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So my life has gotten crrazy busy, and I'm off to Pakistan to see the family next week, but I miss everyone so much, so I stayed up late to pen something down. I'm sorry post Eid commitments and feeling ill made me a bit scarce, but I missed my forum friends. As usual, I'm back with a post on my favourite character. I will eventually balance the scale and post on Ishita
So here goes:
Raman has always been a man of action, rather than words. Yes, when the time comes, his words too mean something.
But his actions at least consistently, overpower when he says the opposite.
This has been the case from the very beginning.
A man with a heart of gold, hidden by a bitter tongue.
Or humour. He loved to hide behind humour.
When Raman and Ishita were in the process of falling in love, he said something, and acted upon something else. Or hid it from Ishita when he would try to help her. That was Raman. Except he couldn't hide who he really was from Ishita for long.
And Ishita fell in love with the broken battered man that wasn't good enough for another.
She exploited cracks in his walls.
I think she seeped into his very existence, and never left.
You all know how I've interpreted his actions. As a puzzle. We got pieces here and there of what Raman truly felt after the leap.
And now the puzzle has been drawn together.
The man is being driven to madness. After fighting his own feelings, after shielding his heart from the heartbreak of losing Ishita all over again, to then getting her back for good, to then losing her again.
In this track, at the very least, what has been proven is that Raman's true love, is Ishita. The only woman in the world that had the ability to drive him to madness.
And that's what I take from all this. It makes sense to me. She seeped into his very soul, and no matter what he does, she won't leave. He won't let her leave.
The proposal to Shagun was self destruction. That marriage was a sham before. It would just be the very same sham, only this time Raman knows what actual, heart ripping, soul consuming love is. It made sense to me, because Raman was ending his life there and then.
And it all fits together now. When he's dying every second reliving the moment he lost Ishita seven years ago. Hell bent on not letting her get away again. His sheer panic, his confession that he'll go crazy without her now.
Raman has post leap had this journey that I think people slightly misinterpreted. Raman is sensitive. Incredibly, childishly sensitive. And talking from experience, when you are that sensitive,and you feel like someone hurt you, you focus on that. Raman felt Ishita walked away. He got caught up in it. The sheer grief of her not coming back to him. He doesn't focus on her. All he can see in his red mist is the woman he loved more than anyone else ever, left.
And still you get these tiny moments where he can't deny she's still his everything. Where he melts for moments and then continues to spew sheer nonsense.
And then they come together for Ruhi, as they say. The irony being they want it for themselves, but clouds of misunderstanding keep them apart.
And they have these moments where they keep forgetting the reality of their situation.
And now that Raman had had the taste of having her back, he's being driven to madness at the idea that this time, he won't have a second chance.
There is some justice in this track therefore. We can see Shagun was a ploy clearly, because Raman is literally dying every minute Ishita isn't found. We can see he's realising 7 years ago catastrophe struck because of his words as well as her actions. He tells Adi, say sorry, don't leave it late, she may not come back.
For me, the puzzle that Ishita solved when they fell in love, she solved again by disappearing this time.
As toxic as Raman and Ishita are, as impulsive as Raman is, and as self sacrificing as Ishita is, these two very imperfect people fell in love despite themselves. And Raman's transition from sheer anger to sheer pain at the thought of losing Ishita has at the very least demonstrated, Raman ka pyar, asli, true, real, raw love, is madness.
And this madness is only for one Ishita Bhalla.
Kabhi Neem Neem Kabhi Shahad Shahad
