Chapter 9
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MG SS : Salaam e Ishq
PART 7
On the other hand in KM ...
maan drove in with his car almost crashing with the main gate but lucky for the guard he opened it in time ...he was fuming from inside ..the images of varun manhandling geet came in front of his eyes n he marched towards his gym ...almost tearing away his clothes he changed n started his tai-chi ...
the only way to get rid of the fuming rage burning his insides .. the words geet said ...her eyes ..that pained look in her almond hazel haunted him ever since he walked out from her street ...he punched hard in the air n kicked high ..higher than he usually does exaggerating himself ...furious at self for what he was about to do ...he was about to confess his feelings for geet ...yet again the similar mistake ...how the hell could he ...life has taught him enough n again he was about to make the same mistake ...what if that car have had hit geet or something ..the mere thought made him tremble with fury ...fury at self to be so careless ...to have again put her life in danger ...why is it that he cannot keep a hold of himself n his feelings ... he punched n kicked with all the energy he had seeing yet again the images of that car coming towards geet n he fell loosing his balance ...
he sat thr breathing high when dadi maa entered the gym n hurried towards him looking at his state ..
Dadi maa (sat beside him worried) : maan kya baat hai bte ..yeh sab kya hai ...??
Maan (stood up looking away from her) : kuch nahi dadi maa ..bas yoon hi
Dadi maa (stood behind him) : maan jhoot unse boliye jo aapke jhoot ko pakar na sakien ...bataye humien kya baat hai ..
Maan (wiped his sweat with t he towel n started walking towards his room) : dadi maa mene kaha na koi baat nahi hai ...itni raat hugayi hai aapke liye aise jaagna theek nahi hai ...plss jaakar soojaiye
Dadi maa : maan jab bachoon ki neend uri ho tu maa ko neend nahi aati ... geet se jori koi baat hai ..
Maan stopped in his track n looked back at her surprised) : aap kaise keh sakti hain ..
Dadi maa (smiled n walked upto him) : aniee ..hum ..aur prem sab yahan araam se soo rahe hain ...aur humare lawa iss poori dunya mien sirf ek hi insaan aisa hai jis ke liye aap itna preeshan hu sakte hain ... GEET ..
Tu bataye humien abb kya hua ..
Maan (looked down trying to block the images of that varun) : dadi maa woh ... aaj party ke baad ..actually ...(n he narrated the whole incident) ...
Dadi maa (angry) : yaqeen nahi huraha varun aisa kar sakte hain ...sharam aarahi hai humien ..
Maan : dadi maa ..i m sure Sinha uncle ka call aapke paas zaror aayega ...but I m sorry mien abb Varun ko KC ke kisi project mien involve nahi karne wala ...
Dadi maa : nahi maan aap fiqar mat kijeye ..varun ne jo kiye usske baad tu uska geet kea as paas aane ka sawaal hi nahi hai ...himat bhi kaise huyi varun ki aisi harkat karne ki ...who bhi geet k saath... aapka reaction hum samajh sakte hain maan ...aap fiqar mat kijeye hum sambhaal lenge unko ...
Maan (interrupted her ..immediately on guards) : ek minute dadi maa ..sirf geet nahi wohh kisi ke bhi saath aisa kuch karta tu mera reaction aisa hi hota ...
Dadi maa (smirked n said irritated with his on guards behavior) : maan bte its good to know u live with such high morals ...but humien yeh sab line mat mariye ...aapki in sab baton se aap geet ko tou misguide kar sakte hain ...ussko apne aap se door bhi kar sakte hain ...but hum se jhoot bolne kit u kushish bhi mat kariyega ...
Maan (looked away not wanting to accept dadi's words) : aisa nahi hai wohh bas .//
Dadi maa : maan hum soone jaa rahe hain ...
aap bhi jaa kar soo jaye kafi late hugaya hai ..
aap bhi jaa kar soo jaye kafi late hugaya hai ..She went ahead shooking her head at his stubbornness ...while maan kept standing thr until she went in her room ...he went to kitchen grabbing a water bottle ..n then went to Aniee's room opened it slightly to check on her ...n closed with a relief seeing her sleeping peacefully ...n then went to Prem's room ..opened his door carefully n smiled seeing him sleeping in weird position covering the whole bed .. he went in picked up his toys n kept in aside ...then covered him properly with the duvet n saw him clutching his mom dad's picture tight to him while sleeping ...maan smiled in grief a loss he will never be able to compensate ever !! .. he sighed n turned to the side table checked is milk glass ...sat by his side n caressed his head for sometime then left pecking him slightly ..
He was about to open his room's door but then closed it n went ahead to last room of the corridor ...his bhai n bhabi's room ... he opened it n stepped inside ..switched on the lights n then closed the door behind ..removed the cover from thr picture hung behind thr bed post ..n stood in front of it ..with his head dipped down ..
