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PART 8
I've got a picture of you tucked away
And whenever I miss you
When I need to see your face
I pull out your photograph
And I take a trip down memory lane
It doesn't take long
For my heart to reminisce
And I cry, but I try to smile
But it's you that I miss
And nothing or no one else is worth my while
So, I cry
I crawl into bed where you used to sleep
And I rest my head on the pillow
Where yours used to be
I close my eyes and imagine you there
Lying next to me
Gazing into my loving stare
It doesn't take long
For the memories to come back to me
And I cry, though I try not to
But it's you that I need
No space or time will change this simple truth
So, I cry
I tell myself to be strong
To finally let go
It's time for me to move on
To say one last goodbye
And I Cry
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Raman smiled and followed her when suddenly his eyes drifted towards a car coming in full speed. He became numb. Ishita happily turned around to see him numb and staring in other direction.
She followed his gaze and saw a car approaching her. Before she could have reacted the car hit her hard and she flung in air getting unconscious on the road with blood oozing out of her wounds.
"Ishitaaa..." raman shouted and ran towards her.
"Raman.." She breathed her last breath with his name.
Do Pal Rukaa Khwabon Kaa Kaarvaan
Aur Phir Chal Diyeh Tum Kahaan Hum Kahaan
Do Pal Ki Thi Yeh Dilon Ki Daastaan
Aur Phir Chal Diyeh Tum Kahaan Hum Kahaan
Aur Phir Chal Diyeh Tum Kahaan Hum Kahaan ... (2)
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Baatein ye kabhi na tu bhoolna Koi tere khatir hai jee raha
Ishita woke up feeling a lump in her throat. She was not able to breathe properly owing to the nightmare she had seen. Tears flowed away freely from her eyes when she remember the face of the person driving the car. In a very nano moment she had seen the shadow of their past...Shagun.
Ishita was even more scared to her wits when she remember Raman's face. She could not afford to risk her life. She pondered over Mani's words of keeping this baby safe from her. Ishita knew maybe she is taking everything too seriously..maybe shagun won't stoop so slow.
But to tell the truth...the nightmare had shaken her beliefs of letting anybody know about this baby...She wanted to keep this baby news undercover. After yearning for years, she had finally got what she had wished for. Just because she can't be a mother, she had lost a lot in her part, not that she regret any of it. If she did, she would have never met Raman and Ruhi.
But, if just because she can't be a mother she had suffered a lot...so if anybody comes to know about this baby and if she wasn't able to keep him safe...what will happen...everybody will leave her alone...Raman will never forgive her...Shagun will take her revenge from her baby...NO...she won't let this happen.
"Nahi...I won't let Shagun harm my baby...he is mine...all mine...i will take this baby away from everyone...shagun will not succeed this time...I will take care of my baby..alone...I don't need anybody...i don't need anyone."
Ishita was getting hysterical by each minute. Her sanity was long lost in the dark shadows of her nightmare. She was not thinking from her caring heart but the mind where a fear had been engraved of losing her baby.
Ishita got up in a moment, wiping her tears away, she took her bag and packed her clothes in all her panic state. She want to leave as soon as possible without letting anybody know. She was neither thinking nor acting sanely. Only one thing was there that kept ringing in her head...Shagun is after her baby...Shagun will harm her baby...Raman and Ruhi will not forgive her...This was enough reasons for triggering her mental condition to worst.
Jaaye tu kahin, bhi ye sochna Koi tere khatir hai jee raha
She was already very fragile owing her health conditions, but this mental state of shock was not doing any better to her. She completes her packing and took her bags and left Mani's house. She took a cab and left from there.
Mani had seen her sitting in the cab when he was in his driveway. He had called her many times but she never heard any of them. Mani had seen her carrying her bags with her. He was not understanding the meaning of this act. He turned his car in a jiffy and followed her cab getting angry on her such behaviour.
He had known her since their childhood and he knows when she becomes all vulnerable and high on emotions. He was getting tensed for her and was trying to catch up with the cab in possible ways.
