There was something so different about her today, the way she avoided to look me in the eye, perhaps she feared her eyes would give away the confession that she was eager to confess.
Isnt this what you had been waiting for all your life Anuj? for her to make you a part of hers, the life you dreamt with her, but why does it feel so strange to know what I knew already? and why is there an undertone of fear...a fear of losing what we have now...
Eyes shut in contemplation, resting his head on the headboard, with some old pictures partly tucked in his red diary, Anuj waited for her.
and there she was, to catch him off guard, deeply indulged in his daydream. He didn't realise the wind blew the pictures off the bed and one landed at the door where she stood, excited and nervous.
“Anuj aapko mana kiya tha na bed se na uthne ko, aapko baandh doongi mai bed se” fussing over his weak state, she told him off yet again, it was becoming quite the norm, she had definitely kept him under the thumb and he was loving it, all of it.
Settling him back into bed, she asked “has kyu rahe hai? maine aapko daanta hai koi shabaashi nahi dee jo aap itna khush ho rahe hai” she yelled again, making him chuckle some more.
“tumhari daant par has nahi raha par kuch soch ke has raha hoon” he smiled.
“kya?” she asked curiously.
“ yehi ki aakhir tum meri zindagi mein aa hi gayi” and this time he said it with all intent making her gush a little as she tried to dodge his piercing gaze again.
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“Anupama please, mujhe pata hai tum yahan comfortable nahi ho, I’ll manage” he said when she started to look around the house to figure out the sleeping arrangement.
“Nahi Anuj, aisi koi baat nahi hai mai araam se yahan sofe pe..” she gestured.
“sorry Anu, meri wajah se tumhe itni pareshani uthani padh rahi hai...” he apologised but she cut him off saying “aur aap ne jo mere liye kiya hai uska kya?”
He smiled and as the meds started to kick in, he slipped into deep sleep leaving her with his diary.
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“I love you...Anuj” she rehearsed
No matter what she tried, she couldnt get herself to sleep, perhaps it was the excitement to tell him how she felt, or may be the nervousness to spend the night at his house, soon to be her own? ....
Tapping on her head,she rebuked herself for jumping the gun when she spotted the diary on his dresser.
‘nahi Anu, ye tu kya soch rahi hai, waise bhi shayar Kapadia ki shayari tujhe kahan samjh aati hai’ she sneered ‘par ab kuch kuch samajh aane lagi hai’ proud of herself, she smiled and watched him sleep peacefully.
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“ I love you Anujjj” she said it at last.
“Anu, I love you too” he replied audibly, making her open her eyes for a brief moment as if to acknowledge him and she went back to sleep.
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‘Anuj, aap?” she panicked
Her hair damp, her face as fresh and new as the morning dew, he couldn't take his eyes off the most beautiful morning view.
“kuch chahiye tha aapko? mujhe awaaz de dete, aap kyu aaye? she fussed again.
“Anu, wo jo kal tum kuch kehna chah rahi thi...” he could barely wait for her to say what her eyes and actions had announced already.
“Anuj” she tried again...” woh mai”
“Anupama please kehdo isse pehle ki meri jaan nikal jaaye”
“Anuj mai..I...mujhe aapse...”
Trying to get her to look at him he tilted his head and went a little closer making her insanely nervous.
“ Anu please?“ he begged while his phone rang continuously in the bedroom.
“Anuj....aapka phone...” she reminded .
annoyed by another interruption he said,” it can wait, par mai ab aur wait nahi kar sakta Anu” giving her a longing look he leaned against the wall and waited patiently when the door bell rang.
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just wrote a quick something while I was waiting for the episode to upload...batao kaisa laga, havent read it myself so excuse me if it dont make sense.
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