15.9.15 - Miscarriage, Loss, and Ishita's STUPEFYING reaction :(

It is nothing but cruel to air the PROMO OF THE SURROGACY track a few minutes before airing the actual episode😡

Hi Akanksha,

















They have never explored Ishita emotions in this track I want a big fight about the surrogacy shit and finally Ishita exposing her vulnerable side to Raman like the when she did during the adoption process I want to see her emotions regarding the baanj tag associated with here because they have shown she has accepted that tag but never shown how it hurts her hope CV shows these kinds of emotions. I Know I am fool to keep these kinds of hope but what to do the world revolves because of hope.

Originally posted by: gravity23

It is nothing but cruel to air the PROMO OF THE SURROGACY track a few minutes before airing the actual episode😡

Tell me about it! Been in a frenzy since last morning

so its true then! All our protests, warnings, emails, had zero effect on EK and her subordinates in crime😡 Our Twitter handles bursting at lakhs and lakhs of oft-repeated 'trendy' messages now seem like a joke..since clearly the CVs do not care two hoots about their audience.

Chances are you're right. But there are also counter theories running amok, that say Shagun will ultimately not become the surrogate. But Raman, by then, would have been butchered very badly

I have been seething since the time I watched the episode, and I was in half a mind to not write today's review. However, if my days of watching YHM are indeed numbered from hereon, I might as well review whatever little good is left in it before I waste anymore time on it in the future.😲

The precap had already shown a faint glimpse of what was to come. The minute Ishita wakes up, she seems to be in a daze..her hand automatically touching her stomach, as if trying to understand if it really felt void inside...she asked her nurse, "Kahan hai woh?" I assumed it meant, the baby..The nurse lowered her eyes and murmured hesitantly, "Sorry...hum use bacha nai paaye"...and with that, she broke into tears, the pain hitting her first like a shock...and then, deepening more as the gash spread deeper...as she let the news sink in. And then with an overpowering sense of hopelessness and absolute terror washing over her, she looked helter-skelter...trying to find her answers...

I was confused...coz I didn't understand why she was looking everywhere else but herself, her tummy...and with a frustration furiously building inside her, she punched her fists in the air, threw off the blankets and made a dash outside the ward...screaming for Raman...

I was scared. It was a powerful, violent reaction..but then when Raman and the others came to her and tried to console her (by now she was visibly harrowed and looked maddeningly shattered😕)...

Ishita before the realization was amazing! Her fear, her pain, she was shaking while running. And when she saw Raman, she clutched his kurta and questioned how could it be possible. DT's powerful hold on emotional scenes once again proven 👏 👏 👏

I am sure everybody was guessing she was reacting that way about the baby...but no, she was worried Adi and Ruhi had met with a horrible fate. She instantly feared her kids dead. And that is what sent panic waves through her...

This became quite clear when she heaved a sigh of relief, and gratitude ...once Ruhi came in front of her...she hugged her daughter hard, gratefully crying into her tiny shoulders...next, she hugs Adi...and then pulling both the kids into a tight embrace, she says that she is very happy that they are fine. That nothing has happened to them. She was wondering how the nurse could say that she could not save them. Raman clarified - woh hamare hone wale bacche ki baat kar rahi hai.

How do I feel? Nice...of course..I am overwhelmed that Ishita thought about the kids first...and was more worried for Adi and Ruhi than her unborn baby. Its amazing that she loved the kids as if she were their biological mother too, and this shows how genuine and deep her affection for them is. Naturally, Ruhi is the one who made her FEEL like a mother in the first place, so without an actual umbilical cord BINDING them, its the heart and the emotions that are attached with Ruhi. She will forever be Ishita's angel. And then came Adi who simply RE-INSTATED this fact for her. So now she is doubly happy. Truth be told, she stopped EXPECTING wanting to be a mother the traditional way...or even TRYING out for it...since she felt her life was complete with Adi and Ruhi.

