LaakhAm OS | Whispers Of Pain |

Aaj se laakhan ka koi haq nahi hai poonam pe. Ajj mein yeh rishta todta hoon. Poonam laakhan ki aaj se kuch nahi lagti.

It didn't make sense to him, how he had no right over poonam. It didn't make sense to him that poonam was no longer his wife. It didn't make sense at all. How could a person that he has woven dreams with for the past 12 years not be his anymore. How was it possible that the girl he has loved so passionately was not his anymore. How was it that the girl, who had felt his every emotion within him, was not his anymore? It didn't make sense to him, how a few seconds ago poonam was his to be wife, his humsafar, but now he had no relationship with her. How could relationships be broken so easily. Werent relationships meant to be for eternality, then how could this relationship break in just a few moments. Nothing made sense to him.

He felt like someone had broken every little hope, every dream he has ever dreamt. He felt like someone had ripped his heart out and left him heartless.

He couldn't make sense of his world, a world without his love seemed like a world not worth living in. He had never thought that that one dream which he had always treasured close to heart, would break and wash away like the tears that were trying so hard to escape his eyes.

Poonam laakhan ki aaj se kuch nahi lagti.

He closed his eyes trying to forget the memory of his bade papa saying those words, but they kept ringing in his ears and caused his heart to hurt in immense pain. A pain which he never felt before, never not even when mithiliesh taunted him. He felt a pain which he couldn't even explain to himself.

He knew he was a bailbuddhi, but he wondered if anyone had the answer to his one question; why did god teach this his heart to love? And if he did, then why does he take away the heartbeat of my heart, and just leaves it to die in the pain of separation? Why? Isnt love meant to be beautiful, then why is it giving him so much pain?

Why is this love surrounding him a cloak of darkness and loneliness like he never felt before?

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Their relationship was over. She was no longer his. He was no longer hers. He had no right over her. She had no right over him. They were not one anymore, hell they had never truly been one. She had tried very hard to make this relationship work. She had even stood up for herself, and tried to make him understand the abcd of this relationship. But nothing had worked. A relationship which was bonded for 12 years had just broken all of a sudden, like it was nothing.

She didn't know what to feel, if she should cry at the loss of a loved one, or be happy that finally she was free. There was a part of her that felt a huge relief at been unbounded from this forceful marriage, a part which was relieved that she had the right to choose her humsafar. She finally had the right to make her dreams come true. She was blissful that now she didn't have to be scared, that she could her life like she wanted, she could do what she wanted. She could finally find happiness. The thought of that made her feel so content. Yet there was a small part of her that was confused, that felt pain, for him. Why was that?

She shouldn't feel bad right. He tortured her, hurt her, she still tried to make this relationship work, but he kept hurting her. He kept making tears fall form her eyes, yet she still tried so hard to love him. But now since this relationship was over, then she should be happy right? But why did a small part of her feel ... dead?

She closed her eyes, and all she could see were those dark brown intense eyes of his that were shattered, that longed for baade thakur's words to be untrue. Those eyes that looked at her with pain, loneliness at the news of the broken marriage. She didn't know why those devastated eyes pierced her heart and made it bleed. How was it possible for an animal like him to feel such an emotion of pain? He was always angry, she had never seen any emotion in his eyes except anger, but then why did today all of a sudden when her eyes met his, did she see a flash of so many emotions rushing with in him.

Wasn't she just a mere object for him, then why did he feel pain? She would have understood if he felt angry, but why pain, did he actually love her? Nope that couldn't be , he could never love, he was a beast, a beast could never love.

She stared out at the moon, which was always shining in the darkness, but even today it seemed blue, as if someone had ripped its beauty from it and left it with darkness. And for the first time her heart was restless at the thought of his wellbeing. For the first time she wondered if he was ok?

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