Tu jahaan jaaye mehfooz ho Tu jahaan jaaye mehfooz ho Dil mera maange bas ye duaa
On the other side, Bala and Raman reached Mani's house. Raman hurriedly step out of the car and rang the bell eagerly waiting for someone to open up. He did this quite a times when no one opened. Bala touched the gate and realised that it was open and probably no one is inside.
He took his mobile and called Mani but never received an answer. Raman was so desperate that he didn't even paid any heed to Bala but entered the house shouting like maniac.
"Ishita...Ishita..."
Raman checked each and every room in that house but couldn't find her. He stopped in front of a room and felt her presence there. In no time he was there feeling a calmness spreading through his veins. He let his tears flow freely. He knew she was here ...she was indeed here.
Raman sat down on the bed feeling miserable of not being able to find her. His one mistake...just one mistake of not stopping her then cost him his life. How can he be so blind eye towards her. He felt guilty of not being able to handle every thing like she did. He felt like he had lost her!
She was stupid enough to let him go...but he was an idiot for not stopping her. But it was just one mistake...how can his Ishita punish him like he did a sin.?
Bala too come there and said " Raman...Ishita.."
Raman just turned to him and stared in his eyes.
Baatein ye kabhi na tu bhoolna Koi tere khatir hai jee raha
On the other hand, Mani was following Ishita all the way to the Airport. He didn't understand what she was up to. When they were going in evening then what got into her that she came there. But before he could have reached her, she entered the airport premises in a jiffy. Mani tried to follow when he was stopped by the guards for parking the car at wrong place. He tries to explain his point but they weren't letting him say anything.
Seeing Ishita already disappeared in the crowd, he sighed and went to park his car when he received Bala's call again. He thought of not attending it first but he knew he must have reached his home and would have called after not finding anybody there.
Jaaye tu kahin, bhi ye sochna Koi tere khatir hai jee raha
"Bala Anna..."
"Mani... what's all this...where are you...and Ishita...why she is not here..."
"Anna..please listen to me...when I returned home..I saw Ishita sitting in cab with her bags"
"What..what are you saying..where she went"
"Anna...till the time I reached and tried to stop...she already left...and we are at the airport...I am just going inside to find her..."
"Okay...we are coming too.."
"Anna..no need...I will take care of her...and let you know...you don't worry..."
And with that...Mani ended the call not wanting to probe the matter further. He just could not prepare himself to handover Ishita to Raman. He thinks that she will be more stressed out if she will return home.
He is indeed being selfish ...but only for her sake...He had always loved her since childhood...but couldn't express it. He doesn't want to lose his only friend. He never gave away any feelings towards her. But all he wanted was to see her happy...!
He rushed inside to see where she is...He had called her name many times but couldn't find her in the crowd. He was feeling scared for her. He knew her state of mind was not good and her health was doing no better. He was so tensed that he asked the Airport security to help him find her.
Reaching Airport in less than 15 minutes, Raman ran towards security checks to find her. He did not cared about the guards who were stopping him but left Bala to handle them alone. He was frantically looking here and there just to get a glimpse of her.
Humdard hai, humdum bhi hai Tu saath hai toh zindagi
When Bala told him that Ishita had left the house without letting anybody know, he was so scared for her. He can assume that something is happening with her which is not right. She is indeed hiding something from him which he should know. He ran towards Bala and said
"Bala...you know everything about Ishita..right?"
"Haan...Raman...but kyu?"
"Bala...Ishita is hiding something from me...Isn't it..? "
Bala's face wore no colors. He just couldn't let Raman know the truth or else situations can become more complicated. He didn't want Ishita to suffer a heartbreak or pain. So he decided to keep the little secret with himself for now.
"Raman...I don't think she is hiding anything...I think she is just too broken to face you and family. Moreover she thinks that you both are now divorced...only if she knew the truth." Bala said taking a sigh in the end for coming up with a convincing answer.
Though raman was still not convinced but he let it passed as finding Ishita was more important task in his hands. He looked everywhere possible but couldn't find her. He enquired at the check-in counter to know if she had already left or not.
He waited as the girl right behind the counter searched her data.
