Hi friends updated new part .Part 18
Ishita raised her eyes and saw him with questioning eyes while Raman continued " I mean this marriage was for baby and now if he is not there, what will be our relationship status."
Before she answer him anything her eyes became moist and tears started rolling from her eyes ,he came lil more closer to her and pulled her to him ,she rested her head on his chest and spoke " I still can't believe that we lost him ,raman how can god be so cruel .we were living alone , we don't even know each other well and don't even wanted to know but we came closer and married for baby and now we don't have him .agar yahi hona tha then why this ,isse to achcha hota main pregnant hoti hi nahi ,actually this all was my fault ,I should have taken some precautions after that night but I didn't do that .I m so idiot that's why these all happened with me ."
Raman kept his finger on her mouth and made her silent, then spoke " ssuhh ishita it was not your fault ,but it was destined like that ,this much sufferings were written in our fate that's why it happened .now don't curse yourself instead we have a long life in front of us ,we have to think about it .we have to achieve goals of our life's.that's why I was asking ...
He was still to complete his sentence when she spoke " what do you want ".
R(narrowing his eyes) - main main , its not about me ishita but its about you . ishita earlier also I had given you the freedom to choose and now also I want you to make the choice ,you know why ?.
She shook her head negatively while getting her answer he continued ," because you are the one who was the primary sufferer ,at the time if pregnancy the decision was left to you because you had to carry the baby for nine months and answer the work though I was beside you and now also I m leaving it to you only as ...
I- as what Raman don't you have your choice ,aap bolo na what you want further in our relationship.
R- ishita I told you na ,it depends on you .if you want we can continue this relationship and if not we can part .
A pin drop silence occurred in the room after he completes his sentence before they can talk much he received a call from his mother ,he picked the call and talked . Ishita was just looking to him ,she was not able to decide as he has left a huge decision on her .She was still thinking when she heard him
" no ma ,you don't even think of my marriage, I told you na I will not marry till I succeed in my life ,ma meri age hi kya hai ,I m just 24 ,I want to establish myself as a successful businessman then only I will think about marriage ,OK so please don't even raise this topic again ."
He was telling this to his mother so that she will not force him for marriage but ishita took it otherwise she thought that Raman actually don't want any responsibility on him before achieving success in his life .She was thinking when he came back to her and asked
" haan bolo where we were ".
I- Raman I m not feeling good ,wanna rest for sometimes .
R- ok, chalo I will help you till bed .
I- no I will manage .
Saying so she got up in jiffy but sat again as she felt immense pain due to sudden jerk ,she winced in pain and sat again ,he asked concerned but she couldn't spoke anything due to pain . Raman picked her in his arms and took her to the room.,he placed her gently and spoke " till now you are not fully recovered ,you should take good care of yourself ,now rest for sometimes till then I will make something for us ."
Ishita nodded and raman got up to leave when he noticed that she is holding his hands ,he asked ",what " raising his eyebrows ,she spoke softly
" please be with me ,I craved to be with you in these two days ".
Their eyes became moist listening to her and realising that how much they missed each other .He sat beside her and she kept her head on his lap ,he was caressing her hairs softly when she spoke " you know Raman I had even decided the name of baby ".
R- me too had shortlisted some nice names of babies .
I- but everything ruined ...
Saying so she sobbed again ,he caressed her hairs and consoled" koi nahi we will keep same name for our other ba...
He stopped in mid thinking what he us saying.He saw her and saw she has slept .
R- itni jaldi so gayi ,theek hi hai I should not force her for her decision ,seems she need some times ,waise bhi she has not recovered fully .
He tucked her nicely ,caressed her face and went pecking her temple .After he left she opened her eyes and spoke to herself " why Raman is asking this question , yaar may be because of baby but we are genuinely married then why should we broke the marriage .kahij aisa to nahi ki Jo wo apni mummy se kah rahe the woh hi sahi ho ,that he don't want any responsibility on him till her achieve his sucess .if it so I should not be burden on him ."
She thought so and cried again on her bad fate ,at last she slept being exhausted of crying .After some hours Raman came to wake her for dinner ,the dried tears were clearly visible on her cheeks .He caressed her cheeks and tried to wipe of those tears which resulted in waking her .She got up noticing him so close to her and asked
" Raman aap ".
