Originally posted by: The.Lannister
what confuses me is why doesnt she take a chance with emir here? he already knows about the magazine thing being fake and he has apologized N number of times. so why not tell him about this engagement. if they love each other that much why cant they get engaged. i know things arent that simple, his parents wont agree, riza will throw a fit, etc. but at this point what has she got to loose? if emir too refuses her after knowing her reality & about her impending engagement & leaves her OR cannot do anything to save her from this engagement then maybe she can give up & as u said stop running from her reality & destiny.
At this point she is not thinking clearly. She is only concerned about how badly her mother has been hurt and that was all because of her lies. Emir and her relationship is still very weak. They have been together for hardly some time. She doesn't think it is strong enough to sustain such a big blow like this. She is scared that she will end up being hurt really bad. Besides, even if Emir accepted her with her lies, what would he do? Would he go and ask her father to let her be his girlfriend? Would Riza allow that? Feriha fears that she will lose everything if she tells the truth. Now she believes that Emir is not written in her destiny. She wants to stop running away from truth, and accept that she is doorman's daughter and being a doorman's daughter she can't expect anything more from life other than some guy like Halil.
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You know as you will see further, her lies will keep on getting bigger. And even as a viewer you would ask her, why isn't she telling the truth? Yes, she should have told the truth a long time back, but she kept on delaying it and it resulted very badly. Probably she was ashamed of her family first and then scared to lose him. But would he be really her love if he can't accept her for who she really is? What is the point of living in such a dream when it is going to end up being a nightmare? There are so many times, when I feel she should have told the truth. She got many opportunities for that as well. But she always kept running from it. She always keep running from the truth. That is her real problem. She doesn't know how to face it. Her fears and her emotions drive her life.
In this show, I feel almost every character is driven by their emotions. Nobody is really calculative. They all do some wrong things out of their feelings. Probably Feriha should not have gotten carried away. She should have accepted her reality. It is a flaw in her that she can't accept a truth. And this hurts not only people around her but also her own self.