The below piece of work is purely fictional and meant for entertainment purpose only. Please read it as a story and do not take it seriously.
This is from both of theirs point of view.
Preesha (im) - I am slowly losing my hopes. I thought this tour would do some miracle. How I badly want to prove to prove my innocence to him. I don't want him to misunderstand me.
I just can't it anymore. I don't know what I am doing on this tour. It's just too difficult to see Kirti and Rudra together. Their bond is growing. As much as I am happy seeing Rudra's success I have a certain fear in my heart. It hurts somewhere.
Suddenly I have started feeling insecure. Why so? I feel like something is slipping away from my hands.
Rudra, why do I feel like you are going away from me? Why is my heart not at peace? Why is my mind not ready to see you with someone else even if it is purely professional. Why does it hurts so much when you flirt with her, when you hug her, why are close to her. Why? I have never felt like this before. I was never experienced the feeling of insecurity of losing someone or something before. I never truly had anyone that close in my life. Now that I have him I don't want to lose him.
Why I feel I need him, can't live without him?
Why has he become so important?
When I look at Saransh he is enjoying every bit of it. I feel a little better that at least my child is happy.
My only hope, Neerja ....
She was my last hope. What am I going to do now? What if this misunderstandings never gets clear and Rudra would leave me.
No, I can't let this happen.
I want him, I need him, for myself, for my existence.
The trance of my thoughts was broken when he entered into the room.
Rudra - get ready...we have to attend a press conference at 4. I hope you know that media will be there and we will have to behave like a happily married couple.
Preesha - hmm ...
Rudra (im) - She looks disturbed. What's wrong with her?
Rudra - I at least expect that you will not create any scene there....
Preesha (im) - his taunt hit my heart straightaway. Is this the only reason he allowed me to accompany him in the tour. For media? For people? For his fans and audience? Not for himself?
Have I really lost all the importance from his life.
I don't mean anything to him except Saransh's mother.
Rudra - at least reply....
Preesha - Yeah, I understand.
Rudra - good, where is Saransh?
Preesha - In Maa's room....
Rudra - cool.
Preesha (im) - He left. Leaving me alone. Is this is going to happen in future. Is he really going to leave me?
He said he loved me. Is it all over from his side?
Am I living in a false hope?
He still loves me, or not?
I somehow got dressed up for the press conference. Clearly, my mind and heart were not at peace. I am feeling like running away somewhere, away from everything.
I had moist eyes, my face looked pale and dull. My lips went dry.
Why am I not happy?
I feel uneasy.
Rudra - you ready?
Preesha - yes.
Rudra - can you please put a smile on your face.
Preesha (im) - I am tired of faking smiles. I am tired of all this drama. I want to be genuinely happy. I want to smile and laugh with all my heart, for myself and not for the media, fans and audiences.
I nodded and faked a smile.
Rudra - Come....
Preesha (im) - as expected he caged my waist as media was present as soon as we step out of the room.
I had to put a facade for him even if it was hurting me from within. But that's ok, I can do it, for him. I don't want anything to go wrong with him now, not because of me for sure.
The press conference started.
He started answering questions. I answered some too.
But you know how media is.
One of the reporter asked Rudra to dance with Kirti.
That was it for me. I wanted to run away from there.
I have been seeing this since the first day of the tour.
Kirti-Rudra, Rudra-Kirti....
They have become hit singing pair.
I understand he is a celebrity and his job requires him to be around other women. He has a huge female following as well. He gets female attention more. This isn't new for me and it should affect me. I respect his career's demands. This is part and parcel of being a wife of a celebrity.
I never felt so jealous and insecure before but why only now. Why I feel this only when Kirti is around?
As expected, they started dancing on their new song. I couldn't even see them that close.
How can you do this to me Rudra?
Why are you doing this to me?
That's it, enough is enough.
I don't from where I got the strength but I went, grabbed him by his jacket and pulled him at me.
