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Hey YHMians...
I'm back... Yup... I caught up with a few episodes and couldn't help but write this down... This post is dedicated to some special ppl... They are the ones who have encouraged me & inspired me to write more...
So without wasting time... Here is the story..
I'll Wait...
I have everything I had stopped dreaming of. My both daughters, my son, my family and peace. Yet, I lack happiness. Because the woman who gave me my life back has left me forever... Again.
How could she?
You drove her away!
No... I told her- or should I say begged her to stay. To not abandon me... Again.
She had no reason to... She hates you... You made her feel worthless for 7 years.
She risked my daughter! MY DAUGHTER!!
And HER daughter too... She wasn't celebrating Ruhi's death. She spent 7 years in guilt and pain...
She was with Abhimanyu!!
Away from her own family. Away from home. And you did that to her. You lived with Shagun, almost re-married her. You broke her to such extent that she thinks that she is Bad Luck for you...
I didn't mean to say that... And it was years back. I was in grief... She should have waited for me to recover...
You left her alone to fend for her self... Ruhi was her daughter more than she was yours... She was grieving too...
"Papa!!" Ruhi and Pihu screamed to get my attention from my inner monologue.
"Yeah?"
"Why didn't Mumma stay? Is she angry with me? She doesn't love me? She said she was not my Mumma... Did I do anything wrong??"
"No Pihu, she is not angry with you... She loves you, but it's time for you to meet your real Mumma... Your Mumma by blood." Ruhi said to console her shattered younger sister.
Shagun had shifted to her flat after Ruhi insulted her as she was still healing from her still fresh wounds. Shagun decided that it was time up now. Pihu should know how she is related to Ishita Bha.. Iyer.
Yeah, she refused to keep my name. She definitely hates me. I have given her a reason to, or rather say Reasons to. Instead of embracing her on her return, I pushed her away.
"Who is my real mother? Isn't Mumma my real Mumma?" Pihu asks again, panick and curiosity printed on her face, her expression pulls me out from my thoughts.
"No. She is your Mumma. But not by blood. By love. Your real Mumma is mad at me, she refuses to meet me or any of us. But she will come back soon. She won't be able to stay away from you, Didi & Bhaiya."
"Why is she mad at you, Papa? Did you scold her? Like you scold Aadi Bhaiya when he messes up? "
Her innocent question sends me on a guilt trip making me regret every word I said to Ishita. Now and in the past. Her tear stained face & heartbroken look haunts my mind.
"Yes. I was crule and rude to her. I made her cry, a lot."
"Don't worry Papa, I will help you patch up with Real Mumma, Just like Parvati helped her mother-in-law patch up with her husband." Pihu said giggling, as she pulled Ruhi out of the room.
Only if she knew that real life was much more complicated than her Television Soaps.
He wanted His Ishita back. But she was back there in Australia. With Mani and his daughter. Whom she now called her own daughter.
He had to do something soon. He had over heard a conversation between the Iyers before she left for Australia. They were pushing & trying to convince her to marry that Mani aka Abhimanyu. Stating that she wasn't growing any younger and that she would need a support in her old age. She said she would consider their thoughts.
She said that to shut them up.
Didn't she? She will never marry him?
Right?
She loves me?
Damn it! Why do sound like questions and not facts. She has to come back. She won't marry that Mani...! My heart contracts painfully as I remember my last conversation with Ishita, before she left for her flight.
**Flashback**
"Please don't leave, Ishita. I need you. The kids need you. Our families need you." I begged her, as she stood there waiting for Abhimanyu to pick her up as they were leaving for the airport.
She stood silently in the foyer as both the families gathered around us. Her deep hatred kept her from speaking a single word.
"Say something. Please. Ishima, Papa is asking you to stay. Please don't go." Aadi tried to convince her as Ruhi sobbed, not wanting her Ishima to leave.
