MyThoughts- Epi 946-47

Most of today's epi was incidences, hence not much to discuss.

I liked how AbhiN and AbhiM patched up. The thing to notice was that it was AbhiN who gave in first and was also the first to apologize. AbhiM followed him. It showed that AbhiM is still high on ego. Even when he was the one who intruded the space between a husband and wife. AbhiM has not even realized that and I don't think will be.

AK's conversation with Muskan was very important but I will talk about it in context of yesterday's conversation between AbhiN and AbhiM.

The AbhiN- AbhiM tiff was among the best scenes post- leap. It makes you think on so many perspectives.

AbhiN- AbhiM conflict is nothing but AK's dillemma being expressed in words.

1. I remembered the first encounter between AK and AbhiM is Kasauli. AbhiM looked at her nose ring and remembered one of their intimate movements. Similarly, when AK saw AbhiM, she remembered him in the three piece suit, all looking handsome. The scene indicated that the physical attraction, passion part between them was still alive in each of their mind.

2.In temple confrotation, she told AbhiM that she moved on due to AbhiN but that was far from the truth. She said to AbhiM, 'You never considered me your family'

3.The post- Abhir surgery hug in my POV was not gratitude alone. It was partly a sequel of AbhiM accident event. AK hugged AbhiM and said ' Tum thode humble ho sakate ho'.

4.Then there was a beautiful scene, post Abhir birth. In semiconscious state, AK said,' Abhi.. Tum aa gaye Abhi' when she saw doctors handing over Abhir to AbhiN.

AK's problem is that she is still partially stuck to her imagination or idea of life with AbhiM. Her each statement to AbhiM indicates that.'I wish you had considered me your family.. We could have been together'..'I wish you were little humble, we could have been together' After, AbhiN coming into her life, AbhiN has been there each time where she wanted AbhiM. AbhiN has behaved in way she wanted AbhiM to behave. You see many comparative incidences. In NeiRohi pregnancy AK blurted out the truth leading to discord between the couple. AbhiM had reacted to the incidence in typical AbhiM style.He said that the event was the start of catastrophe leading to Neil's death. AK similarly blurted out the truth about her and AbhiN's marital relationship, but you see no effect of that event on AK- AbhiN relationship due to how AbhiN handled it till now. Everytime a comparative situation happens, and AbhiN handles it maturely, one layer of herbidea of love with AbhiM falls off. But, still she is not completely out of it.

I get a feeling sometimes that AK wants AbhiN covered in a wrapper of AbhiM, even though she is not conscious of it.

No two people are going to be similar and you are going face the negatives of each person. Total acceptance is the key here where AK has failed. When AbhiN will not behave as she wants him to, that will be a real test of her. AbhiN on the other hand has completely accepted AK as she is.As AbhiN has said yesterday, about No to second chances. He should apply that to AK as well in future if she goes back to AbhiM.

Forgiveness- Should AK forgive AbhiM as AbhiM has said? It should be completely AK's prerogative. AbhiM track record shows that he is all good for sometime followed by burst of rage attack/ impulsiveness which destroys everything. AK has always been shown to being carried away by the days when his rage/ obssessive part is in remission and giving him more chances.AbhiN has made a choice, and has accepted all its consequences ( being in a loveless marriage). Whatever AK will choose in future, she should accept the choice and consequences of the choice wholeheartedly.

In one of the conversation between AbhiN and AK, AbhiN told her let the influence of past wear off slowly just like bangle are removed slowly. I want AK to go back to AbhiM so the bangles of the past that she is still wearing would fall off or atleast she will be back with her soulwala love, freeing AbhiN once for all.

As AK is a person who never tells even herself what actually she is feeling, so it is still a long journey before she herself and we know what is in hearts of her hearts.