Intezar
chapter no. 2
…. She looked at the letters and started reading it…
"Dear Megha
I know ki mein jo karne ja rahi hun who bahut galat hai, sab ke dil ko bahut chot lagegi par mein kya karu mujhe is waqt kuch bhi samaj nahi aaraha hai. Meine bahut koshish ki ke mein sab kuch theek kar lun aur apni life mein age badh jau par…. Pata nahi mere lakh chahne par bhi mein age badh hi nahi payi…. Mein aaj bhi usi mod par khadi hun jis mode pe mein usse alag hue the…mein kabhi use bhul hi nahi payi…. Aaj bhi usika intezar karti hun aur hamesha kartu rahungi. Chahe is intezar ka natiza kuch bhi ho… mein apni akhri saans tak uska intezar karna chahungi… meine ise shaadi ke liye haa to kar di thi par jaise jaise shaadi ke din nazdeek aate gaye mujhe ek bechani hone lagi… aisa lag raha tha jaise mere andar kuch tut raha hai… mein samaj hi nahi payi ke kya ho raha hai… phir mujhe samaj mein aaya ki mein sirf usi se pyar karti hun aur hamesha usi se karti rahungi…. Mein apni is life mein kabhi kisi aur ko chah nahi paungi…. Kisi ko bhi apne dil mein thodi si bhi jagah nahi de paungi…. Jab yeh baat samaj mein aayi to bahut der ho chuki thi… shaadi ki puri tayariya bhi ho chuki thi aur mein ab peeche nahi hat shakti thi… to mein aage bhi nahi badh pati… isi liye mujhe yehi rasta sahi laga…. Mujhme kisi ko bhi face karneki himmat nahi thi…. Isi liye mein apni jann apni marzi se le rahi hun…. Yeh sirf aur sirf mera apna decision hai…. Kisi ka koi hath nahi hai…. Shayad aap logo ko is waqt bahut dukh hoga parr believe me yeh hum sab ke liye achcha sabit hoga… aur waise bhi mujhse ab is intezar ka dard nahi saha jata… mein bhi is dard se free ho jaungi…. Aur phir is shaadi se koi khush nahi reh pata nahi mein aur nahi Sahil… kyun ki mere is dil mein sirf aur sirf wohi rehta hai, aur yeh dil sirf usika naam pukarta hai "Arjun, Arjun and Arjun"…. Bas ek hi akhri dua thi meri ke meri saanse rukne se pehle, "woh laut aaye mujh se yeh kehne, Tum kon hote ho mujh se bicharrne wale…" par woh nahi ayega… i know… Mujhe kisi se koi shikayat nahi hai… bas sirf ek hi malal reh jayega ki use milneki meri dua adhuri reh jayegi…. ek aur baat, agar life mein age kabhi kisi mod pe tumhe who mile to use kehna ke, meine apna vada nibhaya hai… uska itezar meine apni akhri saans tak kiya hai… bahut pyar karti hun aur karti rahungi… chahe mein rahu ya na rahu… mera pyar uske liye hamesha aisa hi rahega…. Dear megha…. Mein yeh sab tumse isiliye keh rahi hun kyunki mein janti hun ke sirf tum hi yeh samaj sakti ho…. Kyunki meri tarah tum bhi kisi ka intezar kar rahi ho…. isiliye mere pyar ka dard tumse behtar koi nahi samaj shakta …par mein tumhari tarah strong nahi hun… kash ke hoti….to shayad…. Anyways… please mom and dadi ka khayal rakhna… I know ke mujhe yeh kehne ki zaroorat nahi hai… par phir bhi…take care of mom, dadi and yourself…. And tell sorry to everyone…
Bye forever,
Riya"
Megha finished her letter and she was broke down and sat on the floor and cried loudly….. she put the letter near her chest and cried a lot and said, "why… why ? Kyun aisa kiya tumne…. mujhe ek bar keh kar to dekhti… meine tumse kai baar pucha bhi tha is shaadi ke bare mein phri bhi tum kyun chup rahi?" she had a regret in her eyes now that she couldn't understand her sister and can't save her… she took her pic in her hand and said, "yeh sab meri galti hai… tumne kaha nahi to kya hua… mujhe samjana chahiye tha…. Ke tum yeh sab nahi seh paungi… mein hi tumhe is dard se bacha nahi payi… sorry … I am SORRY RIYA…." and she lost her self control and fell on the floor…she screamed her sister's name and "RIYAA"… and she was crying …..her mamaji came upstairs as he heard her crying and screaming Riya's name and he console her and both left for hospital…
In the hospital doctor was still operating her…. And everyone was sitting outside…. Megha looked at her mom- Revati and grandmother… they had stopped cried but she can see their eyes were swollen and red due to crying for long time…. Her grandmother was praying to god and her mother was in shocked…. She couldn't think anything at this time….she was sitting on the chair and her head was titled on mamiji's shoulder…. There was a fear on her face of losing her daughter…. Suddenly a nurse came out…. Megha asked the nurse about Riya nurse replied, "dekhiye abhi kuch bhi nahi keh shakte… unko saans lene mein taklif ho rahi hai… aur zyada oxygen ki zaroorat hai hame"… and she left…. Everyone was worried and shocked… Megha still had that letter of riya in her hands…. She was standing away from everyone and looking at the OT with teary eyes… hoping that her sister would be fine… each passing second had became burden for her… she wanted to go to Riya and wanted to shake her and to wake her up…. And tears rolled down from her eyes… Megha's chachi told her mother, "ab hume chotu ko inform kar dena