"Mam...did you find her...which flight she is boarding?"
"Sir, we apologize but we could not find any Mrs. Ishita Raman Bhalla in our records..."
"Please ...please...check again..."
Raman requested a lot after which she checked her records but didn't find anything.
Raman held his head of failing here and was turning around to leave but he heard the lady calling him which made him turned instinctively.
"But Sir, there is a lady named as Miss. Ishita Iyer.."
"Ahh..yes she is..she is my wife...Ishita...which...flight is she boarding...??"
Tu jo kabhi door rahe Ye humse ho jaaye ajnabi
Raman felt like smacking her head for addressing herself as Iyer's. He decided to get back on this later with her.. It was his last chance and he just want to find her as soon as possible.
"Sir, you have to make it fast, she is boarding New York flight which will leave in next 15 minutes..."
Raman thanked the lady for nth time and left with Bala on toes to reach her as soon as he can. He could not afford to lose her any how. And now when he knew she is here, why he will waste even a second. Every moment he felt like dying without her but he will not lose her..never..!
On the other side, Mani reached near the security gate where he saw Ishita, who was about to enter the gate. He sighed in relief and rushed towards her. Holding her hand, he pulled her back which made her shocked and looked at him in horror.
Mani thanked the guards for helping him and handling the matters in his hand he just take her out from there.
"Mani...Mani...just stop it...leave my hand.."
Mani didn't paid any heed to her pleas but took his mobile and called his driver
"Hello, haan...bring my stuff to the Delhi airport fast...yeah"
He turned around and saw Ishita getting red in anger. Before he could have said anything she said "What the hell Mani, how dare you...leave me alone...my flight..."
"Shut up Ishu...when I said that you will be coming with me to Australia..then why were you going to New York...that too without informing me...or anyone..."
Ishita didn't said anything but cried silently. She was wriggling to make Mani leave her hand.
"Ishu...stop ..I am not going to leave you..If anything have happened to you or baby..how can you be so selfish..."
"What do you think of yourself Mani...I said leave me...I have a flight to catch...and I don't need anyone...Nothing will happen to this baby...he is all mine...I will keep him safe and away from everyone..."
Mani looked at her in astonishment. He wasn't expecting this from her. He swallowed his anger and tried to instill some sense in her.
"Ishu...please listen to me...you don't have to be scared...we all are here for you...I didn't mean to keep you away from Raman or family...I just wanted to keep you away from stress for the time being..."
Ishita looked away feeling bad for not controlling her anger and lashing out on Abhimanyu. She really did not mean to act insane but the insecurities that had obscured her mind would not be so easy to handle.
"Mani...I ..I am sorry..I don't know what got into tme...but think like this...if I will be here or anybody comes to know abou this baby...and if shagun comes to know about it...she will not leave my baby...if something happened...noo..I am not gonna be here even for 5 minutes..I have to leave Mani...Let me go please..." Ishita cried her heart out.
She was actually scared now. She could feel fear sweeping in every time she thinks about the same nightmare.
"Ishu...please relax...you have got to trust me...once...please...just be patient...we will leave as soon as we can...okay..please calm down..."
Mani can see how this matter had shaken her beliefs of living alone in Delhi. She must have been traumatized and it seems this is not the best time to make her understand anything. Moreover, he was not ready to leave her alone..not even with Raman. He just wanted to protect her..keep her safe with him.
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[Same Time when Mani caught Ishita]
Tujhse mohabbat karte hain jo Tujhse mohabbat karte hain jo Kaise kare hum usko bayaan
Raman ran here there in search of Ishita. He called her name every now and then expecting her to hear him and come to him but to his dismay...he is calling at dead ends. He suddenly saw a figure entering the premises of boarding gate of New York. He couldn't miss that for anything. She must be Ishita. Anyhow she is his Ishita. He ran in that direction when the guards stopped him in his way as he was not allowed to go in that area.
Raman wriggled but couldn't just get through. However, he did succeeded and ran to the gate calling her name. As soon as he held the lady's hand and turned her around, it was not his Ishita, he realised. But for anything he just couldn't miss her. Never. It's impossible that his eyes played him.
