How long do you wish to live? - Page 4

Originally posted by: Ajeeb-ladki

Short answer: Sooner the better ! Don't want long life, marriage, kids, grandkids and all of those😬!!

I didn't want to reply here because I am going to write too much and too glibberish, tried so hard to resist writing and even posting but I can't control my mind!!

I feel stuck. This feeling of not wanting to live beyond the year I am in, started overpowering me since my grade 10 i.e since last 6 years!

Then, too, I survived ..I did despite doing some silly 'trying to kill myself acts' which were too stupid. They were all safe..

Now, since last 3 years, I am again in that phase..

Though, yeah, I love little things like..I love listening to songs, the moon, the stars, the flowers, hills, mountains, lakes, food!

I appreciate these!

But, actually living the life, surviving in this world feels too suffocating, too much! Each and everything feels so stressing...everything; talking to people, maintaining relationships, understanding mindsets of people..

Most of the time, I barely can wake up from bed..I can stay in my bed whole day without eating anything, and I don't feel a thing..

It's not that I can't do, I did my job so sincerely when I had to do that job for 2 months..I did!

But, again at home, I have become that same person..Ughhh

I am managing my bachelors just fine but stupid me is enrolled in CA too, how am I going to actually pass CA with just half mind in actual studying with this whole 'I don't want to live' mindset ; where even students studying giving their whole soul and mind are failing ...ughhh

If someone tells me to motivate them, I can give whole lecture, I know what is the right thing, what I actually should do now to get my life in right track, but ..

Mad!!

Awwww....🤗

There is enough advice already so I won’t advice you or anything but just want to share with you about myself. I keep going through such phases every now and then but what helped me taking life literally one minute at a time and also having to take care of someone outside of me.

Remember that there is always someone who loves you more than you will ever know or understand. ❤️

Originally posted by: Mishh007

But what if parents are a major reason why you wanna off yourself?😆

What problems have your parents caused you? C'mon

Kya sochkar ye thread banaya balti 🤔😆

Originally posted by: catchmeifucan

Awwww....🤗

There is enough advice already so I won’t advice you or anything but just want to share with you about myself. I keep going through such phases every now and then but what helped me taking life literally one minute at a time and also having to take care of someone outside of me.

Remember that there is always someone who loves you more than you will ever know or understand. ❤️

Thank you so much 🤗

And sending lots of good wishes to you and your loved ones❤️

Can’t I fantasize about an actual fountain of youth and being immortal …… forever making hearts flutter with a flip of my hair? 🤣 Is that too much to ask?

But on a serious note, death terrifies me even though every living being is born with that inevitable end in future.

That led me to watch episodes of End of Life on Prime that documents the final years/months of people who are terminally ill and nearing the inevitable.

It was heartbreaking watching them fight so hard for their lives and still not being able to beat the disease. It was also eye opening in terms of palliative care and how they assist people through their final moments and beyond. Disturbing and not something a lot of people can watch but those people were dealing with death in a supposedly “healthy” way … making amends with everyone, choosing to be with their loved ones, with people on standby if they experienced any discomfort along the way. I’m sure frontline workers in hospitals witness worse cases everyday, esp the past two years. Regardless, watching End of Life threw me in a funk for a couple days cuz it was yet another reminder of how life is so short and unpredictable and how we’re all just a tiny speck in the universe playing our part for however little time we’re here.

My work gets me down a lot so it was also a sober reminder to savor every moment we are able to breathe, see, smell and feel the things we do with unlimited possibilities ahead of us cuz that’s a luxury a lot of us take for granted when we’re caught up in the daily struggle too.

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For people who are battling mental health problems, your mind is playing tricks on you. Your mind and outlook needs to be tweaked or reset either by a therapy or by meds or both depending on your issue …. A lot of people get help and come out of it to conquer life like they never did before but even if you feel 10% better than before, it’s well worth the effort. So please do yourself that one favor and consult a professional or someone who knows how to get help at the very least.

Not anymore

Everyday feels like a punishment

Originally posted by: poojaaggarwal08

Not anymore

Everyday feels like a punishment

Id listen to more music. Music helps in such situations

Originally posted by: Maroonporsche

Id listen to more music. Music helps in such situations

I do listen to it

Nothing helps

Originally posted by: catchmeifucan

Unfortunately for the parents and the poor kids, not every parent has the luxury to think this way. :(

It is the biggest nightmare of the parents of the special needs children that they might go before their child and keep wishing secretly that they be allowed at least one minute more than their child. :(

Absolutely true....I can't even start to imagine the fear that these parents must be having ..about leaving their helpless kids behind...😒..but yes I was just talking about it in general .....by the time I did not become a Mom...I would secretly wish and pray that God let me go before my parents so that I would never experience the pain of losing them.....but the day my son was born and I held him...it struck me that how wrong I was in wanting to go before my parents...and what it would have done to them😭

more than long or short life I want to be happy for every day of my life