For someone who has planned revenge for 10 years, current Maya is difficult for me to understand.
Maya planned proximity with Rudra in a different way. It's hard for me to believe that she didn't sense that Rudra will come after her, propose marriage and actually do it. It's hard for me to believe that marriage with Rudra as a way to get into Roy mansion wasn't always an agenda on her cards. I don't think she wanted to kill Rudra just like that. He was a medium for her afterall to get to MJ. Her entire planning revolved around using both the sons for her gains & it's hard for me to think that planning has taken a back seat by long shot. Her love for Rudra is making her weak as well. She now has a fear over which her enemies are having a feast.
Recent episodes look quite weird. Maya has spent 10 years facing the cruelty, trauma because of what they did, she knows what they are capable of & still she was stupid enough to declare her undying love for Rudra in front of Roys and that too in private. I would have understood it if she was doing it in front of Rudra to gain his complete trust and prove that his family wasn't accepting her.
Maya shows her fear. I know she is deeply traumatized but she actually holds on to Rudra for even the smallest support. Where did that Maya go who entered Roy house and actually challenged MJ.
If Maya wants to prove that she is no Manvi, then she has to act like Maya, the lioness who scares the shit out of everyone, just like she did it in front of Sudhir or Antara. It's a little difficult for me to digest that in all these years, Maya never prepared herself for facing her ultimate enemy & fear. For how long was she planning to play hide & seek. And if she was planning to play hide & seek only, why did she go to the lengths of entrapping Rudra and marrying her.
I get that Maya is overwhelmed by Rudra's love but looks like revenge has taken a back seat for her. She is all about protecting Rudra and having her by her side by all means. She can't with such a visible vulnerability. MJ has sensed that Maya feeds off Rudra's support. He knows he can control her again through Rudra only and it's not good for Maya.
You never let your weakness out in open in a war. I fail to understand why would Maya want to change the perception that she is here for Rudra and not just revenge. Why clarify? Let them think that Rudra is a pawn. Did she not know what these monsters are and how they will stop at nothing when it comes to breaking her, even if they have to use Rudra for it.
Maya in recent episodes is making less sense to me. It's like she isn't yet ready for war and doesn't understand MJ fully yet. Looks like she has pinned it all on Rudra and has discarded her own planning that she did so far.
The fact that MJ could come in her room and assault her today speaks a lot. The fact that he will be much more brutal tomorrow while she sits lifeless speaks all the more. All her rebuttals to MJ in last few episodes have been only when Rudra was around, otherwise she gets a panic attack whenever MJ is near. She hasn't truly overcome her fears yet and I don't know what more is she waiting for to finally be able to stand upto him on her own without a proxy.
Maya should be about Durga & Kali on her own whenever her dignity is compromised, feisty enough to only be stopped by Rudra. Rudra right not looks like her weakness & strength to MJ & he knows how to exploit this codependent relationship she has with his son.
Please makers, give me back the lioness Maya, wounded on inside yet feisty infront of her enemies on her own. It's hard for me to see Maya being this vulnerable and timid in front of MJ and hw gloating in intimidating her.