"Over my dead body. My daughter will never step into your house..!! I would prefer her to stay at my house for rest of her life, but never at yours! The last time she left your house, we heard the news of her death. Why are you hell bent on killing my daughter? Haven't you all had enough? She has shed enough tears since the day she married you, Raman! I'm ready to fold my hands and fall at your feet, but please, let my daughter live in peace! With the man who actually takes good care of her... That is Abhimanyu!! A mother, is begging you to leave her daughter alone...!!" Amma's voice cracks as she breaks down.
Her words break my heart. Ishita admonishes her mother as she wipes her tears.
"Raman, please go. You are stressing my mother. Aren't you happy now? I'm leaving. That's what you wanted me to do, right? You are free to marry Shagun. I'm happy for you. Her sacrifices will not go waste. She is your first and probably your only love. Go ahead. But please stop harassing my family. Please remember my sister is now the youngest daughter-in-law of your house." Ishita says as she continues to shed silent tears.
My heart aches as I realize that she doesn't believe in my love for her, anymore. My mind goes blank as I remember the time we spent together. Our marriage, fights, anniversaries, love confessions, tears we shed together.
"My loyalty lies towards Mani, he was there for me when I was all alone. He was on wheelchair for 7 years. Had to go through multiple surgeries. Do you know why? Because he tried to save my life when I jumped off the cliff. He lost his legs. His company was under huge losses, because the head of the company had lost his potential to be actively present in the functioning. He gave me a shelter to live under. He provided me with protection and emotional security. He gave me a family of my own. Even when I was a nobody to him. He might not be my husband and will never be. But he performed all the duties that my husband failed to. You left, I didn't. You had a choice, I didn't. You made decisions, I wasn't happy with. Was Ruhi nothing to me? Wasn't I important? Was our relationship so weak that it couldn't even stand the first blow thrown at it? I'm leaving for good. You were clearly not happy to see me again. I wasn't willing to come back. It's the best decision for either of us. I don't hate you, Raman. I envy you. My daughter by blood doesn't know me, my other daughter by love, hates to look at my face. My son does love me, but somehow, it's not enough."
Aaliya and Abhimanyu were standing at the threshold waiting for her when she wheeled her bag and ran past them, sobbing and wiping off tears. Aaliya followed her to the car as she waited for Abhimanyu.
"Raman, have patience. She will come back soon." said Abhimanyu.
"She hates me. She won't even look at my face."
"She will. She said she doesn't hate you, but she didn't say she doesn't love you. I have seen her crying and waiting for you to come around. She has lost patience. But she hasn't lost faith in you. She needs to calm her fretting heart. Give her some time."
"Aren't seven years enough?"
"No. Especially since you gave her new wounds to deal with, when she returned."
Those words shut me up. And I turned to leave.
"As much as I despise you for hurting Ishu so much, I also know that she only loves you, and wants to be with you. I'll do anything and everything in my power to give her whatever she wants." with that he turned to leave. Waving goodbye to the rest of the family.
**Flashback ends**
Aadi sits across me, and stares at my face. Few moments pass. Minutes. Or hours? I don't know. When he finally opens up, it breaks my broken heart even more.
"I hated you. Because I thought you hurt my mother. But, as I grew up, I realized that my mother cheated on you. It was difficult, but I still love her. She gave birth to me. But, that was it. She never loved me, until she realized her mistakes later on. But by then, I had found a mother in Ishima. But this time my hatred is for you is real. You have really hurt my mother."
"I didn't mean to... " but Aadi cut me off before I could complete my words.
"If you fail to get me, my mother, I will never forgive you... I will leave this house and go to her." he said and stormed out of the room.
His words brought a smile on my face. Ishita was so right! I would lose my son soon, if I don't change my ways. But somehow, it still amazes me that my own blood is more loyal to its stepmother and not me or Shagun.
I'm distracted by a message from... Abhimanyu? What does he have to say now?
"Your chance is knocking at your door... Let it in and do the right thing. I might be kind hearted but I'm not as selfless as I seem. If you miss or mess up this chance, I will go for mine. And when I will, she will not hesitate to say YES."