chahiye… use yahan ajana chahiye…" after hearing chotu's name, her mother became very angry and said, "nahi…. Koi kuch nahi kahega use… uska mujhse koi rishta nahi raha…" "par Revati… tum"… her mamaji tried to explain her mother but she cut his talk in between and said, "nahi bhaiya… uske bare mein hum koi baat nahi karege… yeh sab chotu aur uski biwi ki wajah se hua hai… agar bahen ki itni chita hoti to woh …." And she stopped… the anger could be seen iin her eyes… no one said to her becoz it is vain to explain her this time… Megha came to her and said to her mom, "mom… shayad apka use koi rishta na ho par who hamre bhai hai… aur unka yaha is waqt apni behne ke sath hona zaroori hai… aur job hi Ri ke sath hua hai usme unki koi galti nahi hai… aur who to shadi mein bhi aye the aphi ne unki insult karke unhe wapas bhej diya… aur ek bhai ke nate unka yaha hona zaroori hai isiliye meine unhe inform kar diya hai… who bas aate hi hoge…" revati didn't say anything… she was more worried about riya than chhotu…
After 2 hrs… doctor came out from OT… everyone went to doctor and ask about riya… Doctor said, "unki haalat bahut nazuk hai… un pe koi treatment kaam hi nahi kar rahi hai…. Aur nahi woh …. Doctor stopped… Megha asked , "woh kya doctor?" doctor said, "dekhiye mera matalab hai… unhone itna zyada dose liya tha zeher ka ki, unki jagah koi aur hota to kabka mar chuka hota.. par yeh abhi bhi zinda hai… hala ki un par koi bhi treatment work nahi kar rahi hai, unki breathing bhi bahut low hai, bachne ke chances bhi bahut kam hai… phir bhi abhi bhi who zinda hai…. Pehli bar dekha hai aisa…. Waise hum unhe I.C.U mein shift kar rahe hai… age bhagwan ki marzi"… her chacha asked doctor, "kya hum use mil shakte hai?" doctor said, "ji ha par sirf 1 hi person at time… unhe disturb karna sahi nahi hoga… baki sab dur se dekh shakte hai"… and doctor left.
Revati-their mom was very sacred and she not able to see her daughter in this state, so megha decided to go and see her sister… after they shift Riya to I.C.U, Megha entered in the Room… Megha saw Riya…. Who was lying down on the bed unconsciously… and oxygen mask on her… som IV was attaching on her hands and some other devices also were attached to her as well… Megha sat on the table next to riya's bed… she had tears on her eyes… megha grab riya's hand and placed her hand between hers and said, "Ree… don't go… plz…. Don't go yaar…. Plz wapas ajao… dekho tumhe koi kuch nahi kahega… tumhe kisiko bhi face nahi karna padega… mein hamesha tumhare sath hun aur rahugi… dekh yarr ab bahut ho chukka chal uthja ab"… another tears rolled down from her eyes… she continued, "Ri…tum sun rahi ho na… dekh tu bhi uski tarah mujhe chhod ke mat ja….agar tum bhi chali gayi to mein bilkul akeli ho jaungi… mein nahi jee paungi…. Plz, plz, plz Ri… uthna… hum phirse nayi shuruat karege…. Don't go"… and Megha started crying…. Suddenly Riya's breathing become abnormally and shallow… her puls started dropping…. Her face became blue… Megha was screaming for help… a nurse informed the doctor…. Doctor immediately came there… A nurse told her to go out and Megha left the room… Doctor checked Riya's pulse and it was dropping down… he was giving CPR to Riya…. Meantime chhotu reached there with her wife…and asked megha, "megha kya hua…. Kaisi hai ri?..." megha hugged him and said, "bhai…. Riya andar….doctor use cpr de rahe hai…." And she cried a lot…. Then chhotu went to near the Riya's room door… and his wife consoling megha….
Everyone was tensed and crying out there…Megha was looking at Riya with her other family members from outside her room through the glass door…. Megha just remembered her poem that she has wriiten,
Aasmaa Me Sitaron Ki Chamak Baki Rhi
Meri Choodiyon Ki Khanak Baki Rhi
Ab Kaha Zindgi Baaki Rhi E Dost
Maaf Krna Yeh Kahani Baki Rhi
Mana Ki Iss Safar Ki Koi Manzil Nhi
Ek Raat Ki Aur Zindgi Baki Rhi
Yeh Sard Hawaon Ka Mousam Hai Dost
Begharon Ko Peimaano Ki Rahat Baki Rhi
Yun Hi Khatam Ho Jayega Hr Ek Intezaar
Kya Hua Jo Kuchh Hasraten Baki Rhi
Naa Afsos Kr Judaai Ka, Fir Kbhi Mill Lenge
Meri Zindgi Ki Aakhri Dua Baki Rhi
(a peom from: http://www.shayarizone.com/forum/shayari-e-dard-zone/32616-meri-zindgi-ki-aakhri-dua.html)
Each passing second was scaring her…. Of losing her sister…. She felt guilty for her sister's condition…. However, it is not truth… she could see her past 2 years life in front of her eyes… which had changed their lives completely… whatever happened 2 years ago, due to that today they are here, at this condition… Riya was fighting with her death and she was standing here helpless… doesn't know what god has written in their destiny…. Aur 2 saal pehle ki sare incidents uski aankho ke samne tair ne lage… aur woh 2 saal peeche chali gayi…
thats it for now... and thank you for reading my ff...
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