Maan : i... i ve hurt her again bhabi ...(sighed with a weight of guilt in his heart)... bhabi ..yeh sab mere saath hi kyun ...bhai u always taught me to win ...life mien jeetna sekhaya aapne dono ne mujhe ..har race ..har competition mien ...but apne darr se kaise jeetien yeh kyun nahi seekhaya ..
Maan fell down by the bed ...n finally the long held tears slipped down his eyes ...
his bhai always guided him ..always helped him in everything he did ...he always taught him how to win beyond everything else ...beyond ur weekness ...beyond any physical pain ...a fighter must win was his lesson ...then y didn't he taught him how to fight with fears ...fears so deep that it over powers his whole existence ...but then how could they possibly taught him to over come something that neer existed that time ... after all y should maan fear anything his bhai was thr to face it for him ...his bhabi was thr to protect him from everything n anything ...maan singh khurana never knew fears coz he was always protected by his bhai n bhabi ...but after them ...who is protecting him n his happiness ...
The world gives him credit to have managed his family business so well in such a short time ...everyone gives him credit to have taken care of his family so well ...but a question always linger in some corner of his heart ...did he ..?? a question he always asks himself ...did he really made it upto aniee as bhai did ...?? Did he really was the parent to Prem as good as his bhai n bhabi were to him ..?? did he took care of dadi the way bhai use to ..?? he didn't was the answer he use to get everytime ..
Somewhere he didn't trust himself ..that he is capable to fulfill his family's need as his bhai n bhabi did .. his bhai loved him like thr was no one else in the world to love for him ...like he was the only one ...same was for his bhabi ...they never thought of a child until aniee was in her higher school which a quite long time of thr marriage ...it was thr love for them ...it was thr affection that they took so good care of them ...n somehow maan feels guilty that he couldn't do the same for aniee n prem ...even dadi maa ...the tears in her eyes everytime she stands in front of his bhai's picture makes him realize he still lacks somewhere ...when ever he isn't able to make it to help aniee n her assignments n projects he realizes he isn't giving enough time to his family like his bhai use to ...he still remembers no matter what may come ...his bhai helped him complete n guide him in every of his school assignment ...but he isn't able to do the same for prem ...whenever prem leaves his test caopies for his signature at night he realizes he isn't giving him the same attention his bhabi n bhai use to give them ... it pains him ...it makes him guilty ...no matter how much he tries but he is not able to balance KC n his family's responsibility ...he is not able to protect them ...the reason why he fears he will fail in his responsibilities n will fail to protect them ...god has snatched his mother n father ...he lost his bhai n bhabi .. but he don't want to loose his family now ... a fear he lives with every day ..!!
all the way failing to realize that he did ... he did made it to every school function of prem .. he made to aniee's life every important event since last 7 years ... dadi maa cries coz she miss him not coz he isn't able to fulfill his responsibilities ...he failed to realize that everyone cannot do everything at the same time .. he didn't realize that he did saved his family from every evil ...the fear of loosing them is so strong n over powering that he neglected every other positive thought ..
n then he met geet ... a girl he fell for but ...again he stopped himself .. he didn't wanted to have her in his life ...love wasn't for him to have permanently ... who ever he loves are snatched away ... his mom dad died ..then his bhai bhabi ... n now his heart was again daring to love a girl ... something he had no control over ..her innocence her charm ...her beauty every thing was attracting him towards her ..it was almost as if she carried a aura around herself that made everyone fall for her ...if prem got his report card first for maan to see then it was geet's greeting he waited for the most ..he was 3 when she entered in thr life ..n since then she has been thr for him ..for his family ..n for him as well ... she brought back his happiness ..his life which he had lost with his bhai n bhabi ...
again the thought he isn't able to take care of his family properly than how will he protect her if she comes in his life ...surely like dad n mom ..bhai n bhabi ..even geet will get hurt .. n he started trying to avoide her ...surpress his feeling for her ...even tried to make her hate him ..but he couldn't ...he failed to do any of it ,... hating her was soon out of question with dadi maa n aniee involving her in family n obviously the little 3 years old prem then getting attached to her ...it was difficult seeing her almost 24/7 in front of him ..he was falling n falling hard for her innocence ...n could feel her faling of him as well ... today he know she loves him n his behavior hurts her but he can't loose her just for having her all for himself ..he don't trust himself ..n he certainly will never let his dark fate take away her from his life forever ...he rather live having her in his life for name sake or rather hate him but he won't survive without her in his life ...
sometimes ...some fears are so big they consume your whole existence ...n then you can't think past them ..but the same fears renders you to realize what you are loosing ..what is being left behind in life .. coz everything u can have is replaced by a fear that you have let over power you ..
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