I have something to say

My old account was maha786 and it was my older sister's account , her name is Maha, I used it to discuss about bigg boss the reality show and I did nto use it for any negative purpose, everyone started calling me Maha and I never had the courage to clarify it to anyone that, my name is ntp Maha, I am her younger brother, my name is Haris.

I was trolled a lot for my opinion constantly, I never knew that, I will be continuing in the forum after the season ends, I was afraid to sya my rela gender because I was afraid if people will judge me that, why am I using my sister's account.

I just used it to discuss my serials and I was afraid fi people will think I am using for a different motive, I did nto tell to anyone because I was just afraid and people already started calling me as she or her. I know no one would believe me, but I had to say this for the peace of my mind, I am not a fraud or MID. I never betrayed anyone, but I just had anxiety to reveal the truth.

But, I was always my real self, my personality was the same and is still the same , I never used it for a bad prupose,my intention was to nto lie, but I never had the courage to correct as I wa ssuign maha786 account that was used by my sister years ago, so I just continued , I am nto a flirt, but I am just stressed out fi people will think I have cheated on them.

Thus feeling has bene inside me sicne a long time, I am not a bad eprosn, my intention was to only talk about the reality show bigg boss, but I did make few friends and it happened organically, I neve planned to make any freidns

I just felt like sharing this so that,no one is unaware of it, I never broke anyone's trust, but I was just afraid if no-one will belove my truth

Not everyone is a fraud or MID, sometimes the situation becomes so complicated that, you are unable to say the truth, I don't know how many people will understand me, but I do suffer from anxiety and that si why I could nto say it and since the past efw days, I wanted to reveal this to eveyrone

As I did tell to few of the members and their reaction was negative about it, they think I cheated on them , but I did not, even if I have doen soemthign unintentionally wrogn, I am sorry

But, this regret thas bene stressing me out since a long time that, I never cheated on anyone, but I just wanted to sya it to everyone as no one knew about it.

I had to remove this burden from my mkind by saying it today and just sya it, I just want people to understand my side of the sotry if you can. It ahs been a terrible one eyar for me ever sicne I have used the BB12 Forum, firt the trolling, then other issues in the forum, I have suffered a lot from it and if soemoen thinks I am playing victim card, then so be it, I cannot do anything to make them convince, but I will sya what I am feeling.

I have tried to forget that issue many times and the members who I had that issue with will know about ti as they use this forum, I have tried my best to move on, I have tried for months yet that thought comes in my mind, I am nto a bad person.

I intentionally never lied about myself , everyone just started calling me as she or her and Maha, so I felt very difficult to correct at that time.

Dude don't be stressed. It's okay. I don't think anybody cares or that it's such a big issue. It's just IF.

I am so shocked after reading this😕

I had genuinely considered you my friend and even shared my thoughts with you, assuming you are a woman. Never knew you are a guy.

But on second thoughts, I also know it takes a lot to come in public platform and own up . It's okay to make mistakes Hari . You owned up to it and its takes courage to do it👍🏼

I appreciate your guts....you are being real in virtual world....

Originally posted by: SnehaDoll

I am so shocked after reading this😕

I had genuinely considered you my friend and even shared my thoughts with you, assuming you are a woman. Never knew you are a guy.

But on second thoughts, I also know it takes a lot to come in public platform and own up . It's okay to make mistakes Hari . You owned up to it and its takes courage to do it👍🏼

My personality was always like what I was and Maha my older sister stopped using this forum years ago , I was nto sure if people will believe my side of the story that, I just used it for discussing my serials , but I was afraid if people will understand my situation

She was th eone who originally created the maha786 account and then everyone started referring me as Maha, I was nervous to correct, I know it is my mistake and I am sorry if I have hurt you unintentionally , but I just had to say this, I wanted to since a long time, but I did nto have the courage , but I never had bad intentions, so I thought it would be good to just say it

I genuinely enjoyed reading your blogs and will continue to do so, I have not changed , I was always the same person, but just that, my gender is not female , I have always been happy for your success and will always be happy whenever you are doing well in life

Thank you for understanding me , I was really depressed with this entire situation and wanted to clear everything out infront of everyone, so that, I don't carry any baggage , now I feel more peaceful , but I am genuinely a nice person I feel and I never had any bad intentions for anyone