I felt it was a great moment to witness. She genuinely considers Ruhi & Adi before her own child, and was obviously harrowed at the thought of losing either of them. That's how a mother is!

But does that mean she shouldn't feel a thing for the personal loss SHE has faced? For the first time, I am not sure which side of the fence I am on. I feel slightly weird inside, that a 'barren woman' as her, who miraculously conceive, could be so casual about it, like it was a figment of imagination.

I am not a sucker for melodramatic tear-jerker scenes or anything like that, but I at least expected some semblance of REALISM in a character😲...and here, Ishita is playing the role of a woman who has time and again been taunted for her inability to conceive and become a mother ...a blemish on her person which probably has defined her for SO much of her life since Subbu left her...even though she did not exactly attach TOO MANY HOPES on this unborn baby, would it be wrong to suppose that she did not have the SLIGHTEST hope or memory associated with it? If not, then her reactions at being declared pregnant stand negated, as do the many times she has felt belittled and unworthy when society looked down upon her.

If yes, then WHERE WAS THE REACTION TODAY?

It is one thing to say - you dont want to discuss it right now, or you want time alone. Or you will be fine. Or whatever. But when Ishita stated that its fine, and she was sorry the baby could not be saved...she was sorry for letting down everybody's expectations of HER...I felt severely LET DOWN.😔

Even earlier she had mentioned she was scared about the pressure mounting on her, and she took it more to be Ruhi's demand for a baby bro/sis and her sasuraal's expectations of a waaris or something, but not so much a PRODUCT of her intense desire to be a mother to a tiny life, a wish granted. It astounds me. Certainly, Ruhi and Adi and Raman complete her family...she has got more than what she asked for. But then, does that mean it didn't affect her that she suffered a miscarriage?? That she lost out on a miracle? After trying so hard?

This seems to me to be very very unnatural, and I have NO idea why the CVs have sketched her character in this unreal way.

I share the exact sentiment, Aka. It was very touching, seeing her so concerned and scared, so emotional about Adi & Ruhi. But when it came to her unborn child, she did not even showcase 1/5th of the emotions. And it couldn't be DT's fault because we know about her prowess in emotional scenes. Why the shoddy writing? They wanted to show that she's selfless, and feels complete with Adi-Ruhi as her children, and relieved that the entire family is safe. I get it, but not one moment of grief for a life that was taking shape inside of her until a few hours ago? It became so unreal for me to watch. Being a female, I have NEVER felt disconnected with Ishita, until yesterday. Infertile or not, there was a baby housed inside her womb, her miracle baby as she called it once. Wouldn't she spare one lone tear at knowing that it is no more?

When Raman told her they're talking about their unborn child which could not be saved, she froze for a fraction of a second there while hugging Adi, and then walked towards him. I thought maybe she'll look into his eyes, or hug him briefly, and THEN utter the words that they don't need any more babies, and she's fine, and they're a complete family. But her reaction felt so unnatural.

The next morning Toshi talks to Romi and Sarika and tells them not to utter a single word regarding the 'incident' in front of Ishita, and to make sure she felt comfortable...she did not need to. Ishita arrived with a faint smile on her face...and hugged Toshi, and said she was extremely hungry and wanted to gorge on some good food. Yes, some people might say that she did not want to express her real feelings because she did not want to upset the others anymore. Agreed.

But then we could have seen a side of her in PRIVATE at least. When she was in the bedroom, arranging the ironed clothes in the cupboard, she comes across the special Rakhi Ruhi had tied around her waist a few days ago...she picks it up gingerly and thinks back to Raksha Bandhan day...how excited and happy Ruhi had looked. It unnerves me that she took a moment out of her 'normal behaviour' to feel mildly sad...and nostalgic...thinking about Ruhi and her expectations of the baby...it was very shocking...😲 She thought about how happy Raman was, what a doting husband he was to her...how much care he took of her during those few days...but not ONCE did she think about how SHE felt after coming so far from those days of being judged, ridiculed and shunned. This seems to me like a really weird reaction.

