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It's Often said that too much Happiness isn't good, as in that state of mind, you tend to ignore a lot of things. I realize this Today out of all the Days.
This is because I realized that I had become a little selfish over the past few months. When I saw SwaRon gelling so well with each other, I was ecstatic, and in ultimate bliss. So much so, that not once did I think about Swayam. He was Smiling, but did I ever think whetehr he was truly Happy? But he looked Happy didn't he? To explain what I felt today after Swayam's Monologue, I will Copy paste some Part from my Comment on another Post simply coz I am feeling a lil lazy to write it down.
When Swayam Said these lines:"Main apne aap se jhuth bolke thak gaya hun.Hum aise behave karne lage hai jaise ki hum best friends hai.Sach toh ye hai ki I miss you so bad Sharon.Right now mera bas chaley toh main tumhe inn sabse durr le chalu.Jaha sirf main aur tum ho.I want you by my side so bad Sharon. Love you so much ke it hurts.It hurts Sharon."
I was so damn touched. Over the past few months I was just happy to see both of them so confortable and content with each other. never did I realise what Swayam must be going through. For a guy who has loved her for over 5 Years, pretending that nothing ever happened wouldn't have been easy. In fact, it must hurt a lot, and I now realise that though he was always smiling, he must be going through an emotional turmoil. Today I truly understood why I respect Swayam so much. He put on a facade to make sure Sharon was comfortable always, but I am sure it must be killing him from inside, every single day, every hour, every minute, every damn moment.
How I loved this part today. Sure Sharon's monolgue was epic, but right from the second he looked at her, I could see all those emotions in his eyes, Love foremost, Passion, Hope, Pain, Faith, Tiredness, all of it. His eyes that very second gave away all those feelings he had been suppressing over all these months, for the sake of Sharon. And the way he looked at her, that feeling of longing, he himself looked so lonely. I wish there was something I could do rather than just stare at the TV screen. Honestly, today Sharon made me cry, but when I saw the scene again, thinking about Swayam, I realised that I was crying for him too. Swayam, Gosh, How can you love her so much! How can anyone love someone so so so so so much.
One thing I know, uptill now I didn't believe in Love, or maybe I still wont, but I believe in Swayam's Love for Sharon, which is so pure, so honest and so unadulterated. I would say just one thing to anyone who asks me about love, "Love like Swayam, or don't fall in love". But again, there is none who can love like him, so selfless, always ready to give, never expecting anything in return, but always hopeful that is Love will be accepted. And IT IS 😃
I will not forget to mention his equation with Aashi. In real life, if anyone comes to know that someone likes you, and unless you too like them back, you tend to creep out. So much so, that things get awkward between you too. For example, Mr. A realises that Ms. B likes him, and he doesnt reciprocate the feelings. What would he do? He would try his best to maintain distance, making sure that Ms.B doesnt get hopeful of things. But he wouldn't realise that during this, she would end up feeling guilty about all this.
But we have Swayam here, who despite knowing that Aashi loves him, just treats her right. He will compliment her over her dance, and he will joke with her when she gets selected as the CS. He has made sure that she isn't uncomfortable around him. At the same time, he has made sure that Aashi KNOWS that he is in love with Sharon. Not once has he crossed his line with her, flirted with her or whatsoever. It will be easy to argue that Swayam wouldn't flirt with anyone other than Sharon. Yes he wouldn't. But the way he treats Aashi, is just about right. As a friend, but making sure she would never get hopeful about stuff. Nor has he ever mentioned to her that he knows how she feels about him. The result is that Ashi doesn't get awkward when with Swayam.
After noticing all this about Swayam, I can proudly say that I am so much in love with Swayam, that I wish he were for real 😆. And I feel so good to love a guy like him And I have always respected him, but when I think about this all, my respect for him increases by leaps and bounds.
Having said this, A chhotu sa but a very Vital Thank You to Tannu. I don't think anyone would have ever played Swayam the way you do. The way you portray Swayam, you bring him to Life, and at times it becomes so difficult for me to differentiate between the real you and Swayam-the Reel Character. I not only Love and Respect you, but I idiolise you as well. Thank you so so so much Shantanu Maheshwari for giving us our Loverboy Swayam.
-Payal 😳
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