He asked for an apology and left from there. He felt defeated. He had never been so scared of losing her. It was always his inside jokes with her but he never meant them. He never wanted her to leave him at any cost. He just can't bear it. He sat down on his knees. Tears brimming in his eyes in the last hope of finding her.
"Ishitaaa..." He shouted his lungs out and held his face in his palms and cried.He didn't know what to do next now. Bala held him and made him stand while people were staring at him.
Baatein ye kabhi na tu bhulna Koi tere khatir hai jee raha
Still crying he was searching for her frantically here and there asking every other person there. Bala too tried to call Mani a few times but he was not receiving his calls anymore while Ishita's was out of question.
Bala can see that on the board that New York flight has already left and now nothing can be done about it. He held Raman and practically dragged him out of there. Raman was not ready to leave but he was not able to fight back. He was tired...physically and emotionally.
Unknown to him, that two pair of eyes did heard him calling her name insanely. She did watched his moves. She did watched that eyes crying in helplessness and felt that pain out of fear.
She could not hold back and fainted on the spot. It was too much to handle in one day.
Jaaye tu kahin, bhi ye sochna Koi tere khatir hai jee rahaa
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Raman refused to sit in the car and shrugged away bala's hands that were helping him. He choose to walk away from everything if she is not there.
Walking down the streets he could just see people happy around him. why...What went wrong on his part...He never understood that why all bad happened with him only. But the time Ishita came into his life, he knew if Shagun left it was for his best. He got what he deserved.
He knew he was not her choice or not what she wanted. But she is everything he had desired. How can she just leave like it was so easy. He knew if not today that he will find her tomorrow but the pain he is feeling is unbearable.
He sat in a park all day reminiscing the moments spent with her. Bad good whatever they were...Ishita was there. How can he just leave her in her bad times. How can he be so selfish.
When he caught the lady at the gate, he was sure she was Ishita at first. He didn't know but he had felt her near somewhere, but it was too hard to not break and stay strong. Maybe he was just feeling too much. Maybe she was not there at first place. So many questions and no answers to them
How unlucky he is..!
Jaagi bhi hai royi bhi hai Aankhein ye raaton mein mere
3 hrs went by but he did not move an inch from where he was. He can see numerous calls and messages from his family but still that one name is missing. He was in no mood to answer any of that. He didn't even feel like doing it. He was just crying and crying. It was over.
Night dawned upon but he did not moved an inch. All he thought about Ishita is no more near him. He is going to be forever alone. He thought of calling her again. Maybe this time she will pick up the phone. In a hope he took out his cell phone when an envelope fell from his pocket.
He remembered Adi gave it to him. He took that envelope in his hands and stared it for sometime. He slowly opened it and took out the paper. It seems to be some kind of report to him, only if he had known it before.
His world came down in merely two seconds. Reading the contents of that paper he re-checked the name of the person. He was shocked would be a complete understatement. Never in his dreams he had seen the nightmare coming. This is the worst that could have had happened to him...
"Ishita is pregnant...with my child...mera bachha...my baby...Ishita...Ishita..." He whispered her name, chanting the same thread again and again. Tears were flowing down without his consent. He had drifted in some other world.
His Ishita was pregnant with his child..but she never told him...why ...then he was reminded with the torture he had done on her for Adi. He had left her alone for weeks. He remember her morning sickness and weakness...everything was making sense to him. He remembered her each and every word...Why she did this with him...What went wrong...
He was not in his senses anymore...He was remembering each and every moment where she held back the truth and had told him a white lie...
"You did wrong Ishita...you did wrong...If you think I will accept this and then you are wrong...I am never ever gonna forgive this...this time you have had hurt me badly..."
He cleared his face and left for his home.
Kyun har ghadi milke tujhe Lagti rahe bas teri kami
It was late in the night when he entered that house. The house that once was his happy place was nowhere comforting him anymore. Every corner of that house speaks a story of them. Fighting with her or doing romance with her, each corner has its own story for them.