I am sorry, but this makes me feel she HERSELF did not feel anything for her baby...it was just Raman, Ruhi and the parivaar wale's hopes she had dashed. It looked like she was doing it not for herself, but for others. And that totally negates the history she has buried in a deep, traumatic past.😕

And now that I think of how CASUALLY she took herself, and her husband's words, the doctor's cautionary advice...and ventured out for the silliest of reasons...I feel she never really LIVED this experience, no matter how short it was. Had she really experienced the motions of being pregnant, it would have hurt more than she is letting on now😲

Poor Raman...I feel HE is more shattered and traumatised than Ishita...from the time she has stepped foot inside Bhalla House, he has been keenly observing her. Trying to catch at something, ANYTHING that might give her away. And he found NONE. Nothing. On the contrary, when he caught hold of her in the bedroom and tried to confront her, she very calmly explained that it wasn't the end of the road for her...not begetting her own child didn't put an end to her happiness...she has HIM..and the kids...she wanted nothing else from life. "I am a compete woman," she emphatically stated.

And while its impressive that she doesn't go by the society's mores of being a 'complete woman'...it TOTALLY looks at odds with the reaction she had the day Manoj confirmed she was pregnant. It looks so insincere. Either THAT was fake, or this is fake. It cant be both. The expression she had on that day was something I had written about extensively in an earlier post (dt -1.9.15) :

"For a woman branded as a barren woman by the society at large, and to have crossed that hurdle (however the same may have come to happen in the first place) is nothing short of miracle. This is the moment we ALL had been waiting for...the first flush of happiness, disbelief, JOY and absolute BLISS on Ishita's face...the feeling of carrying a tiny life inside her womb...the nanoseconds slipping by like hours as the feeling sunk in...its all too emotional..and rightfully so. For a few moments I was carried away by the impact of THAT ONE MOMENT - the moment when Ishita broke down in joy...releasing her pent-up tears...her insecurities...frustrations...recalling each and every person around her and their reactions to her situation.

he first in line was Ruhi's blessings on her during Mata ki Chowki, then Subbu's mom calling her a baanjh and saying Ishita had no option in life...Shagun taunting her a few days ago saying she couldn't ever be a mother, but could definitely be an Aaya...Raman standing by her side and giving her hope that there were chances she COULD be one...Ruhi telling Shravu that her Ishima will give her a chhota baby...All of it - the fear, anxiety, hope, hurt, retribution, vindication, EVERYTHING came crashing down. "

Now what does TODAY'S reaction of hers say about her mental state? Isn't this confusing?!!I find it WEIRD and damn unnatural as hell! I am not saying Ishita had to pull a Meena Kumari or something or the sort, but aren't miscarriages heartbreaking and don't they somehow (even if in a mild way) dampen a woman's spirits and wrap her in a sense of loss? And shouldn't it be that much more harder for a woman termed as a 'barren one'?? Its one thing to grieve in private, withdraw, make peace with the tragedy and move on...its another being Okay and cool from the start itself😕 That is primarily what I have an issue with. The absolute artificiality of it all.

Even if I take it in a way that she did not want to break down in front of him or their family and kids in the hospital, and was pretending to be strong, but when she was alone and remembering all those happy baby moments, there was disappointment on her face, but nothing strong that reflected her suffering a miscarriage. A lot of people will hate me, and you, for saying this in the way we are, but I am with you on this.

Raman and Ishita even had a bit of teasing around...a quick romance...which I'm in NO MOOD to discuss...since Ishita is acting MORE THAN A SUPERWOMAN and surrogacy track has been confirmed...Heck! I dont understand...I was looking forward to a HEART-TO-HEART between the leads...not this skirting around the issues and acting all nonchalant...Raman still LOOKS pained. The aggravating part is - Ishita looks TOO okay for my tastes

2 minute ka ek bhi scene hota na between Raman & Ishita, talking it out about this mishap, toh... It seems like they're in two different worlds. He's grieving over the loss of his unborn child, and she is disappointed that something they tried didn't work out, but koi nai. And his grief, his guilt is understandable, but not to the extent that he'll put surrogacy as their immediate next option. Arre! Abhi miscarriage hua hai, give yourself and your wife some time to heal emotionally and physically. In his all-consuming guilt, he's forgetting the primary reason for him wanting to get her pregnant - to experience motherhood in all entirely. Sirf ek baby aane se kya usse voh experience milega, if its born through a surrogate?

