Part 4
After this everyone retired to bed and once they left, pratap approached Ajabde.
"Ajabde?"
She turned to him but didn't say a word.
"hum jante hai ki aap humse naraz hai, aur apko pura haq bhi hai. Parantu, kya aap ab humse baat bhi nahi karengi?" he asked with hurt voice.
"Hum kya kahe aapse?"
She looked at him and her eyes were full of pain and hurt
"humpe chilaiye, daantiye, tane mariye, kuch bhi kariye. Par yun maun reh kar hume itna bada dand mat dijiye"
"dand? Hum apko kaise dandit kar sakte hai Kuwarsa? Aap Mewar ke kuwar hai, aur hum? Hum Mewar ke adhin ek samrajya ke bhut purva samant ki putri aur aaj ke samant ki behen hai. Bhala humara itna dusahas kaise ho sakta hai ki hum aappe chilaiye ya apko daatein?"
"Aap ka adhikar hai yeh karne ka, aap humari patni hai"
She looked at him with tears in her eyes.
"sunkar acha laga, ki apko yeh baat ab bhi yaad hai kuwarsa."
"hume sab kuch yaad hai Ajabde, aur in varsho mein jo hua uske liye hum behad sharminda bhi hai."
Saying so he turned around and went to a wall and banged his hand so hard that his hands started bleeding. Ajabde made to go to him but stopped herself and let her tears loose.
"Hum garv se pure Rajputane mein ghumte rahe, unke rakshak ban ke. Lekin humne apni hi patni ko akela chod diya Afghano se yuddh karne ke liye? Yeh soch kar hume apne aap par kitna krodh aa raha hai yeh hum ..." Banged his hand again and you could see that he was shaking with anger. He continued after taking few calming breaths and looking down
"Apne aap se nazarein nahi mila pa rahe hum, aur hum kadachit apne aap ko iss akshmya apradh ke liye kabhi bhi shama nahi kar pyaenge."
After pausing a few moments to control himself, he turned and held Ajabde by her shoulders "Parantu agar dajiraj ne apke patra ka uttar nahi diya toh apne hume kyun nahi likha? Kya aap hume itna paraya manti hai ki, humse nahi keh sakti thi?"
"humne saare patra aap ke naam par hi bheje the" Ajabde replied with tears rolling down her eyes.
"humare liye likhe the? Iska matlab koi humare chittor ke Rajmahal mein avashya hai jo apke patra hum tak nahi pohochne de raha tha. Humara vishwas kijiye, yadi hume apka ek bhi patra milta toh hum avashya ate. Pure sansaar se bhi agar yudh karna padta, toh karte, parantu aapko nirash nahi karte hum."
He was desperately trying to make her understand that
"hum jante hai, aur hume yakin tha ki avashya hi humare sandesh aap tak nahi pahunch rahe. Isi liye jab Bijoliya wasi humse yeh maang kar rahe the ki ab hume Mewar se swatantrata ghoshit karni chahiye to humne unhe roka aur patta ko bheja tha apke pass, antim prayas ke rup mein. Kyunki hume vishwas tha ki sandesh aap tak ya ranaji tak nahi pahuch raha. Aur humare liye bijolia ki praja ko vidroh se rokna kathin ho raha tha. Lekin aab sab thik hoga. Mewar ki sena ke ane se hum Afghano ko bhi hara payenge aur Bijolia ki praja bhi vidroh ka swar bhul jayegi." She said with a content smile
Pratap smiled as well before saying
"dhanyawad, itne kathin samay mein bhi hum pe itna vishwaas banaye rakhne ke liye. Hum vachan dete hai, ki hum apka yakin ab kabhi tutne nahi denge. Aur hum umeed karte hai ki humare kadve shabd aur udasin vyavhar ke liye aap hume shama kar payengi kabhi. Hum apse aaj bhi utna hi prem karte hai ajabde. Aur humne kabhi apse nafrat nahi ki. Itne varsh hum krodhit the. Parantu apne aapse. Uss patra ke baad jab hume yeh pata chala ki aapki vajah se ranima humse dur gayi to hume samaj nahi aya ki hum kis par vishwas kare. Uss patra aur sare praman par jo apko apradhi sabit karte the ya apne hriday (heart) par jo apko nirdosh manta tha."
