It may seem boring to some………as it's the usual Diary………But since its Anandi's……….its not that boring!😛
Are words important???
Well! It's a perception! And totally so…….
I had always felt……words are THE THING…because I was taught this, since the inception of my understanding…..
I was called on phone, one day….and my life came crashing down…..
Words!...can really destroy you….!
When I began my life with Collector Saab, I was too scared for words……..I wanted to speak……speak out my fears….my worries……..but couldn't gather the courage……..to hurt him……..
He had always taken care to keep me unhurt, happy……..and how could I voice my fears??? Would that not have hurt him???
But then……the man in question was COLLECTOR SAAB……..THE MAN…….he made me realise………that sometimes, words are not needed……….
I remember, on the 2nd night…..our 2nd night……when he came to the room……..I was petrified………
Will he also leave me after this?
Will he still love me after this?
I love the attention he showers on me……….will he still be the same???
With these questions in mind…….I went to stand near him…..he put his hands on my shoulders……and brought his face forward…….
I was totally ready for our first kiss…….but to my surprise, he landed a kiss on my forehead………and his touch lingered on my senses……
I opened my eyes……and saw his eyes welled up with tears……..I was taken aback!
I realised I can't see tears in his eyes…….my eyes also welled up……..
And then he said something…..for which I thank the almighty till date, to having me blessed with a man like him!
"Main samajhta hoon ki aap darr rahi hain………darrti hain…….ki main bhi aapko chhod doonga………yakeen maaniye Anandiji, main hoon……..aapke saath…….hamesha…….
Pyaar apni jagah hai……..aur bharosa apni jagah………
Hum iss rishtey mein tab tak aagey nahin badhenge, jab tak ki aapko mujh par poori tarah bharosa nahin ho jaata……"
I had no words……..to reciprocate the 'bharosa' he showed in me………I didn't have to say anything……he understood it all……and said it all……….short and sweet!
And then started the most enticing experience of my life……….
A hug one day………a kiss the other day……..and a caress the next……..
We started warming up to each other……and how!!!!
A time came……..when I began missing his touch……..the hand holding……the smile……..the breaths……
That was the time I knew I was ready……..
I was ready for the final step in our marriage…….and felt I was stupid to have been delaying it…….
Stupid, to have not trusted Collector Saab so far………
Stupid, to have doubted myself……..
I was wrong…….and then I corrected myself……….by showering all the love……..and passion on him……
I apologised to him to keeping him waiting for a month……..but he shut my mouth…..in his own way!
I believe now……..he won't leave me…….ever!
I believe now………he loves me!
I believe now………I love him!
That reminds me……..I still haven't said it in words…….told it to him!
But………are words important??? No…….I don't think so……….
With my own miniature God, by my side, in life…….nothing is more important than LOVE!!! Esp WORDS!!!
Looking forward to NO RESPONSE!!!😃
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