I was shocked. What did I just go?
I just ..oh no he is going to be mad at me now.
I am done. He will send me back home. He will torture me now. He will hurt me for spoiling the press conference.
I left her jacket and ran away from there.
Rudra (im) - what just happened? What did she just do? She just ruined my press conference and gave a chance to the media to talk about us.
I waited for the press conference to get over.
I rushed to catch her as soon as I got free.
Rudra - Preesha, Preesha....
Preesha (im) - I already had started packing backs as I know he will not let me be on the tour anymore.
Rudra - what did you just do there?
Rudra (im) - Her eyes were red. She cried. I know. Why is she packing her bags? And I want to know why did she pulled me ..there...
Rudra - what is this? Why are you packing bags?
Preesha - Before you get me out of the tour, I have decided to go back home.
Rudra - what, why? Why do you think so?
Preesha - Because you don't need me here, genuinely. You just need me for the media and your fans, that's it
You don't need me to be with you, for yourself.
I am tired of all this, Rudra. I am suffocating.
I am tired of faking a smile, being happy. I can't do it anymore.
Rudra - so what do you expect from me? I also didn't want you here. Remember you are on this tour only because of Ahuja uncle. It's for my image ....
Preesha - You care for your image but what about me? My feelings. I am here with you only for cameras otherwise you don't even spare a look at me.
You don't even check on me. I am just being used ...like a doll as if I have no feelings. You all are treating me like a toy.
And after all this you will still blame me for ruining your career. Ask yourself Rudra, I had an option of not coming with you. I was anyway going out of the house, but I still came, for you, for your image and will only get hate from you.
Rudra - Huh, how can you expect people to care for your feelings when you don't care for theirs. It's not me but it's you who is selfish here.
You just want people around you to dance on your tunes. You did the same with me. Now you can't complain when you are served with the same treatment.
Preesha - I can't believe you are the same Rudra who used to....make me feel special. You used to do everything for me evening without asking for....
Rudra - You killed that Rudra, Preesha. Oh, I see. I get it now why are you feeling so lonely here. It's boring right when your lover Yuvraj is not with you. You must be missing him, right. Yep, I should have got it. Why don't you just call him and talk?
Or best call him here....you guys can then spend time together.
Preesha - enough......
Preesha (im) - I shouted at the top of my voice. Tears started to flow from eyes.
I couldn't take it anymore.
I pushed him back.
Preesha - You know what Rudra, like you can question me and my character every time, I can ask questions too. What if I ask what's between you and Kirti, how will you feel?
Rudra - Preesha, don't get there....
Preesha - Hurts, right? No, don't worry I am not asking for justification.
I know what you are doing and why are you doing it. You want to hurt me, right.
Yes, it hurts me when she is around you. Yes it's hurts me when you both get close because it pains on seeing you with someone else. Happy now?
I just have one question for you and I hope you will answer because I want something to hold on to. My heart needs a hope. My feelings needs a direction...
I just want to know if I am fighting a lost battle.
Is it all over for you, Rudra?
Rudra (im) - Her question shook me. It came as a shock to me and I was definitely not expecting it.
I don't know what to answer.
Preesha - take your time and then answer but please....give me an answer.
Rudra (im) - And she left...she left with that leaving me all alone with those questions.
Why did she ask the question? Why?
Why does she gets bother when Kirti is around? I wasn't trying to make her feel jealous I was trying to hurt her.....
Why is she feeling insecure when she never loved me at the first place?
She shouldn't question me if she still loves Yuvraj.
She doesn't like Kirti around me and gets jealous.
The same way I used to get jealous seeing Yuvraj around her. It made me realise my feelings...
But then what about that video?
She clearly said she wants to destory me....but if that's the case she shouldn't be here with me for my image ....
Is the video truly real and authentic? Or is she just playing with words to confuse me and hurt my feelings.
Why does my heart wants to believe her?
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