swayam never drove a car again till date..he was too scared to do that..he left talking to anyone..he would just sit quietly in a corner..sometimes crying..he always blamed himself for whatever had happened...he felt very guilty...he left New York after sometime.as being there it reminded him of Sharon.every place he would see her..and when she would disappear...it would hurt him even more..so he thought to lessen this he should go back to his home..to India..
An year passed but He still couldnt get her out of his mind.its not that he wanted to forget her and move on or something he cannot do that but he wanted to forgive himself as with every growing day he would hate himself more and more and he was fed up of his life.but that was until he met a friend a friend to whom he shared his all feelings and somewhere in between their conversations the topic about Sharon arise and swayam shared it with her.as he trusted her and she said and advised him to not do this she also said that how would Sharon feel if he does this..if he would be at her place would he like if Sharon did like that.to which swayam said he would have never liked it.and so he himself should also not do it and be happy not for him but for her..and many more things and listening to her he actually felt that how long he would live like this he should stop it lead a happy life ahead.he also started feeling good and he felt very thankful to her for giving him a new life he really felt that she was a God gift for him...
but it seemed that God didn't liked if he is happy..after a few days he had a small accident but in it he hurt his back badly again and his injuries got worst..and he was confined to the hospital bed again ...he could not sit nor walk..not even lay straight on his back.the doctors said that the only cure to his problem is an operation but it is very risky the chances of survival are only 60% but if not he has to spend his life on bed forever
its then when he was remembering all the old memories crying at times but at last was happy...he chose to opt for the operation he could not spend his whole life like that on bed and there was a strange pleasant feeling that if destiny had chose death for him he would get a chance to meet Sharon again...he was listening to a song which he felt right for the situation..he loved her and would always do no matter what..
Tu Aaja
Tu aaja
Mujhko meri sazaa toh suna jaa
Woh aahein haan woh aansu...
mere hisse ke mujhko rula jaa
sapne tere saare jinme main rehta tha
tukde ban ke mere
Zakhm seene me kar gaye ho
maine mere jaana kyun nahi jaana
ishq tera, dard tera
Maine Mere Jaana Kyun Nahi Jaana
Ishq Tera, Dard Tera
Akela akela
reh gaya bin tere yun akela
main tadpoo'n ya taarsoo'n
Ya chala aau'n main paas tere
itni tanhai hai zindagi kho gayi
baatein karne saari aa raha hoon tujhse hi
maine mere jaana ab hai jaana...
ishq tera dard tera haaye
maine mere jaaana ab hai jaana
ishq tera dard tera
tum jo gaye...
haal ye mera rehta hai
dil ye mera aaa..aaa...
khud se hi tanha rehta hai
and i feel too lonely yeah...
thats a better place than this
:Emptiness
and I'm too lonely
thats a better place than this
:Emptiness
If you have people around you who love you and care for you then dont take them as granted...be with them...if you loose them once...you wouldnt get that chance back...
Love is a very pure and eternal feeling...dont insult it...try to enjoy it... I only got 2 hours to love...i hope that happened with me never happens with anyone else...so love everyone...and love them the most who love you...
P.S. if you think its too worst to happen to someone then guyzz its my real story..even the part that i m lying on the bed..i wrote this os as i always wanted to write it..when i started writing i always wanted this to be my last piece...and today i dont know i would be alive tomorrow or not...and so i would like to thank IF as i have got many good friends here...and i would definitely miss u guyz..
P.P.S sorry if i bored you...you are meant to read at your own risk.. :P but it was all true..
Rohan :)
EDITED BY RAHUL (only the fonts and spells)
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