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It is the same hospital scene where mani was helping Ruhi to feed her Ishima and Raman was looking at the scene from far broken from inside but still maintained his stern face without any emotion which has always been a mystery to anyone around.
Ishima are you ok now ? Mein bahut darr gayi thi ... Ru baby I am completely fine. Now that you are near me nothing can happen to me. You are there to take care of me and hugged her ,wiped those tears and kissed her forehead. Raman had a smile on his face whenever he saw the bond the mother and daughter shared with each other.
His thoughts then wandered to the words mani spoke a while ago. He can be a real angry guy but decided to play low keeping in mind about the place and the people in front of him. He slowly slipped out of the room to avoid any further awkward conversation with Mani in front of Ishitha. He moved a further away from her room and sat on the chair in the walkway. His mind just played all the events starting from the morning. The way she fell unconscious on the floor and the nose bleed all of a sudden. Revelations at the hospital about the case being connected to her infertility which was caused due to an abdominal TB. He knew every single allergy and issues about her body but his mind which always works at a lightening speed failed to pick up at the most needed hour only to chided by the doctor saying her friend knows more about her than her husband which cringed his heart. Then he thought about the strike in hospital and all the arguments with the hospital staffs for her treatment. He also thought about the way he spoke "agar meri biwi ko kuch hua tho" and his thoughts entered another level. He has never shied out in accepting her as his wife but could never show that authority a husband would have on his wife. He also thought about the way she avoided to have food and how mani coaxed her in to having food along with Ruhi. Though she was their daughter he had never gone to the level taking Ruhi's help to trick Ishitha. Whereas in his case it has always been Ruhi tricking him in to do something for her Ishima be it making breakfast or in to buying a gift. He also realized that he has never disagreed to his angel's demands when it comes to something related to her Ishima. If anything can be done just to meet Ruhi's demands for pataofying Ishitha why is that he always needed someone's push to do something for Ishitha. Be it a dance or movie or lunch. It was today he realized how important she has become in his life. There was something in his heart for her. It was more than being his wife, their daughter's mother. It was the realization he felt. The position he had in heart which was more than being a mere wife for name sake. It was the place which he thought Shagun had in his life, but she left him citing reasons of luxury, fame etc., He laughed at the irony of his life once upon a time he made it a point to learn every everything about Shagun but whereas to this lady he always learnt about her when there was a problem that too from a third person. He used to do everything just to spend time with her when it comes to Ishitha they were forced to spend time with each other but in the end both had fun which just left them wanting for more such time with each other but both never expressed. Today also it is the same, he wants to be with her, talk with her and taunt each other but somewhere it was not happening... All thanks to Mani. He sat like that for a while only waiting for Mani to get out of the room and also wanted Ruhi out of the room. He knew if she was their she won't let her Ishima to ever open her mouth and to think about taunt he would be a fried meat. He laughed thinking he would have never thought about a day in his life when he wanted Ruhi out and wanted her only her his Ishitha his Jhansi Ki Rani. He then saw Mani and Ruhi walking out of the room, once he was sure that they were out he slowly tiptoed in to the hospital ward not wanting to disturb her if she was asleep. Whether to call it his luck or not he found her in a deep slumber. He admired the smile that adorned her face even though she was sick. His heart did a somersault thinking about his realization and the new found feeling which tore his heart.
He entered her room slowly and slipped on to the chair next to her. He stroked her head carefully just not to wake her from her sleep. He was just looking at her who always remained calm and he loved the way he could change her mood in no time. Ishitha for the first time ever I did not want even Ruhi with us in this room. I really do not know when you made your way in to my heart and to make me realize like always do you have to come up with something like this. You could have lectured me for hours together and drilled some sense in to my head but being Jhansi Rani you chose to faint. I was sweet and a chusa hua aam once upon a time that's when everyone mocked at me including her and I did not feel offended being mocked like that. I have changed a lot both physically and mentally that I am not able to accept any praise from anyone without taunting them or accept even being ridiculed. But I had this satisfaction when you taunted me. You can never praise me as your mouth does only that shani ka jaap. I told you the other day I will wait for you to share your innermost feelings with me but here I am to do the same with you. I might have not expressed what you mean to me like how others express and you know my way of expressing things have always been different and when it comes to you they have always been strange. I have done things for you more after what other say than listening to my heart. Had I sat like today and thought about all this probably this situation would have been different. Whatever I am telling you right now is not for mani, Ruhi or Shagun but for me and us. Our whole ruhi ke liye has come a long way. We have never been two different individuals in our relationship for a very long time but both of us did not want to accept that fact. It might be the fear of rejection or even failing all over again. Both of us have never been strong but we did find support in each other in the relationship we share. I feel this relationship definitely requires a new name. It can no more be a friendship with trust and care nor sirf parents of our daughter it is love Ishitha.
