Today was a new day, hopefully a day where I would have more of a chance to speak with Aditya and make a plan about how to save him. I pushed my earphones into my ears, picking a song while I walked up the wet road, the drizzle around me making me shiver
I finally picked a song, looking up finally I saw the most magnificent pair of brown eyes. The man blinked slowly, then raised his left hand, rubbing it against his chin. The coal black stubble on his cheeks making him look slightly older than he may have been. He dug his hands into his pockets, allowing his eyes to wander down my body. "You should really look where you're going, you don't know what bad man you might bump into"
I scowled up at him, he stood quite a bit taller than me, "What, like you" I raised my brow, I refused to be scared into not walking these streets when it was dark, it was the only way to work
His face was deadly serious "Maybe, do I look dangerous to you"
Sure, being that good looking was dangerous, I was sure I was going to end up dehydrated by all the drooling. "That isn't important to me, I can defend myself" I pushed out my chest slightly trying to make my point
He spread out his arms "Go on then" a cocky smile on his face
"If I hit you first, that isn't defending myself, now if you'll excuse me, I have to go to work"
He chuckled "You work at night, in a small town like this, usually the only people that are awake are the ones that are in love or lonely, which one are you"
I shook my head "Neither, i'm just late, now excuse me" I shoved past him, crossing the road quickly I turned back to see he was gone when I walked into the office
"Hello love" Marjorie looked up, a sad smile on her face
"Hey Marjorie, is everything okay"
"One of our clients killed himself this morning" she dabbed a tissue beneath her eyes "You know, I thought we could save lives, in all the years I have been here, none of my clients have done that"
I wrapped my arms around her "Oh Marjorie, i'm so sorry, so so sorry, but I know you did all you could" I blinked away the tears welling in my eyes as I knelt before her "Was it, the guy that I was"
She shook her head "No, no you still have time, please Zoya, don't let this one go"
I nodded, swallowing the lump in my throat "I won't" I got up, pouring her a coffee I placed it before her "Drink this, it's going to be okay"
She smiled up at me "You're a good kid Zoya, now go we have calls to attend" she shooed me away
I sat down, looking through my emails when the phone rang, "Hello, suicide sa-"
"Zoya, it's me"
"Aditya, you called back" I couldn't hide the delight in my tone "How are you feeling today"
There was a heavy sigh "Same old, but I don't want to talk about myself today, tell me about you"
"But that's not"
"Saving me" he interrupted "I know, think of it like this, you're distracting me from my thoughts, so what made you want to do this job"
I sighed "I wanted to help, to uh save a life"
"What triggered that"
Suddenly visions of the car accident flashed in my head, the bright lights that made my eyes burn, the shouts for help when my body hit the floor, the sirens so loud it made my blood rush to my ears
"Zoya, you still there" I could hear the worry in his tone
"Uh, yeah sorry, I had a near death experience, decided to live my life the best way I could and I hope I can somehow help someone else do that too" my tone was quiet, I hated speaking about the accident that had nearly taken my life
"I'm sorry that happened to you Zoya, I really am" there was a quiet sigh "Can I ask you something"
"Sure"
"Lets say, you did something, bad, how would you um, forgive yourself"
I sat up straighter "I guess, it depends, how bad was the thing you did, was it an accident and did innocent people die or have life long injuries, I must remind you that these calls are recorded, so if"
"I didn't kill anyone, god Zoya who do you think I am" anger laced his tone
"Hey, I never said you did, I was just warning you incase you decided to admit something to me, christ" I huffed, angry at his assumption
"Right, right sorry, I just, innocent people got hurt, it was an accident and very bad"
I cleared my throat "I guess Aditya, that sometimes we can be our own worst enemy, sometimes we have to realise that the past is the past and we have to leave it there, accidents happen, I mean today I bumped into a man by accident, and I know that isn't the same thing, but if you want to move on, you must learn to forgive yourself" I breathed out
"Im not sure if I can Zoya, i'm not sure if I can, what happened with this man you bumped into"
"Oh, he just told me to be aware of dangerous men on the streets, it was weird, he seemed to find the encounter quite funny"
Aditya chuckled "What makes you think that"
"Because he laughed and smiled at me a lot, also have you tried to make peace with the innocent people you hurt" I knew it was probably pushing it to ask, but I needed information if I was going to help
"I don't quite know what else to do, I payed for their medical bills, they uh, they don't know who I am and I'm to scared to show them my face, it's stupid right"
"No, of course not, it isn't stupid, but maybe that will help come to terms with it"
I heard him sigh heavily "I don't deserve to be here Zoya, I guess when I first called you, I was hoping there would be a good enough reason to stay alive, but there isn't, I don't have anyone, I"
"You have me, you're not alone, and there are reasons to live, we will find them together" I promised "If talking is hard, we run a texting service"
He let out a low laugh "Twenty days left Zoya, just twenty days, and I don't know if i've got it in me to stick around for that long"
"Please, I need those days, just stick around for me, I know i'm a stranger but"
"But, you're all ive got in this world, just a voice on the phone, sad right" I could hear the sadness in his voice, but I had no way to take it away
"You're never really alone, look those people you hurt wouldnt be alive if it was for you, I know you hurt them but what if they couldn't afford the bill, you are very much a glass half empty kind of man, you just need a different view, that's all"
"A view wont take away what ive done"
"No, but it will transport you elsewhere, just think about it, think about what you want from life and where you'd like to be, and lets see if we can't get you there"
"You sound very positive about that"
I smiled "I'm a glass half full kind of woman"
"Okay, ill give it a shot and get back to you tomorrow, same time"
"Yep, and not a minute late" I hung up, throwing my head back, feeling more stressed than before, how on earth was I going to give this man his view
Hey! Im going on holiday soon! So there wont be an update next saturday as I am away! Early update, yay!
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