Lonely...

and since you all are very sweet people, can you help me?

well, here is my problem...

Sometimes I wonder if Iam the only one...

like, I just started the 9th grade, and I miss my old friends alot...I miss everything about middle school as it was the awesomest years of my life. It seems so hard to make friends now, even though usually im a very friendly kid...It seems as if I keep everything bottled up...I used to be hyper, i used to go up to everyone and say hi. But It seems like all I do is reflect on my memories of middle school, and get sad over them. Like why cant I be in the same high school as my friends...and all. I miss those old memories that I had with them. I try to talk to them again, but it seems as if they forgot me...I feel like the song 'Superman kryptonite'... Alot of my friends, old friends...I try talking with them, but they seem really busy with their lives or when i talk to them, the convos dont have the same spark as it once did. I try to keep the converstation going but all I get are one worded answers...Im not really allowed to hang out outside of school because my parents are really over-protective. Soo, im not aware of things that happen outside of school...like when my friends go to the fair or just hang out...On myspace or facebook, i realise that my friends are starting to delete me or just not talk to me anymore...

Also, I started realising how much my old friends have changed...Like, i had this really innocent and sweet friend and now she has changed, for the opposite. like, i've realised that many of my friends are growing up and changing...but im still the same. I mean, Im happy to be myself...but it feels weird 'coz all of the girls around me are soo fast and they act so mature. It scares me...On one hand im happy that im myself, and the other times i think im going to be left behind. I dont have a boyfriend. I dont really want one. Prince charming is good enough for me, even if he is in my imagination. But, my old friends make me feel like im such a loser. Well, i know that im not, but they make it seem like they are soo mature that they dont want to talk to a childish kid like me...

I guess the main point is that Im really sad about how much my friends are changing and how i feel left behind even though Im happy about being myself. I feel sad about being lonely, because it feels like im the only person without a life...life seems so boring...nothing to do on weekends...and now, even school is boring whereas it used to be my place for fun...

WOAH, I wrote sooo much! But you all are like master advice experts lolz. 😃

Awww, i feel for you. Some points of advice.

Life is a series of changes, we have to adjust and adapt. Likle you started middle school...so when i moved into higer education, i was much younger than you as Uk works different, i was 11 at the time...and i was so scared...as i was not bubbly...i was not the person that can up to people easily and make friends....now if you see me i have changed sooo much....😳

Luckily you said you are bubbly or was....you just need to find one or 2 friends that you can trust and reply on in your new school.

There is no point thinking of the past - the past wont change, just look to the future. I used to also think about past friends and before i moved, about how much i woud miss them....a year later i forget about them...my new friends were more important they would with me for the next 7 years.

If they delete you off facebook - they are not real friends are they? 😳 There is no reason to delete you off....

Friends do grow up and seem more mature - you will not get left behind, in your own time you will adapt...and there is plenty of time for this, and if your happy within your own body thats all that matters.

Theres no need to look at friends at use them as some kind of rolemodel to how you should be, everyone is different, and there is no need to be lonely find a friend or 2 at school, go have fun....join activities or find a hobby.

i have a best friend who goes to a different skool and we talk only like once a week but we talk ALOT like 2 hrs..i dnt think anythings changed for the worse but i think it is better this way because we had problems when we were together....

overall, make new friends! be cheerful again and forget the friends that dont talk to you...join a sport or a club of some sort... =]

I saw everyone around me change, and there were many that encouraged me to change, but I didn't. And I'm proud to say I'm the same person today despite being in the wrong company. Don't worry about things trust me when I say this you would much rather be by yourself than in the wrong company. If you need any help or have any problem or feel lonely feel free to PM me anytime :)

i feel where you are coming from...i have also been in bad company and still am but i am not willing to change myself...i also feel like i have no BEST friend...i have many friends...but im not close to any...and the one best friend i have is all caught up in skipping skool with her boyfriend and isnt always sensitive to my emotions....i try to not let her overpower me so i dont follow her around or anything...😆