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Chapter 3
Ishita's POV
"Nahi" I replied with all my shattered strength.
(No!)
"Pardon!" he said in reflex.
She gulped the big lump formed in her throat as she looked down in an attempt to hide her tears.
"Main aapke jazbaaton ki kadar karti hoon... lekin abhi jo kuch aapne kaha who mumkin nahi hai" I said in a single breathe.
(I completely respect your feelings... but whatever you just said is not possible)
He immediately stood up, shock still visible on his face. She tried looking in his direction but it broke her heart into million pieces. So she looked away.
"Lekin kyu?" he finally spoke up after a long deafening silence.
(But why?!)
"Iss sawal ka jawab dena main zaroori nahi samjhti !" I replied in a tone devoid of any emotions.
(I don't find it necessary to answer this question!)
"Zaroori nahi samajhti ka kya matlab? Tumhe batana padega!" he demanded as he pulled her closer. She could see the little tears forming in the corner of his eyes.
(What do you mean by that? You have to tell me)
Raman's POV
He felt as if someone soaked the life out of him when she said those words.
Nahi?! main galat sun raha hoon yaa yeh he uska jawab hai..?!
Mere sunne mein he koi galti hai..!
Yeh nahi ho sakta !
(No... is it me who heard it wrong or that's her answer..?!
I am sure I have heard it wrong..
This cant be true..)
He struggled with his thoughts.
"Lekin kyu?" I finally spoke up.
(But why?)
"Iss sawal ka jawab dena main zaroori nahi samjhti !" she replied.
(I don't find it necessary to answer this question!)
This reply broke him.
What the hell does she mean by that ?
"Zaroori nahi samajhti ka kya matlab? Tumhe batana padega!" I demanded as I pulled her closer.
(What do you mean by that? You have to tell me)
She kept looking at him silently.
"Kuch toh bolo Ishita ! Ek dum kya ho gaya?" I said, a bit softer this time.
(Say something Ishita... please..! What happened all of a sudden?)
"Ek dum se kuch nahi hua sir... in fact kuch tha he nahi... aap ko he koi galatfehmi hui! " she replied.
(None of this happened all of a sudden sir... in fact there was nothing that could happen.. you misjudged things and misunderstood)
Galatfehmi?! he shocked to even respond. He totally went numb, as he let her free from his hold.
(Misunderstandings?!)
He moved his hand through his hairs as he tried to comprehend the last few mins... a lone tear escaped his eyes. But he regained his compose soon after.
"Meri kuch samajh nahi aa raha ki tum kya bol rahi ho! Galatfehmi?!" I replied, in a breaking voice.
(I.. I just cant understand what are you saying... ! Misunderstood?!)
"Dekhein sir, main nahi janti aapne meri kis baat se yeh matlab nikala but honestly, maine kabhi aapko uss nazar se nahi dekha !" she said.
(Look sir, I don't know which act of mine made you think that I am interested in you but honestly, I never saw that way)
He kept looking at her with blank face.
Har ehsaas zubaan pe aaye yeh zaroori toh nahi... kuch baatien sirf mehsoos ki jaati hai... aur maine unhe mehsoos kiya hai Ishita! he wanted to tell her but feared a reply which would break him to an extent from which it would be difficult for him to pull himself together.
(It is not necessary for every emotion to become words.. few things are meant to be felt.. and I have felt them !)
"Aap ek bahout achhe insaan hai... aur mereko pura yakeen hai ki aapko mere se ek bahout behtar saathi milega!" she added.
(You are a good person... and you deserve someone better than me at least..! )
Mujhe sirf tumhari zaroorat hai Ishita!
(I need you Ishita)
"Abb mujhe chalna chahiye...! Bye!" she said as she turned around to leave. He couldn't believe his ears. Everything which seemed to be so perfect has turned into biggest nightmare of his life.
(I think I should leave now! Bye..)
He wouldn't have been so hurt if she had just rejected the proposal... what was hurting him was her words...!
He collapsed on his knees as the dam of his tears broke down.
Ishita's POV
Mujhe maaf karde Raman... lekin yakeen maniye mera pass aur koi raasta nahi bacha tha... main apko taqleef pauchane ke bare mein soch bhi nahi sakti lekin main majboor hu...
Mere ko aapki mohabbat pe shak nahi hai... aitbaar nahi hai toh apni kismet pe !
Apni zindagi mein itna sab kuch khone ke baad mere andar itni taqat nahi hai ki main aapko kho paun...
Mujhe maaf kardein...!!
(Forgive me Raman... but trust me I had no other option left... I cant imagine to hurt you even in my dreams... but I am helpless.. I can never doubt your love but I don't trust my destiny... after losing my everything... I cant lose you.. I am not that strong !
Forgive me if you can!)
Tears rolled down her cheeks as cried herself to sleep.
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Edited by pcnsb - 9 years ago
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