Soon!

And now the even better news: Whether I passed or failed NO MORE EXAMS EVER! If I passed then it's great if I didn't then I will quit doing my masters and instead get a job or just beg my parents to get me married to this handsome rich desirable guy:

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Most handsome man on this planet 😳

I'm so happy!!! And ofcourse we're planning a three week trip to Brazil in june 🥳

College SUCKS So happy it's over!!!

WARNING: DON'T GO TO COLLEGE!!! Today after 6 years in college I decided to stand infront of the mirror and take a closer look at myself and realised: WTH happened to me 😭

I'm only 25! Since college this all happened:

-I spotted a grey hair just now. I thought it was only 1 so laughed at it...but then I went through my hair and discovered a lot! Some even at the same places. I violently removed like 30 and now I hope they are all gone. Anyway I googled a lot and scientists say it's genetic. BUT THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE! My parents are in their fifties and only now are developing grey strands. So the stress and bad nutrition stories are definitely not bogus. Nobody in my family developed grey hairs before they turned 40. All the anxiety, fears, depression, tension, worrying, crying about exams clearly had a terrible effect on my health cuz there's more:

-I gained like 15 kgs since I entered college. I used to be 49 kgs, now I'm almost 65 kgs. 😲 No surprise I guess...eating irregularly, eating at odd hours (because of staying awake at night to study)...eating bad stuff because no time to eat healthy food because who has the time to cook when it's so easy to throw a pizza in the microwave and eat immediately and continue to read those 1000 pages books.

-Yikes! I also noticed something really disgusting: peach fuzz on my cheeks I immediately ordered some wax strips 😭 But then I noticed something even more horrific: THICK BLACK HAIRS ON MY CHIN and on my UPPERLIP 😭 How is that possible? I was never a hairy person! Neither are my parents and brother! I googled and apparently young girls that gain weight too quick develop more male hormones which causes facial hair 😭

-Also I seem to have developed a spotty dry skin with huge pores on my nose and cheeks and on my chin 🤓

-Another annoying thing is that I can't sleep at night anymore. Because of all the late night studying I kind of got used to staying awake at night and sleeping in the morning from 6 am untill 11 am. Yeah also way to less...I only manage to sleep like 2 or 3 or 4 or 5 hours. I always had to attend classes after those long late nights of studying.

-I got really depressed last year. I passed everything but only failed one course so I couldn't deal with it because I studied hard. In september I became agressive towards my parents. Yelling at them, smashing stuff in our garden. My mum was crying a lot and my dad got sick because of me.

College seriously messes up your entire life! I also noticed two years ago that my ankles become really swollen when I sit still for a long time to read those horrific study books. Google Kim Kardashian swollen ankles and you'll know what I mean. No time anymore for friends (what friends since joining college I've become reclusive) family (what family...haven't seen them for five years), no time to join my parents and brother when they go to some restaurant to eat, my brother moved out three years ago and I still haven't seen his house 🤢, no time to make an appointment at the hospital to get a wisdom tooth that's stuck beneath my gum out, no time to exercise, no time to go on vacation abroad. IT'S HELL!

My only fun time during these black years of my life came in october. I spoke a lot with my parents and as I had to wait for my last exam (that took place saturday) I was free. So this really nice girl Starstruck of IF (the girl with the ranveer + sonakshi avatar) suggested me some Pakistani dramas. See I had nothing to do BUT I still had to wait for a letter from my college cuz they had to grant me permission to take the final exam. So even though I was free I still was really tensed. Waiting for that letter which only came after 8 weeks. For 8 weeks I had been waiting for the letter. Only because of those dramas I got through those months without again becoming aggresive/depressed. SO BIG THANKS TO STARSTRUCK! 😳 Also big hug from my dad as he was jobless during november and december! I got him hooked to those dramas too. Now he works again as a bus driver with flexible hours. Whenever he has a break he watches those humtv dramas on his phone in the bus 😳

Anyway now things are finally looking up. 6 years of my life were a complete nightmare. But yesterday for the first time since six years my parents and my brother and me went together to a chinese restaurant we had so much fun! And we immediately planned a trip to Brazil to watch the world cup (football) there and just enjoy. Now I can finally get a full medical check up (so scared that I might have gotten diabetic or something even worse from all this studying), work out again, eat healthy again, get used to sleeping at night again, take care of myself again, relax and enjoy and be with my family and friends again.

Eeeh and ofcourse watch my serials/movies again 😳 That will always be my favorite hobby 😳Soon new schedule! And thanks to everyone here for getting me through these horrible years. Without this forum I might have gone psycho...imagine being stuck in your room studying for 12 hours a day and attend classes sitting there all alone...I was really lonely but never really had the time to feel it. Those study books are giant so I didn't even miss communicating with others. But still because of IF I got some nice distraction!

BIG HUG AND THANKS TO:

STARSTRUCCK

DESIGAL90

HEAVENLYBLISS

DEATHSTROKE

RAMBO_RAJKUMAR

DEJA_VU

LOVEPROFUSION

WAT_UP

DEXTERKILAILA

RUKY786

BAMBOOCOOTER

ERASER

SHEEE

IHEARTDEEPIKA

LOVANIKA

EEYOROTEL

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I hope you get married to

the man of your dreams and

have lots of kids! You deserve

the best life Sana. Good night.

Good luck👍🏼