I am smiling as I type this..and I cannot stop smiling..I cannot walk away from my computer to do some work, nor can I think of all the impeding issues that need resolving..I am just lost with a goofy grin on my face and I can't stop! And I love it, I love this feeling because for the first time in a very very very long time, I remembered what it felt to be a girl who likes a boy.
That's what these two have done to me..They have made me into a babbling, grinning teenager and for that I will owe them! In fact, I think this entire forum is transformed into a bunch of giggling blushing 13 year olds..:-)
My reply here is in hopes that I can get all my gushing out and somehow become composed into a mature adult again so just bear with me..First of all GanBarun and Ekpaheli, I don't know your names but both of you..I cannot help but follow your posts religiously!! You guys are amazing. The way you touch the intricacy of the moments, the way you decipher something in a moment..God, both of you are sooo soo gifted! and Thank you for sharing this amazing talent with us! Trust me, it makes these moment more worth it! 😊
Moving on though, RKB..what have you done? A man who is completely totally mesmerized by his wife. Her beauty, her soul..everything that she represents..A man who is spellbound by his wife and for the first time in 6 years, actually maybe for the first time ever- He is loved, cared for with the same intensity that he loves and cares. I can almost hear him thinking- " I know I love her for everything she is..but how is it possible that everyday, everything that she does..from smiling at me, to blushing at my comments..to dancing with- how is it possible that I keep falling deeper and deeper in love with her?..Should'nt there be a cap or maximum limit on how much you can love a person and how does this woman do this to me? Can I possibly matter so much to another person?and if so, i want her to tell me..."
Sigh...a man who does not realize the extent of how much he can love..How amazing is that? Who wants to have little stolen moments in a crowded party with his wife? Who loves the way the she blushes and melts at his comments, at his whispers..He maybe the one flirting with her and making her blush, but his insides are churning as she smiles, as she looks away! His heart is racing and yet he keeps a cool persona just to hear those words from her..
Ekpaheli- you are right.I feel like a voyeur, sneaking into their moments and blushing.
(KARAN PATEL! man, the woman who ends up with you..man god bless her that she can keep her sanity with you around!!)
And Ishita..what can i say about this lady, except she is lost. She is so lost in this whole whirlpool of emotions she feels about her husband. I cannot even fathom the happiness she must feel when he is flirting with her, provoking her to tell him what she feels.
A couple months ago, She was content with what she felt and had no expectations, but to think he might feel that way!! And then she decides, she is a professional, an adult who can make the move too! Two episodes ago or in the show's timeline a few hours ago, she made up her mind went out there, to make her move and when she saw him on stage, she threw caution to the wind went there in front of everyone. That did'nt take courage, that was just what a wife would do for her husband..But somehow in the intimacy of the moment when her husband comes close to her. So close that she can feel the intensity of his stare, feel his hot breath, hear his heartbeats or is it hers? At that moment, all she can think of is looking away from him. Because if she looks at him- there is no getting away, no control..She will truly be lost and bare, with a million people in the room!
So the adult, practical woman she is, she gathers up some courage and tells him in calm manner- "I did it because you are my husband..you are not alone, I want to tell the world that no matter what, I care for you and you will never be alone"- A good practical answer..
But this is RKB we are talking about, as much as those words touched him, healed him, the only words that he wanted to hear at the moment were still left unsaid! He needed to know what was left unsaid, the words that he had not heard in a long time from a woman!
The only words he needed to hear to be content. He feels it and now he knows she feels it, all that's left is saying them aloud..The beauty of this moment, of this feeling, of being ecstatically happy..can anything..anything compare to that???
To end this with a beautiful sonnet that has always been my favorite..
Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no; it is an ever-fixed mark,
That looks on tempests, and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved
- William Shakespeare
Ps- I don't know if any of this makes sense, of this sonnet even goes with what happened today..All I know is that this beautiful feeling of love cannot be described in a better way then our favorite bard..
Mannat Har Khushi Paane Ki
