OneShot ||I Miss You ||
"Har pyaar milan toh nahi, judai bhi toh ek pyaar hai"
These lines easily brought back so many memories. I could see her adorable smile in front of me. Separation is a type of love but really...? It's hardly been two weeks since we broke up but I feel I have lived a whole eternity without her. Her wake-up call every morning, the way she would just get lost in her own world and start blabbering out her cute thoughts. That every expression of her's which I gave my heart too. God! I miss her!!! Even that day when I went over to her house, she was looking sooo cute while holding the jhaadu and trying to give me the angry look. I feel so stupid for doing that to her. But I know, in the end ... It'll be for her good. Only if there was a way that everything could be the same like before, where it was me and her and no one else ... no stupid complications about the future but only the present. I hate to be far from her. I miss holding her hand. I miss secretly going to her room late at night without letting her brother know. I miss her hugs. I miss manofying her. I miss dancing with her. I miss those times I spent with her. I miss her sweet voice. I miss those caring scoldings from her. Every time I see her in college, she behaves with me like I'm a total stranger like we never had any relation at all. And it hurts, but what hurts more is the fact that she changed herself, her bubbliness, her bindass smile it's all gone and I'm the only one to blame. I seriously don't know whether my decision was right ... To make her realize something, am I changing her fully? Have I lost the girl I love because I needed her to understand something? I don't get why love is so difficult. First fall in love, then realize it after that, tell the girl you love her and hope that she loves you too. And if she does then it's happily ever after right? Why is it that my happily ever after hasn't come yet? I hate this feeling. I love her but I have to pretend that I hate her. I don't know why I was walking towards the window ... Probably in the hope that someone might hear the pain I have in my heart. I looked towards the dark sky of the night. I saw nothing. No stars, even the moon was hardly visible. I closed my eyes and saw her ... that smiling face, those twinkling eyes. And only a whisper came out, "I miss you".
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"Hai zindagi mana dard bhari
Phir bhi isme ye raahat bhi hai"
Vasudha
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