~*~DESIRE~*~
Vidya walked down the long hallway, her mind elsewhere. She had so much work to do, take care of sagar and the household. The atmosphere of the singh mansion had become joyful once again after surili was kicked out and sameer had become hers and sagars child. Everyone had apologized to vidya and she once again gained her lost respect. Everything was perfect once again. Yet, vidya didn't feel the happiness he expected to feel…something constantly tugged at her heart. As kept on walking, with no destination in mind, her thoughts drifted to when she was much younger, cooped up in benaras. Vidya had often dreamt of her prince, someone who would sweep her off her feet and love her so deeply, that she couldn't help but drown in his love. But then she remembered how reality struck her, how she was forced to work endlessly and scorched by her merciless chachi and chacha. She remembered how she gave up on all of those dreams and accepted her fate as her own. Her fate, which was now being the bahu of the singh parivaar, the laxmi of their mansion, the light of her disabled husband sagar's life, had only showed her the ways of compromise and bottling up her desires…suppressing the screeches of her broken heart yearning for so much more.
Suddenly, vidya felt herself being pulled into a secluded room. She was pinned to the wall before she could take her next breath. At first, she expected it to be one of sagar's playful antics. But when she opened her eyes, she found herself looking into deep chocolate brown eyes, as if they were ready to engulf her with just one glance.
"tuss…tusshar…ji?" vidya whispered hoarsely, breathing heavily and trying to avoid his intense eyes. "aa..ap yaha..ky--"
Tusshar came closer to her and silenced her by putting his finger on her rosy lips.
"shh.." he whispered as her edged nearer. Grinding his teeth, he saw her weak eyes dreading him…but mostly herself and her unspoken desires.
He traced his finger down the side of her neck, feeling her tremble to his touch as she shut her eyes tightly. Seeing her so vulnerable only angered him as he grabbed her shoulders tightly and shook her lightly.
"kyun vidya…kyun? Why…why are you doing this?" he said, voice dripping with agony and desperation.
Vidya simply looked up and stared at him, eyes moist. She touched his cheek lightly and he melted to her touch. He slid her hands down to her bare waist and pulled her closer to him, his eyes now filled with madness and desire. Vidya gasped as her numb body gave in to him. She shivered at his touch, his hands softly caressing her bare waist.
"jab se tumko dekha, jab se jana, tab se chaha…" his whispered into her ears, his lips brushing her cheek, making her feel warmth and pain at the same time.
A tear trickled down vidya's hot cheeks as she felt herself loosing control of her body. Not only were her eyes crying, her heart was too. It was crying knowing how much she wanted to be his, how she wanted to be drown in his love, how much she wanted to give in to her heart's desires.
Tusshar trailed moist kisses down her neck, savoring each taste of her soft skin as she whimpered in his crushing arms. With each kiss he became more fierce as vidya closed her eyes feeling his hands roaming on her back, beneath her blouse.
Suddenly, tusshar parted from her. Vidya, breathing heavily, slowly opened her eyes and stared into tusshars. She felt overpowered by their intensity. Tusshar moved his hand up to her cheek and began caressing it, digging into her hair and moving closer. Vidya unconsciously parted her lips. Tusshar kissed her lightly and sweetly the first time. But getting a taste of her only made her want her more and he began kissing her harder, more passionately and fiercely.
But vidya's conscience tugged at her as she came back to her senses and felt the true weight of what she was doing. She couldn't loose herself in his love and lust, she couldn't give in to this aching hunger and desire eating her up inside.
Vidya began struggling, trying to wiggle out of his tight grasp. But he was much stronger than her and kept her trapped in his embrace. Soon, vidya felt herself loosing control in his passionate kiss. Feeling her soften, tusshar became gentler as well. He felt vidya respond to him and kiss him back. Not being able to take it any longer, vidya put her arms around his neck and ran her fingers through his hair, which only excited him more as they deepened the kiss. They had to part, obliged by their need for air. Panting, vidya felt weak in the knees. She felt numb as her lip began bleeding.