Yes Ishitha, I love you a lot and I do not know if I will have the courage to tell all this to you another day but I will have to. He bends forward to kiss her forehead but then stops mid way through. We have never crossed the limits in our relationship without the other person's approval. I will wait for this kiss also the same way.
He got up from the chair and turned to move out of the room only to be held back. He knew about the touch and did not wanted to get caught this early.
Raman, I have listened to your every single word from the moment you sat next to me and stroked my head. How silly Raman to have you think that I prefer being pampered to get anything done. You have always been different when it comes to doing anything be it uniting two people or doing something for someone. When it comes to me they have been different right from the tooth brush till today regarding whatever you learnt about golu/ navrathri. Your timing has always been like that. It always has happened after somebody provoking you. From the jewelry gift until the rain dance our special moments have always been different. You are right Raman I was afraid of being caught by you while sharing my innermost feeling with Mihika. When I was about to utter the three words out of my mouth I saw you. I did not want to share it with you right away without knowing what was in your heart. It was since that day I started looking at you from a different light but ended up being caught by you every time. It always feels good to be in your arms be it during the dance that night or the day when you protected me from falling down. I prefer the love I get from your taunts rather than to be pampered by sweet words. Those kind of words feel good from others mouth but not from your mouth. Even sometime back I was being pampered a lot by all and so preferred to play up with you for eating knowing you will shout at me. As I said your timing has always been strange, mani had to enter along with Ruhi. I love you Raman, I love you a lot...
She got up slowly to hug him and they both shared their first ever hug without being forced by anyone. He kissed her forehead and stroked her lips and he found her longing for the same on her lips. He went closer to her ear and whisperered not today but another day when you are back in our home , in our room and in our bed.
This is just my imagination. Hope you all enjoyed reading. Please let me know how you feel with your comments. Thank you.
It is the same hospital scene where mani was helping Ruhi to feed her Ishima and Raman was looking at the scene from far broken from inside but still maintained his stern face without any emotion which has always been a mystery to anyone around.
Ishima are you ok now ? Mein bahut darr gayi thi ... Ru baby I am completely fine. Now that you are near me nothing can happen to me. You are there to take care of me and hugged her ,wiped those tears and kissed her forehead. Raman had a smile on his face whenever he saw the bond the mother and daughter shared with each other.
His thoughts then wandered to the words mani spoke a while ago. He can be a real angry guy but decided to play low keeping in mind about the place and the people in front of him. He slowly slipped out of the room to avoid any further awkward conversation with Mani in front of Ishitha. He moved a further away from her room and sat on the chair in the walkway. His mind just played all the events starting from the morning. The way she fell unconscious on the floor and the nose bleed all of a sudden. Revelations at the hospital about the case being connected to her infertility which was caused due to an abdominal TB. He knew every single allergy and issues about her body but his mind which always works at a lightening speed failed to pick up at the most needed hour only to chided by the doctor saying her friend knows more about her than her husband which cringed his heart. Then he thought about the strike in hospital and all the arguments with the hospital staffs for her treatment. He also thought about the way he spoke "agar meri biwi ko kuch hua tho" and his thoughts entered another level. He has never shied out in accepting her as his wife but could never show that authority a husband would have on his wife. He also thought about the way she avoided to have food and how mani coaxed her in to having food along with Ruhi. Though she was their daughter he had never gone to the level taking Ruhi's help to trick Ishitha. Whereas in his case it has always been Ruhi tricking him in to do something for her Ishima be it making breakfast or in to buying a gift. He also realized that he has never disagreed to his angel's demands when it comes to something related to her Ishima. If anything can be done just to meet Ruhi's demands for pataofying Ishitha why is that he always needed someone's push to do something for Ishitha. Be it a dance or movie or lunch. It was today he realized how important she has become in his life. There was something in his heart for her. It was more than being his wife, their daughter's mother. It was the realization he felt. The position he had in heart which was more than being a mere wife for name sake. It was the place which he thought Shagun had in his life, but she left him citing reasons of luxury, fame etc., He laughed at the irony of his life once upon a time he made it a point to learn every everything about Shagun but whereas to this lady he always learnt about her when there was a problem that too from a third person. He used to do everything just to spend time with her when it comes to Ishitha they were forced to spend time with each other but in the end both had fun which just left them wanting for more such time with each other but both never expressed. Today also it is the same, he wants to be with her, talk with her and taunt each other but somewhere it was not happening... All thanks to Mani. He sat like that for a while only waiting for Mani to get out of the room and also wanted Ruhi out of the room. He knew if she was their she won't let her Ishima to ever open her mouth and to think about taunt he would be a fried meat. He laughed thinking he would have never thought about a day in his life when he wanted Ruhi out and wanted her only her his Ishitha his Jhansi Ki Rani. He then saw Mani and Ruhi walking out of the room, once he was sure that they were out he slowly tiptoed in to the hospital ward not wanting to disturb her if she was asleep. Whether to call it his luck or not he found her in a deep slumber. He admired the smile that adorned her face even though she was sick. His heart did a somersault thinking about his realization and the new found feeling which tore his heart.