What's worse is - Raman takes it to be HIS fault for not being able to protect his wife and his child in the nick of time...he is feeling guilty and tormented inside...it seems every waking minute of his has been consumed with trying to find SOME WAY of making it alright for his wife...so much so, that he bares his soul to Mihika who finds him sitting tensed and downcast in the lobby...saying Ishita lost the baby coz of him. Mihika made him understand that marriage is between equals...when the freak accident happened, he was doing his bit, Ishita was doing hers...so there's nothing to blame himself for.

And while I am touched by HOW MUCH Raman cares for his wife, and wants to make things alright for her, I dont like or agree with the desperate measures (read: surrogacy) he will resort to in the near future to "gift Ishita her dream"...especially since Ishita doesn't look particularly devastated or empty or vacant or anything of that sort.

It now seems to me she never was INTERESTED in having a baby of her own, WITH Raman ...after she found a loving refuge in Ruhi, and now Adi. The other day she assured Adi that even with the arrival of the new baby, his place and Ruhi's in her life would never diminish. So going by that logic, that she is capable of loving them all equally, shouldn't this loss have affected her? She seems so CASUAL. Like she just woke up after a bout of typhoid or something😲 She definitely does not seem like the same woman we watched and loved since Dec 2013😔 She loves Raman madly and one good chance of having a THEIR baby is now crushed. And it doesn't bother her.

Sorry. Am unable to digest the way the track is proceeding😕 Me too!

The whole premise of YHM seems so insincere now...it makes Ishita appear flaky, indecisive and unstable, Raman looks desperate and pushy, Ruhi looks pesky and bratty...and in the midst of such shitty execution of APPLAUSE-WORTHY TRACKS, HOW will the CVs be able to somehow insert and justify the surrogacy track? Yes, its happening - the promos are out...so there's no denying that. But then what happens?? @underlined - Couldn't have said it any better 👏 👏

What do I say? I am deeply disappointed with the character sketch of Ishita Bhalla ...deeply dread the mannerism in which that of Raman Bhalla will be lined up on the butchering block soon.😔

P.S. On a lighter note, Rinki seems to be up to something fishy...she told Toshi she was going out for dinner with Mihika...I dont think its the case...she has been meeting someone in Mihir's absence. Or doing something which she prolly shouldn't be.

P.S. It was quite strange not to see Vandu or Bala even HEAR of the Bhallas's tragedy. Gayab??😎

Seems tomorrow Manoj will discuss the prospects of surrogacy with Raman...the audience be damned...we are utter FOOLS for having trusted the CVs not to go ahead with it.😡 Ek toh Manoj ko degree kisne di! Which doctor directly jumps to surrogacy? And that too immediately after a miscarriage? 😡

Originally posted by: mayasundar

Hi Akanksha,

Nice review.

I am at work so haven't watched the episode. I am thinking whether to watch or try to distance myself from YHM.

If I watch I will update it later

From your review I understood Ishita didn't show any emotions is it because she didn't care about the baby or she knows Raman is more emotional so is she thinking she has to be the strong person to weather the crisis

Beautifully written Akanksha! I am yet to watch the episode, but you brought it in front of my eyes :).

Originally posted by: chapsi23

Beautifully written Akanksha! I am yet to watch the episode, but you brought it in front of my eyes :).

Yes, I would have expected Ishitha to react too. However I think she had so much at stake. She was about to lose everything - Raman, ruhi, Adi, her unborn child and herself.

