I don't want to be a part of BW anymore:Trishala

While Sanjay Dutt is struggling through this grueling time in Yerawada jail, his family is still trying to come in terms with the situation. Sanjay Dutt's daughter Trishalaa who is in NYC opens up in her blog, about her thoughts on the whole unpleasant episode.

Here are the excerpts from her blog entry reproduced verbatim - "I know you all know are aware what happened to my dad and if you aren't aware, he was sentenced to a 3 year jail term... I've been harassed as to why I'm so silent on the subject but all I want to say is this...

I've become an elder sister to my twin siblings Iqra and Shahraan. It's up to me to be strong for them and set a good example, being the eldest daughter of the house. There's no such thing as having an 'emotional breakdown' anymore. I love my father to death and I will always be his blood, his first-born, his everything.

I'm just sick of people making stupid assumptions as to why I wasn't there in India by his side during the time of judgment, why I'm silent, why am I posting pictures on Instagram acting all happy and all that other bullSh*t.

Did it ever occur to some of your 'curious' minds that maybe my father told me NOT to come?? My family is going thru an extremely difficult time right now and I haven't been seen in Mumbai since Jan 2007. There was so much media when I came there at that time, I didn't want to create such a drama especially at this time. My father and I have been in the tabloids since 2007 when that whole fiasco with Maanayata happened, which wasn't even true! Then there was heat on both of us when I wanted to be a part of Bollywood at one point (very stupid, stubborn decision of mine but I'm glad I don't want to be a part of it anymore, I was young and wasn't thinking with my head, I was rebelling against a lot of things and found out who I really am and what I want later on) then it was said my father and I were not getting along and a lot of untrue nonsense was going on.

Now, since so much has happened in 6 years with the media between dad and I, it was best if I stayed in NYC and not gain the wrong type of attention during this difficult time with my family. Some of you are so quick to judge, it's ridiculous and really annoying.