Fresh Tears made their way when he saw Adi walking upto him. He was in no mood of answering any of the questions so he just moved forward ignoring Adi.
"Papa...you won't talk to me..." Adi said ever so innocently breaking Raman's heart.
This was the only moment he was waiting just to hear the word "Papa" from him. He wanted to hug him, pacify him and cry holding him but pain of separation won over any other emotion of him.
He was reminded of the harsh reality of his life. His wife and his baby ..they both are no longer with him.
He was drunk a bit..but he was in his senses, enough to know what is happening around him.
He again started walking when Adi hugged him from the back and said "Please papa...forgive me for everything...talk to me...please don't be silent...please...I am sorry..."
Raman closed his eyes in the sorrow. Everything is too much to bear. He doesn't know what is right and what is wrong. But his pain was too much to see other's pain. He tried to wriggle out of Adi's hold when his cries increased.
Each and every family member came out to see whats happening. It has been a traumatic day for everybody. No one has ever thought that situations will be turned like this. They were out of words because they knew somewhere they were at fault at too.
Their heart went out seeing Adi and Raman's condition. Toshiji held her mouth to stop her cries as it had all started from her wish. She did not know if she was right or wrong but her dear son and grandson is in so much pain. What she will do now?
Adi was just chanting same words and was not leaving Raman. The poor one wants his father with him. He had promised his Ishima that he will not leave him no matter what..he has to get his father back to senses before he lose it all in his loneliness.
Hum toh na samjhe tum hi kaho Hum toh na samjhe tum hi kaho
Ramam shrugged away his hands and stumbled a bit..
"Bhai.." Romi came forward to support him but he stopped him.
"Why you people are showing this fake concern to me...why...Ishita is gone...if you people have cared enough to stop her..."
"Raman puttar,,..don't say like this..Ishita.." Raman's mother wanted to say something but he stopped her in mid and said "Please...don't ...you were the one who wished Adi back...you were the one who said that Ishita can never bear a child...you were the one who asked her to bring Adi back on any cost...do you have any idea what cost she had paid..."
Kyun tumko paake tumse juda
Everyone looked at him guiltily as they know they deserve this outburst from him.
"She had given you all Adi back on cost of our child..."
Everyone looked at him in shock...they indeed wanted to let him know something...but the news was itself a shock to all of them.
"She was pregnant with my child...my baby...she...she just left me..."
He cried holding his head in his palms whereas other people were simply shocked. They were actually not aware of what this woman was capable of.
"Because of you all...I lost her..I lost my..."
He was so into the moment that he didn't see the pair of eyes watching him.
"You all never ever cared for her...and so do I...I deserve this for hurting her...I do...and Adi...he is here now..be happy...have fun...celebrate your happiness of having him back...come on."
He cried aloud and left from there to his room. His only happy place. The only place which can sooth his nerves. The only place where he can feel her presence.
He sat on his knees holding Ishita's picture and cried his heart out.
Baatein ye kabhi na tu bhoolna Koi tere khatir hai jee rahaa
"Why Ishita...why have you done this to me...kyu kiya mere saath aisa tumne...mera bachha...my baby...how can you hide this from me..."
He cried when he opened that report again. He wanted to feel that moment when Ishita would have came to him and told him about this news...about their baby...
Only if everything would have been normal...only if they would have been together...he wanted to feel his baby ...their baby...he wanted to have her near him...He wanted to feel her...he knew she is some where here..he could feel her...but he knew...she is nowhere...she is gone forever...
"Please Ishita,...please.come back...I will never forgive you for this..."
He continued his rantings..sometimes crying...calling her back...crying for his baby...
"How can you just leave...kaise chali gayi mujhe akela chod ke..."
Jaaye tu kahin, bhi ye sochna Koi tere khatir hai jee rahaa
"Aur agar mai kahu...mai nahi gayi...agar mai kahu...mai nahi ja payi...toh kya aap mujhe maaf kar denge..." [If I say..i didn't left you..If I say i was not able to...now will you be able to forgive me..]
He heard her voice...he felt her presence...he can sense it all...He opened his eyes and said "Ishita.."
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