I think she knew before jumping itself that she will not be able to save the unborn one. That is probably why she was holding her tummy the whole time (before jumping from the bus). A mother knows deep down the health of her child.

So I think she expected that her unborn child was no more. All that was left was Adi and Ruhi. so the fact that she felt they were dead too was shocking to her. That is probably why she reacted that way.

That said, I would expect her to cry her heart out during a private moment at home.

Originally posted by: Savz_Startling

<font color="#330066">i copy paste my post which i wrote on other thread.nice acting by dt n other actors.based on dis episode wat they shown seems cvs want to portray ishra as selfless, logic in their own way which is a well known fact lol .as they are soap leads as they portrayed earlier ishra so selfless n thinking about family members when whole bhalla family mued them when they were seperated like tat by ishita going mad of thinking she lost ruhi,adi n just upset about her own child n feeling bad for raman n to kids n to whole bhalla family n consoling them n apologising them about unborn baby lost.raman feeling guilty n feeling bad for not able to save unborn baby for ishita happiness n for her sake ofc he feels upset but feels more bad for ishita than himself.seems cvs dropped a hint by mihika dialogue to raman tat their relationship is ideal n all lol.just both ishra trying to put other before their ownself n one can't see other in pain n dis time their selflessness is going to be btwn ishra n dis will create friction it seems for drama lol. lets see how cvs unfolds it as in soap anything is possible.</font>
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Of all the posts I've read today - yours strikes me the most. For all it is worth, Ishita & Raman are the most selfless people on the show. They both regularly sacrifice for their families & each other. They don't know how to be selfish but this has frequently put a strain on their relationship over the new year.

I hope this track puts a small amount of selfishness in either of them. It's asking a lot from CVs of their leads, especially the FL who is supposed to be this sacrificing, silently suffering, selfless woman per Indian TV standards. I want them to have a kid for themselves & no one else. It would be lovely to see them choose to spend time together like a couple.

For all the external idealism in their relationship - they still have so much to work on.

Ishita may be shown as a person who bottles emotions but she need to open up to her husband at least. Having physical relations doesn't make a couple complete...they should find solace in each other, not silently suffer in the other's behalf. She has regularly told him to not keep things from her & though these are emotions - she needs to reciprocate. Similarly Raman needs to stop drowning in guilt at the drop of a hat. Anytime he gets swept up in an emotion, he loses it.

This post is not to offend literally anybody but still to all those who r super pissed off n hyper after the episode n the latest promo...why is it that for every given situation either of Ishita or Raman's words or actions are to be classified strictly as right or wrong when I guess in real life majority of the situations are neither completely right nor completely wrong especially between a couple...We all saw how Raman,the father cried uncontrollably after hearing their loss and the husband in him dreading the moment Ishita comes to know about it...But he was in utter disbelief on seeing the most unexpected reaction from her...And she, not wanting to push her husband, kids n family to more grief, just faked a normalcy, which unfortunately turned to be the most abnormal behaviour from her in Raman's eyes...This fuelled his guilt in not being able to avert the situation by persuading Ishita to leave the driver's seat in the nick of time..So, he is literally turning insane on seeing his wife's plight and thinking of all the extreme possibilities to give her some happiness...Having said this I am also not happy with surrogacy but still I am confident on my above rant bcoz I do not jump the gun n break my head before I see how it shaped up n executed onscreen...A few days back with the speed bomb promo fans were bashing the Cv's for lifting the concept from Speed but when the episode aired 99% of them showered praises on the cast n crew for their execution n hard work...So,y jumping the gun time n again...If unhappy with the execution isn't it better to vent out frustration at that time...anyways just my POV...

I agree with everything that's been said but I have a feeling that she is feeling very sad and hurt about loosing her baby though not showing now but I think when the subject of SURROGACY comes out that is when she will get really emotional and all her pain and frustrations will come out showing her suffering all her life and finally everyone especially Raman will know exactly how she is really feeling!!!!!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!