Antara's diary...... 24th July

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Posted: 16 years ago

22^nd July

Dear Diary,

I don't know really how to describe today, but the evening was particularly peaceful. 

I went to school or whatever it is that place I go to. Doc is a nice guy. He speaks quietly and persuasively to me. He understand me, respects my work and always pats my back when I do something right. But where was Papa today? He didn't come to take me home. I was disappointed. Doc took me home. On reaching home, I started working on my Jigsaw puzzle. But I soon got up and went away.

A funny feeling: The lady was looking so intently at me while I was doing the puzzle that I had to somehow leave the room. It put me on edge.

Later in the night, Papa and I were in the balcony. There was a beautiful breeze blowing and the huge leaves were swaying and moving side to side. I was looking up at the sky. There was one bright star that was twinkling. Papa asked me if I was watching out for my mum. He said his mum was also up in the sky. He told me softly that he would always stay with me as long as he lived. I felt so nice …….. so happy. He said he would somehow keep the family together. I didn'tquite understand that ……it was very profound.

A comfortable feeling: I love it when Papa is with me. And the trees made me happy. I enjoyed their movement……..just like my swinging. Were they copying me?

With Papa a special rapport I do share

I love the way he gently strokes my hair

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Posted: 16 years ago

23rd July

I could hear a lot of loud talking. It was something to do with Papa's sister. Couldn't understand much. In the morning, I got dressed to go. I went to the dining room. I saw Abhi sitting on Ar ar ….. don't know her name. Anyway he was sitting on her lap and was asking for clothes which made both the ladies laugh. But when I entered, all the talking stopped. Both the ladies turned to look at me. Their smiles were wiped off and I could feel two sets of eyes boring into me. Abhi said that I would get new clothes too.

A fearful feeling:I get frightened when I see that Ar..ar lady. She is always shouting and screaming in my presence. She seems to be complaining about me to Papa. My heart beats very fast. I don't know why she does that. I can't understand her. And the other lady ……. I just can't seem to do anything right. I don't know what my fault is. As for Abhi, he's a blow hot blow cold guy. But mostly he's nice. He's my younger brother, na…….

Papa entered the room and hugged Ar…ar. He held her close and spoke so kindly to her. He then stroked her hair just like he does to me. I never say anything if Papa is kind to anyone then why do these ladies keep telling him cruel things because of me? He puts me on the top of his list and that is what no one likes. He led me to the door and took me to school.

A safe feeling:

Papa is so kind to me And talks to me so gently Whatever happens let it be So long as he's there beside me.

At school, there was this new boy called Atul who asked my name. But I didn't want to tell him my name. He wanted me to put pictures in order. One was easy, it was my picture. Vikram uncle wanted me to talk to him and answer him. But …..

A stubborn feeling: I was feeling comfortable within myself. I didn't want to come out of my shell. What can I do? Sometimes I am very stubborn.

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skeptical

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Posted: 16 years ago

24th July

Dear Diary,
Today was indeed a black Friday. I was surrounded by people who didn't like me. They fought with me, bullied me and yelled at me. Papa was not at home. I had no friend near me. I was so frightened in the Baba's. Sob………..sob………Papa where are you? Ma ….Antara.

Mamma Mamma tell me why….
You left me behind to only cry
Why do you sit in the sky ……
While I look up and sigh?

Papa Papa where are you …..
All this is scary and new
I really truly haven't a clue
When will this day get through…….

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skeptical

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Posted: 16 years ago

Thanks nyc ............. wasn't sure this idea would work....... 😆

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realitybites

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Posted: 16 years ago

Very novel and unique idea Skep. Keep it going.

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Posted: 16 years ago

Awwwwwwww Skept this is so perfect. thanks. Antara's Daily dairy can't wait to see more.👏👏

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Bugger

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Posted: 16 years ago

heyyy .....tht was so so cool ......i remember u used to rite in first person in MRD also and we used to love it ....i m happy u hav strted ur writing here too .....i got anotehr bahana to visit this forum and spam ur post!!😆😆

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Posted: 16 years ago

Originally posted by: Bugger
heyyy .....tht was so so cool ......i remember u used to rite in first person in MRD also and we used to love it ....i m happy u hav strted ur writing here too .....i got anotehr bahana to visit this forum and spam ur post!!😆😆

I am glad that its at least making you visit this forum