R- ishita why don't you try to forget that horrible incident .
I- I m trying but its not so easy for me .
R- I know but it will effect your health , you already are weak and then you keep crying all the time .
I- what should I do .
R- you should try move on in your life .
I- that's not so easy for me Raman ,may I had come from my home city to here for my further studies ,may be I have some ambition in life ,may be you can see me in modern cloths but from inside I m a typical Indian girl for whom ,family ,relationship and marriage matters a lot .I know you don't want burden in your life as you want to be successful like your father ,so its ok you go and fulfill your wish but don't divorce me . May be we can't live together but you will be my husband always .I know everything was just for baby but still we married with all Hindu rituals and you must be knowing very well that we don't have anything like divorce in our religion .you are free to move on but don't take your name from me ."
Raman was looking and listening to her without blinking his eyes while tears were flowing unstoppable from both pairs of eyes .She was looking down and speaking this all with great difficulty between her hicupps .He raised her face holding by his hands and asked softly " and why do you think that I want to leave you ".
I- I heard your and mummyji talks .
R- ishita are you actually so dumb or pretending to be ...
I(glaring )- what do you mean.
R- I thought you must be having some sense but seems tera ooper wala mala ekdum khaali hai .
I- matlab.
R- Matlab ye ki my mother was forcing me for marriage and if I had not told those things to her she must had started looking alliance for me, aur baat jahan tak typical Indian hone ki hai ,I m also like you ,for me too this marriage thing was a huge matter but I left it on you thinking that you were scared of your parents and parting will be more easier for you than telling them the big truth of our life .
I- I agree I m scared of telling about our marriage to my parents but that doesn't mean that I will broke my marriage because of that .
R- is it so .
She nodded looking at him while he opened his arms for her ,she engulfed herself in his arms ,both smiled fully for the very first time .Then raman spoke ," come let's have food ,rest we can talk while having our dinner ".
I- raman I don't ...
He didn't let her complete and spoke " ishita no more argument. "
She nodded and climbed down the bed ,both settled in table ,he served her some curry and chapati ,she looked at the curry and asked " you made this ".
R- of course not ,I m not a chef I just made Roti's and ordered this from the restaurant nearby .now have food and rest .
Both started having their meal in silence ,though they had talked about it but again they wanted yo confirm for one more time that actually non of them wanted to part but they will live their life together .After much argument with his heart and mind finally Raman spoke " seems destiny wanted to bring us together that's why this happened . matarani had send an angel to bring us together and after his work got completed she had called him back ."
I- but we already had accepted and was adjusting with every situation then why did this happens .
R- may be we were not ready for that ,our relationship needs to be flourished more that's why .
I - shayad .
He spoke slowly and soon they were done with their dinner .After wrapping up their work finally the time had come for sleeping . Raman was doing something on his laptop while ishita was still in washroom .She came out and was standing in her place , Raman saw this and asked " kya hua why are you standing there ,aao. "
I- you want me to sleep beside you .
R- (confused )- what type of question is this .
I- I mean to say that now nothing is like before ,matlab now I m not alone and don't need care ,so if you want I can sleep in hall or ...
R- ishita I agree our relationship is not normal like other couples but still we are married and had already agreed to move forward together in out life ,so why are you thinking of this small things .I don't want to force you but this was my opinion ,if you are not comfortable you can sleep here ,i will go elsewhere .
I- no no that's not needed ,I can sleep in bed .
R- to aao ,what are you waiting for and listen no more cryings and negative thoughts ,you be okay soon as actually our exams are appraching and we hadn't got time to study in these days .
I- yeah ,I have come here to study and fulfill my dreams and see where I ended up .
R- still you can back off if you are regretting .
I- I need some times to adjust but of course I m not regretting it instead I m very lucky if murugan has chosen you for me .
Saying so she settled in bed and spoke " you too sleep for today we will start afresh from tomorrow ".
Raman nodded and kept his lappy ,he switched off the light and lays beside her ,both were tossing and turning in their places but can't sleep as till now they have grown a habit to sleep snuggling into each other ,after sometimes when ishita thought that he has slept ,she came closer to him and kept her legs on him ,he too turned to her and held her protectively ,she thought that its out of habit but actually he was wide awake like her ,tgey cuddled into each other and soon sleep take over them .
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