Anyone else?

I had a sound sleep as usual the day sushant passed away but I struggled to sleep last night. I just couldn't keep him out of my thoughts while sleeping. I went to bed at 2 am and till 5 am I just moved around my bed until I got tired and slept.

Trust me almost every one is disturbed. Actually it's social media that affects us. Sushant is definitely a higher soul. He was one in billion. If u look at his posts u will notice his spiritual side. Deep down we all are souls right in form of human body so it's affects us.

Yes first night was just the regular sadness. But the second day was the eye opener for me.

Specially because I was not a fan.

To feel his struggle, how I knew about how the nepo gang work, how I knew about the fake blinds still didnt care to even post online about th these because I had other priorities disturbed me.

His demise cant be attributed to any one he was sick and getting medicine for the depression. Yet hiw the toxic culture triggered and worsened his condition triggers me.

How I knew about this unfairness, still didnt care enough to atleast post online about this deep rooted new crapoy culture about bollywood saddened me.

How bollywood industry elite gang who have all the acess to media coverage, think some very educated humble middle classes outsider is inferior was troubling me. How they do that to many independent individuals started to bother me.

Yeah first day it was just regular sadness hearing about loosing a great actor. Then second night onwards it was an eye opener. When you see biasedness speak speak and make a noise in whatever platform for them.

RIP Sushant

I understand, first day I was in complete shock and couldn't believe it. It felt really surreal, then yesterday I began to cry when I saw his elder sister's profile and how his family is trying to cope with the loss. It's heartbreaking and would move anyone. That's why the comments saying people are pretending to care are really false because honestly almost everyone is hurt by this. It feels personal because he was one of our own, he was a simple guy you could've been around in real life.

I still don't know why this had to happen, it makes no sense, but he was in pain and I feel better knowing that he is with his mom now. He had this restlessness and trauma ever since the day he lost his mom and spent every year of his life missing her. Now he can be with her. It almost feels like he was in a lot of pain and his mom couldn't bear to see him like this anymore and she called him to come and be with her in a better place :(

I feel heartbroken. All death is tragic but only Anthony Bourdain and Sushant's passing just rocked me to my core. It scares me, terrifies me, and devastates me. Sushant was so bright, smart, a little hatke. He was a true bollywood success story and it was so inspiring to watch. I can't stop thinking about how unfair life must've seemed to him for him to finally decide he had enough.

Same. It hit me hard.

The news has bought a deep sense of melancholy. It’s strange considering I wasn’t even a fan, just watched some of his work in TV n films. I don’t noe where it’s coming from..maybe cos he was relatable unlike other actors, or suffering from depression which I’ve been thru n seen around myself or the fact tht he was outcasted for no reason. I rmbr watching his home tour..it was such an intellectual creative space filled with stuff he spoke abt passionately. The thought of hanging himself in the same place is haunting!

Originally posted by: zaniax

The news has bought a deep sense of melancholy. It’s strange considering I wasn’t even a fan, just watched some of his work in TV n films. I don’t noe where it’s coming from..maybe cos he was relatable unlike other actors, or suffering from depression which I’ve been thru n seen around myself or the fact tht he was outcasted for no reason. I rmbr watching his home tour..it was such an intellectual creative space filled with stuff he spoke abt passionately. The thought of hanging himself in the same place is haunting!