Hello People. I am back with a Three Shot this time .This track deals with Ishita's hesitation and insecurities about taking that big step with Raman and how she tries to overcome the same. Many thanks to the people on this forum who initiated a discussion on how silly it was of Ishita to shoot off her mouth to Simran about the lack of intimacy in her own marital life and that ideally she should be taking some guidance from her own sister Vandita on this.I couldn't agree more with that and that's how this track took shape in my mind.
Index
Chapter 1- Pg.1
Chapter 2- Pg.2
Chapter 3- Pg.3
Chapter 4- Pg.10
Chapter 5- Pg.14
Chapter 6 & 7- Pg.20
The first chapter is basically Ishita's POV.
Chapter - 1
Her Amma's house was the only place where she could sit down , gather her thoughts and have a quiet moment.There were people all over Bhalla house. Apart from their visiting relatives , they also had neighbors and family friends coming over to help with Simmi's engagement prep and more importantly to have a gala time.
But no matter how much she tried , Ishita was finding it difficult to calm her mind. Her mind kept going back to the conversation that she just had with Simran , Raman's cousin Raj's wife. It all started with her teasing Simran about what had happened the previous night as Simran and Raj were a newly wed couple. But when Simran told her that nothing happened and asked her for some tips to overcome shyness , she was at a loss for words. There was no way she could tell Simran ,the truth of her relationship with Raman. She therefore managed to dish out some common place advice like "Don't rush it , take your time , it will happen naturally blah blah" and quickly changed the topic.
Up until now , she had been taking it rather cool thinking it would happen between her and Raman sooner or later. But seeing Simran's restlessness , she was forced to take stock of her own situation. Simran had been married only for 3 weeks now and she was already getting restless about the lack of action in her bedroom. And here she was, married for 1.5 years and still taking it cool?? But then there can't be an apple to apple comparison here. Her marriage to Raman was anything but normal. And she didn't belong to a generation that would jump into bed at the drop of a hat . She chided herself immediately for thinking like a 60 year old. She had been married for so long and still didn't jump into bed? She needed help to understand this and who better than her Vandu Akka who apart from being her sister ,best friend and confidant , was also happily married. She could have spoken to Bala jeeju too had it not involved physical intimacy.
She deciced to speak to Vandu Akka right away and dialled her number. Vandita's chirpy voice at the other end of the line lifted her mood instantly.
"Ishu !! Main tumhare bare main hi soch rahi thi.. Kya haal hai ?"
"Bohat bura haal hai Akka. But tell me first , aap ki tabiyat kaisi hai..koyi pareshani toh nahi haina?"
"I am absolutely fine Ishu... par yeh baat koyi Bala ko toh samjhaye. He has become a terror after that fall of mine. He doesn't let me go anywhere . I am stuck in this house all day and all night. And we have a house help cum caretaker for me now who comes in the morning and leaves only once Bala comes back from college.
"Yes..I know Jeeju had told me. He is a sweetheart. Aap ka kitna khayal rakte hai?"
"Tu toh apne Jeeju ke side hi legi.. abhi thode dino mein main wahi rahne aarahi hoon Amman ke paas. Toh phir in sabki kya zaroorat hai.. par tu yeh sab chod.. bata..tera haal bura kyun hai ? Phir se kuch hua kya ? Koyi naya problem ?
"No Akka, aisa kuch hua toh nahi hai. ..is baar shayad problem main khud hoon.. I don't know ..I need your help to understand something. Can I come over now ?"
"Haan..Aa jaao.. Pooch kyun rahi hai..waise mujhe bhi tujh se kuch baat karni hai..."
"Theek hai ..main paanch minute main nikal rahi hoo...chalo see you "
She called a cab as her leg had not completely healed and therefore she couldn't drive on her own. She informed Toshi that she had some urgent work and left soon after.
Sitting in the cab she thought about how she was going to initiate this discussion with her Akka. And more than that she worried about her Akka's reaction to it. Vandita was not the type who will just nod in agreement to everything you say, sympathize with you and then pamper your ego. She was one of those people who wouldn't shy away from calling a spade a spade. Honest . no-nonsense opinions are what one would get from her. Somewhere in her mind she knew she would have a lot of explaining to do for being stuck in this situation. She decided to do quick trip down her memory lane to line up her defenses.
To beging with ,she shouldn't even be counting the first few months of her marriage because she went through living hell during that period, Ruhi being the only bright spot in her life. It had taken a good 6 months for Raman and her to get comfortable with each other and start being cordial to each other. They had plenty of grouse against each other and misunderstandings and disagreements were the order of the day. Inspite , of all this they have managed to stand by each other at certain times surprising themselves.Their own realization about their feelings for each other started taking shape only after Raman's misunderstanding about her relationship with Mani was cleared. But they were far from confessing that to each other. This was followed by a series of disasters which was by now commonplace in their marriage and some of which almost left some deep scars on her.
The next real progress happened when she stopped Raman from running away to Singapore and dragged him back home from the airport. Weren't things supposed to move forward after that? But then they wasted away those precious days acting like stupid teenagers saying "You first , You first !'. And then disaster soon followed in the form of Shagun again followed by more disasters in the name of family issues interspersed with more misunderstanding between her and Raman. Then came what she would consider as the most darkest period in her life when she almost lost Ruhi to Shagun and had she lost Ruhi it would have created the biggest rift between her and Raman. In the middle of all this they have had their moments, had almost come close to doing it but eveytime something or the other would pull them apart. Between managing work and family and the problems of the world they failed to make further progress. Add to this her own insecurities about her inexperience and the baggage that comes with being treated as a reject ,it's a miracle that their marriage has survived and they have actually fallen in love with each other.There, now it doesn't look so bad , she thought to herself. She and Raman had their reasons for not being able to move forward. When the cab pulled into Vandita's apartment parking she was already feeling better. Little did she know that her Akka was going to giver her the biggest reality check of her life.
Thanks for reading .
PS: Yes I wrote this at the risk of sounding boring. But if you do like it , please do hit the like button and comment.
Next chapter would be Ishita'sheart-to-heart with Vandita and would be longish and in the final chapter hopefully we will see our Ishu swinging into action!!
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