He turned away before continuing
"hum phirse ranima se baat karne gaye parantu ve vahan nahi thi, humne unhe khoj ne ki koshish bhi ki parantu koi fayda nahi hua. Aur phir dajiraj ne hume hokum diya ki hum ranima ko khojne ka prayas na kare aur aapko bhul jaye. Hum unke adesh ki avelna (disrespect) nahi kar sakte the aur hum adhiktar yudh kshetra mein rehne lage. Parantu aisa ek din nahi gaya jab hum apko yaad nahi karte. Hume samaj nahi aa raha ki hum apse kis muh se maafi mange, aap hum par vishwaas karti rahi, humare itne bure vyavhaar ke pashchat bhi aur hum? Aapne kai baar humse prarthna ki, ki ek baar hum apki baat sune, parantu humne aapko apni baat tak kehne ka avsaar nahi diya aur aap par apne sare dukh ka dosh mal diya"
He turned around and Ajabde saw tears in his eyes. She went towards him and wiped his tears
"aap jaise shurveer ki ankhon mein aansu shobha nahi dete. Humne apko shama kiya, parantu kadachit, sab kuch bhulne ke liye hume thoda samay lagega."
Hearing this Pratap's face lit up with big smile. He held her hands
"aap ... aap kya phirse humari mitra banegi? Hum vachan dete hai ki hum aap par pura vishwas karenge. Hum mante hai ki prem ke bandhan ko aur humare vivahit sambandh ko sweekar karne mein samay chahiye. Parantu, mitra to ban sakte hai na? baki sab ke liye aapko jitna samay chahiye aap le lijiye. Hum intezaar karenge"
"Hum apse phir se mitrata nahi karenge" Pratap's face fell hearing this but Ajabde continued before he could say anything
"humare bich chahe jo bhi hua usne humare vivahit jivan ko shuru nahi hone diya aur humare prem ko aahat (hurt) kiya. Parantu aaj bhi, humari mitrata toh vesi hi hai, toh phir hum phir se mitrata kaise kar sakte hai?" Ajabde let a small smile grow on her lips.
Pratap was stunned but slowly as he comprehended her words he smirked
"Lagta hai, ki Phool Kawar ke parihas karne ki aadat aap ko bhi lag gayi hai"
"Kyun, hum apse parihas nahi kar sakte?" she narrowed her eyes
"Avashya kar sakti hai, aur hume prasanta hogi agar aap aisa karengi toh"
They looked at each other for a moment and burst out laughing. Both were still holding hands but neither of them realised this, it was natural.
"Ajabde, hum jante hai ki aapne humse samay manga hai, parantu kya ek baar hum apko apne seene se laga sakte hai? Hum phir aisa nahi kahenge vachan.."
She looked at him and nodded, and both were relieved. Both felt awkward, but hugged each other slowly. Once they hugged, they both let out silent sighs, as they both felt a big burden lifting from their shoulders and were finally feeling happy and peaceful. Pratap tightened his hold on her and both didn't know for how long they stood like that.
Slowly they came out of the hug and looked at each other.
"lagta hai, ki aapne itne varsho mein din mein keval ek baar hi bhojan kiya hai, hume toh laga ki humne kisi patli si lakdi ko gale lagaya tha" he said with micheif in his eyes and eyebrows raised
Hearing his comment on her weight she was irritated and looked at him with defiance
"nahi aisa nahi hai, hume apna khayal rakhna aata hai, aur hum utna hi bhojan karte the jitna use purva karte the. Parantu haan, aap ne kadachit ek samay ka bhojan bhi theek se nahi kiya lagta hai"
"nahi wo .. wo hum yuddh pe the na toh.. khai chodiye yeh saab...hume in afghan se nipat ne ke baad sabse pehle yeh pata lagana hoga ki woh kaun hai jisne humare patra hum tak na pahuchne diye aur ranima ka patra badal ke aap ke virudh itna bada shadyantra kiya."
He looked ahead with a determined and angry expressions.
"Kadachit woh ek hi vyakti hai. Ho sakta hai ki yadi hum ranima se baat kare ki unhone apna patra kise diya tha toh hume sahayta mile?"
"aap uchit keh rahi hai. Hum iss Vishay par rani ma se avashya baat karenge aur swayam iss baat ki gehrai tak jayenge ki kisne apke viruddh itna bada shadyantra racha. Lekin yeh saab baatein baad mein, pehle hume in dhurt Afghono se nipatna hai. Aap vishram kijiye hume kal subah Afghan chavni ka nirikshan karne bhi jana hai. Hume lagta hai ki Patta ko yehi rehna chahiye, aur nirikshan ke liye keval aap hum aur dajiraj chalenge"
"hum bhi yehi soch rahe the. Hum patta ko yehi rehne ko kahenge. Par ab aap bhi vishram kar lijiye. Hum kal subah milte hai. Ghani khama"
"Khama Ghani"