I feel like i'm losing my shit day by day, otherwise why would i laugh and cry at the same time watching a goddamn dream sequence. AGAIN! yeah, if anyone could find an answer to that, i would be super greatful, thank you.
coming to the Akshara's dream:
it was all about her abhi invading her soul today, and showing her what and how he dreamt it all to be. he snakes his arm around her and turns her around
she studies his features and if there is anything that reflects in it would be the despair, misery and pain for losing a part of his soul.
he walks her to his closet, shows all the colorful outfits that took up the space. All of them, hers.
"Do you not see all this belongs to you? do you not realize the only person i could ever imagine sharing my closet and my room with is you?"
"My heart physically hurts akshu...please"...oh the longing in his eyes, the yarning in his face. God, i swear someone physically squeezed my heart today.
He walks her to the dressing table, a bangle-holder is sitting there adorning all shades of chudiyaan of her size
He holds her gingerly, similar to how he would have held a glass-doll and they both stare at the 'imaginary scene' playing out in front of them - the tinkles of her bangles waking him up, him sliding them into her wrist before a certain occasion, abhi helping her get ready on this very dressing table...
"Hey...how many times did I tell you I absolutely despise those fat tears forming in your eyes? It will pass...this too shall...pass. I promise"
When I say he treats her like a baby, this is what I mean: pulling her to his lap at every chance he gets, for always being clumsy, always scolding her like a mother hen for never thinking of herself before others and for the kind of tone he uses with her
They could have passed their lazy afternoons with akshu playing the guitar and singing one of his favorite songs, casually sitting on his lap as it pours outside, the rain rattling against his bedroom's window.
He makes her wear his stethoscope and puts the chest piece against her heart
"Do you not hear the loud thumping of your heart every time I am around you? Why do you lie to me and yourself that you don't?"
"I do...I really do...I just wish I could say it out loud. I wish I didn't have to break your heart"
"I don't know if it will ever be gathered and glued back to how it was, akshara. I doubt it ever will. Even if it does, i wouldn't want anyone to do it, because the only person I would rightfully give this privilege to mend it,ever, is you..."
They give into their heart's desire one last time - to hold each other before it all just fades away, her tiny fingers entwined with his large ones, the stark contrast complimenting the fusion to perfection.
he pulls himself up on his elbow to have a final look at her, memorizing her features one last time before touching his forehead to her cheek
"Nahi ho raha mujhse akshara...it bloody hurts"
"I know abhi...I know!"
the beauty of today's dream sequence was some next level shit, so , instead of making the post about what I felt, i tried to fill it in with what THEY might have felt and might have wanted to put into words but couldn't.
I just want to say that it has been YEARS since i felt this kind of connection with an ITV jodi. the last one was I think IPKKND and IB. The kind of emotions these two end up triggering in me is far from what i end up writing in my posts. they are just not enough. Who would have thought there will come a day where I would feel like someone was choking my heart to tears watching a freaking dream sequencethe other ones, okay i get it, they are cute scenes, some were toe curling so yeah it's normal but even a sad scene could make me feel the way it had today is something beyond my comprehension lol. I feel like these two have completely take over my sentiments at this point.
Words won't suffice to convey the beauty of today's abhira scene so i'm not even gonna try. I hope y'all enjoyed today's episode as much as I did. Waiting with bated breath for abhi to know the truth. I just want to see his emotions playing out as he finally realizes to what extent akshara can go to save him and the magnitude of her love for him.
Your-not-so-active-anymore,
Mush<33
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