Stunning collages yet again, Gan. You were able to beautifully capture the plight of this mother & father who were leaning on each other for support as husband and wife today. I've used this quote before, but I think it fits IshRa so well:
"She collapsed. I stepped forward and caught her. I thought of two trees nearly uprooted and leaning against each other."
Peter Heller
The quote you've chosen is perfection. It wasn't easy for these souls to find each other and find healing in each other...to create their own safe-haven. Now, when they're finally at the precipice of finding familial bliss, the thought that everything is on the line again is simply heartbreaking.
...sometimes you have to let your fears flow in the form of tears before you can find the strength to face the storm.
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I'm not a parent, but I have always had a strong maternal instinct from a very young age - whether it be my younger cousins who I practically raised, or my puppy (who, yes, I treat like my child), or now my nephews. So if there's one thing I understand about parenthood, its this: parents are born with the inherent and overwhelming need to protect their children, and family, from every storm that comes their way, despite knowing that unfortunately, you can't protect them from it all.
You've been there - seen all the various seasons of life, fought those battles that sometimes leave you so broken you're not sure if you'll have the strength to pull yourself back together. So on instinct, you're determined to ensure your children don't have to weather the bitter cold that you've endured. But more importantly, you simply want them to live a happy life with minimal heartache. The honest truth is, continuing in this endeavor when you know that 100% success is next to impossible, is simply exhausting. But that's the stuff of parents. They do it anyway...and if they're lucky, they'll have a supportive spouse to lean on as they continue forward.
Today, I am ever-thankful that our two broken souls, who were brought together by parenthood, have each other to lean on as they create a shelter for their child.
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Ishita
Chanda hai tu, mera suraj hai tu
Oh meri aankhon ka taara hai tu
Jeeti hoon main, bas tujhe dekh ke
Iss tute dil ka sahara hai tu...
Rooh. How apt.
Her daughter brought to life the part of her soul that had been dormant for so long. Ruhi gave Ishita a reason to dream of a life she'd never imagined for herself, to believe that just maybe, she'd get her share of happiness after all the heartbreak she's endured. Today, she's threatened with the notion that even this tiny bit of joy that life has offered her, may be snatched away...that'd she'd be thrown back into the abyss from which she's finally emerged.
A mother's worst fear came true today - the idea of her child being taken away from her. And in the true spirit of a mother, despite her own heartbreak, the words that escaped her lips were "meri beti pisti hai"...why must my daughter bear the brunt every time?
The beauty of the moment today, as a mother found solace in her husbands arms, is not one that I can quite put to words. Moments such as these, when they find strength with and within each other as they prepare to face the storm together...are simply heart touching.
Nothing can be more frightening or heartbreaking than a mother fearing the loss of her child. Nothing.
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RKB
"He was not being courageous as he bore the freezing stream for his wife and children. He simply chose between the lesser of two evils - the pain and suffering he would endure in the river, a physical pain that he could stand to bear, or the pain and suffering he would feel if he had to watch his family wade across and freeze. It was not a decision. The choice had already been made the moment Ole proposed marriage to his wife and welcomed these beautiful daughters into the world."
Sage Steadman
"He was a father. That's what a father does.
Eases the burdens of those he loves.
Saves the ones he loves from painful last images that might endure for a lifetime."
George Saunders
I know I sound partial, but My RKB's tears had me in tears today.
A year ago, he didn't know how to show her he loved her, that she was his sole reason for finding the strength to carry on. But even then, he loved her fiercely...and fought for her with every fiber of his being. The heaven's smiled down on him when he was given the chance to prove his worth as a father. In the past few months, as his heart has slowly mended, he's learned to love her the way she deserves to be loved...and yet, despite how far they've come, when he's finally on the verge of having the family he's always dreamed of, history repeats itself as he faces the risk of losing her again.
I couldn't help but think of Murphy's Law as I watched RKB these past few days. No matter how desperately he's trying to hold things together, despite his efforts at setting it all straight, for reasons outside his control, things only seem to get worse.
The thing about being a husband, a son, the man of the house...most importantly, a father - bearing the responsibility of protecting your family, ensuring their well-being and happiness: you're tasked with being a strong pillar of support that holds the foundation together, despite the fact that you yourself are falling apart. To lock your own fears and pain deep within your core and be strong for those around you is no easy feat. Such responsibility means you lend yourself to others as rock solid shoulder to lean on...it also means that when you need a shoulder to lean on, you have no where to turn, especially if your wife is too broken to help you bear the burden.
Today we saw a father and husband crack as he was simply unable to hold in the emotion that overwhelmed him.
His feet faltered, as if he'd taken a physical blow, as the pain of losing his daughter and guilt of his actions consumed him when he saw her break upon receiving the notice. (This scene made my heart bleed. I cried.) And yet, just moments later, he stood as her anchor.
He couldn't contain the tears as he pleaded with the lawyer to ensure their daughter's safety...and yet, he swallowed a father's tears so that as a son, he could console & reassure his father. (This scene was extremely overwhelming. I cried.)
The tears that threatened to spill over as his baby girl called out to him...the pain and guilt, but mostly overwhelming love for his daughter that reflected in his eyes then were almost too much to bear.
In his eyes, he's failed yet again...as a father and husband. His actions have again thrown his loved ones in the line of fire. Watching this man repeatedly attempt to right all wrong...and repeatedly fall short, is heartbreaking...especially when he literally gives his all for the ones he loves.
Is it any surprise as to why I love My RKB the way I do?
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It baffles me that KP and DT aren't parents. The intense poignant emotion that they oozed today was overwhelming. Words cannot do justice to their boundless talent.
Sorry for the length.
Love.
P
Edited by -Payal- - 10 years ago
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