But the heaviness of her heart returned as the guilt began flooding in once again. She was giving herself so easily to this man despite being married to someone else and promising to be by them forever. It didn't matter how tusshar had trusted her when no one had, that he had shown her how powerful and strong she really was, that he instilled in her faith in herself and the ability to fight…and it certainly did not matter how deeply he felt for him. Desperate and frustrated she pushed him away from her and fell back on the wall. Gasping for air, tears streamed down her flushed face unable to hide themselves. She was crying profusely, feeling disgusted, low, and defeated. How could she forget all her vows, her duty, her morals, her values and make the mistake of listening to her crazy heart instead of her much wiser mind? Vidya covered her mouth crying to muffle the sounds of agony as tusshar watched in awe and pain. How could he hurt her like that? How could he loose control over himself and cause her so much pain? But no, vidya couldn't let herself be tied down by society. He needed to know how she felt, and he wasn't going to leave until he did.
Tusshar walked up to vidya and cupped her face his hands. He wiped her tears gently, his eyes begging her to look up at him.
"vidya…vidya mera baat suno…please…vidya…look at me…" tusshar pleaded gently.
Vidya kept crying, not daring to look him in the eyes.
"vidya…vidya tumhe mujhe batana hi hoga! Look at me damnit!" tusshar was becoming more frustrated by the second, he was aching inside…desperate and weak for the woman he loved.
Vidya looked up hesitantly. She had to be strong…for her family…for sagar.
"jab mein tumhare kareeb ata hoon…kya tumhe kuch nahin hoti? Jab mein tumhe choota hoon…tumhare dil mein kuch nahin hota? Kya tum mujhse pyar karti ho…ya nahin?" tusshar's roaring voice died down softly as he felt the knot in his throat tightening, tears threatening to flow out.
A fragile vidya simply stood before him and pursed her lips. Why was this happening to her? A good wife would slap the man in front of her and leave. But why wasn't she able to? Why was vidya pratap singh not able to look into eyes of the person in front of her and say "NO! I DON'T love you!" was it because, for the first time ever, she was not only being true to herself, but also her desires? Was it because she never really let her dream of being whisked away by her prince shatter? Was it because she had finally learned to listen to her heart? Or was it simply because she was madly in love with the tall dark and handsome man standing in front of her pleading to speak?
"bolo vidya… BOLO!!!" tusshar said loudly.
"HAAA!!" vidya screamed, crying desperately. "ha mujhe kuch hota hai jam aap humare kareeb ate hai, jab aap hume choote hai… kyun ke mein sirf aap se pyar karti hoon…aur hamesha karti rahoongi…"
Tusshar hugged her passionately as she hugged him back. She felt if it was the happiest moment of her life, that she was finally in the arms of her prince charming. Tusshar parted from vidya, yet kept her close. He placed his hand on her cheek, fingers digging into her hair, and looked at her passionately. He kissed her forehead and then her cute little nose, and made his way down to her red lips. He sucked the tiny wound and kissed her softly.
"kab se pyar kiya?" he asked sweetly, his eyes moist.
Vidya sighed and rested her head on his chest. She smiled and said "jab se aapko dekha, jab se jana, tab se chaha…" she closed her eyes and felt tusshar wrap his arms around her, placing a wet kiss on the side of her neck. She felt as if she was melting in his arms…and she loved it.
After a few moments, she opened her eyes only to be shocked out of her wits. In front of her eyes stood a fuming man, hands in fists. Vidya put her hands on tussah's arms and parted from him. As tusshar stared at her confused, vidya kept staring at the man by the door, as her eyes filled with tears once again. Hoarsely she uttered one word with all her might.
"Sagar?"
😃 😃 😃 the end 😃 😃 😃
oh the DRAMA!!! lol... srry for the bad hindi, i dont speak that language, only understand it! hope u enjoyed it!
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p.s. yes soni di, u can call me ashu/asha 😃
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