He entered her room slowly and slipped on to the chair next to her. He stroked her head carefully just not to wake her from her sleep. He was just looking at her who always remained calm and he loved the way he could change her mood in no time. Ishitha for the first time ever I did not want even Ruhi with us in this room. I really do not know when you made your way in to my heart and to make me realize like always do you have to come up with something like this. You could have lectured me for hours together and drilled some sense in to my head but being Jhansi Rani you chose to faint. I was sweet and a chusa hua aam once upon a time that's when everyone mocked at me including her and I did not feel offended being mocked like that. I have changed a lot both physically and mentally that I am not able to accept any praise from anyone without taunting them or accept even being ridiculed. But I had this satisfaction when you taunted me. You can never praise me as your mouth does only that shani ka jaap. I told you the other day I will wait for you to share your innermost feelings with me but here I am to do the same with you. I might have not expressed what you mean to me like how others express and you know my way of expressing things have always been different and when it comes to you they have always been strange. I have done things for you more after what other say than listening to my heart. Had I sat like today and thought about all this probably this situation would have been different. Whatever I am telling you right now is not for mani, Ruhi or Shagun but for me and us. Our whole ruhi ke liye has come a long way. We have never been two different individuals in our relationship for a very long time but both of us did not want to accept that fact. It might be the fear of rejection or even failing all over again. Both of us have never been strong but we did find support in each other in the relationship we share. I feel this relationship definitely requires a new name. It can no more be a friendship with trust and care nor sirf parents of our daughter it is love Ishitha.
Yes Ishitha, I love you a lot and I do not know if I will have the courage to tell all this to you another day but I will have to. He bends forward to kiss her forehead but then stops mid way through. We have never crossed the limits in our relationship without the other person's approval. I will wait for this kiss also the same way.
He got up from the chair and turned to move out of the room only to be held back. He knew about the touch and did not wanted to get caught this early.
Raman, I have listened to your every single word from the moment you sat next to me and stroked my head. How silly Raman to have you think that I prefer being pampered to get anything done. You have always been different when it comes to doing anything be it uniting two people or doing something for someone. When it comes to me they have been different right from the tooth brush till today regarding whatever you learnt about golu/ navrathri. Your timing has always been like that. It always has happened after somebody provoking you. From the jewelry gift until the rain dance our special moments have always been different. You are right Raman I was afraid of being caught by you while sharing my innermost feeling with Mihika. When I was about to utter the three words out of my mouth I saw you. I did not want to share it with you right away without knowing what was in your heart. It was since that day I started looking at you from a different light but ended up being caught by you every time. It always feels good to be in your arms be it during the dance that night or the day when you protected me from falling down. I prefer the love I get from your taunts rather than to be pampered by sweet words. Those kind of words feel good from others mouth but not from your mouth. Even sometime back I was being pampered a lot by all and so preferred to play up with you for eating knowing you will shout at me. As I said your timing has always been strange, mani had to enter along with Ruhi. I love you Raman, I love you a lot...
She got up slowly to hug him and they both shared their first ever hug without being forced by anyone. He kissed her forehead and stroked her lips and he found her longing for the same on her lips. He went closer to her ear and whisperered not today but another day when you are back in our home , in our room and in our bed.
This is just my imagination. Hope you all enjoyed reading. Please let me know how you feel with your comments. Thank you.
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