I didn't understand a word!! Is this man drunk? In broad daylight?? Isn't he supposed to be on flight?
My questions are answered when my secretary and Mihir show up in my room.
"Sir, the Australian company you were interested to take over, IshRa cold drinks, has finally accepted our proposition. But on a condition that the owner should be an equal partner in profits and losses, and that he should be accommodated with a flat in this very same building. He will be shifting tomorrow noon, with his daughter and a family FRIEND, for the next 2 months."
A ray of hope bursts through my heart as my face is taken over by a huge smile, making me thank that Mani-Shani, over and over again.
Ishita!
My Ishita!
I will win you! Your heart belongs to me!! And I'm going to claim it again.
This time it will begin with HUMARE LIYE not Ruhi Ke Liye...
Till then I'll Wait...
Little do you know
How I'm breaking while you fall asleep
Little do you know
I'm still haunted by the memories
Little do you know
I'm trying to pick myself up piece by piece
Little do you know
I need a little more time
Underneath it all I'm held captive by the hole inside
I've been holding back for the fear that you might change your mind
I'm ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight
Little do you know
I need a little more time
I'll wait, I'll wait
I love you like you've never felt the pain,
I'll wait
I promise you don't have to be afraid,
I'll wait
The love is here and here to stay
So lay your head on me
Little do you know
I know you're hurting while I'm sound asleep
Little do you know
All my mistakes are slowly drowning me
Little do you know
I'm trying to make it better piece by piece
Little do you know
I, I love you 'til the sun dies
Oh wait, just wait
I love you like I've never felt the pain,
Just wait
I love you like I've never been afraid,
Just wait
Our love is here and here to stay
So lay your head on me
I'll wait (I'll wait), I'll wait (I'll wait)
I love you like you've never felt the pain,
I'll wait (I'll wait)
I promise you don't have to be afraid,
I'll wait
The love is here and here to stay
So lay your head on me
Lay your head on me
So lay your head on me
'Cause little do you know
I, I love you 'til the sun dies
How I'm breaking while you fall asleep
Little do you know
I'm still haunted by the memories
Little do you know
I'm trying to pick myself up piece by piece
Little do you know
I need a little more time
Underneath it all I'm held captive by the hole inside
I've been holding back for the fear that you might change your mind
I'm ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight
Little do you know
I need a little more time
I'll wait, I'll wait
I love you like you've never felt the pain,
I'll wait
I promise you don't have to be afraid,
I'll wait
The love is here and here to stay
So lay your head on me
Little do you know
I know you're hurting while I'm sound asleep
Little do you know
All my mistakes are slowly drowning me
Little do you know
I'm trying to make it better piece by piece
Little do you know
I, I love you 'til the sun dies
Oh wait, just wait
I love you like I've never felt the pain,
Just wait
I love you like I've never been afraid,
Just wait
Our love is here and here to stay
So lay your head on me
I'll wait (I'll wait), I'll wait (I'll wait)
I love you like you've never felt the pain,
I'll wait (I'll wait)
I promise you don't have to be afraid,
I'll wait
The love is here and here to stay
So lay your head on me
Lay your head on me
So lay your head on me
'Cause little do you know
I, I love you 'til the sun dies
----THE END----
I found this amazing song perfect for the situation. I can actually feel the lyrics it's called Little Do You Know by Alex and Sierra.
I'm sorry, if anyone is unhappy with the storyline of this One Shot. I'm really frustrated with the CVs as they keep murdering Ishita's self-respect and self-esteem. I personally think this time Ishita needs to be wooed and pampered rather than portrayed like a desperate woman who is dying for her husband. She is an independent woman, and she needs to be loved and cared by her husband.
P. S. - Criticism is welcomed. I would love to know different POVs.
A big Thanks to maduragymhasium (aka Lakshmi). You are the reason I am back on this forum. I remember you sent me a PM saying that I'm always welcome back here and that I shouldn't stop writing. So, this one is dedicated to you.
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