The Boarding Pass to a losing battle...The grown up child - Part II - Sukor
Sorry being too long.. But when it comes to my adories I am totally gone...
(Ruby hope i could meet your expectations)
After yesterdays epi,,, after a long time... I had a smile on my face and slept...
But, I felt a throttle in my neck, opened my eyes and I smiled a big smile for I saw my dude's mind ranting, puffing holding my neck... I knew.. I had a bottle of water next to me!!! I offered it to him in anticipation!!!
Why...
Mind: You are not Chakor!!!
Me: Yes I am not!
Mind: Then how did you know I will loose!
Me: Budhu Mind... Its not rocket science as when you took your Boarding Pass from New York I knew you travelled down to loose your battle... I knew the battle of hearts will start soon..
Mind: Nooo, I held him for seven years, had faith that I cannot be defeated! Puffing still..
Me: Nope I knew seven years you were loosing day by day, only to be lost completely today..
Mind: sipping the water... Hmmm you are right, you know him too well!, now what do I do.
Me: get back as you have lots to do as his heart has started to function, so do what you always do! Listen to his heart which is his Chakor...
Mind: so you mean to say accept defeat?
Me: where is the question of accepting... you never won it!
Mind: hmm thanks...for the water!
Part II My dude ... The grown up child...stood guilt, felt ashamed but I am proud for he did not ask for forgiveness... He wanted to start afresh. And I stood witness
Loved Bhuka... Maai, signed her to take care of him...
Dude gave in completely the day he met her, silent, composed but he did allow her to take control...he agigated on the road, he burst at the sight of her lying unattended in the hospital which proved his love, he did not emote in the hospital when he saw her dead, for he knows in his heart she cannot, but he was frozen so only teared.. In all the happenings then on he just followed her, when he signed his fortune, he knew she is his fortune and trusted her, but still seldom spoke.
Even while Chakor was embracing her parents, he head his held low, in shame, in guilt, not looking at her...
Like a child which has committed a mistake, stood in front of her ready to be punished. He was adorably cute, looking down while she cupped him.
My head went high, for he did not ask to be pardoned, his mistakes are unpardonable so he was ready to be judged, punished, accept whatever scoldings, bashings she would pour on him.
Stood there like a child ready to face the ordeal.
This trait of my dude makes me love him more, fall for him more and more he never shy to accept his mistakes...How can I be angry with this grown up Child. My Rabbi's bhudhu gaddha
He does not try to whitewash or brush beneath the carpet. He stands up to be punished...
His guilt was chewing him, he has broken into pieces and he knows she will gather him, waiting to be gathered as only she knows him.
She understood him, his pain, his agony and broke all his wall of pain, got her heart within him to beat, to beat for her.
He did not see her eye to eye, how can I see you Chakor, went on saying I am very bad, did so much of bad to you, never trusted you, you tried to put sense but I am senseless I am to be blamed not only Imli.
In all the seven years he realized he had to be blamed, he made the mistake but punished her... He did not want to be forgiven.
This is Suraj Rajvanshi, will not want to rewrite what was written wrong by him but will start everything fresh, will start to love her more for he is born, destined to love his Chakor.
He did not ask to be pardoned, not wanted to be forgiven, but vowed to start all over again.
She did the best and all the more I respect her, she made him realise that it is not his mistake though it was, but made him feel all the more special as she longed for him like he did too, theirs is not ordinary love, theirs is sukor's love, not for Saath Saal but for Saath Janam...
He did not go forward, but will not go behind too as the moment she spoke of her tiredness and wanted him to hug her, he took her into him, incubated her, imbibed her that look of love, passion in his eyes spoke volumes..how can you be like this to me for what I have done to you...
But he knows his eagle, she may fly high, soar high, fight with, for him, against him but she turns into that sparrow, his birdie for her peace, safety is in his arms, her safe abode.
He wanted to make good the mistakes, to renew his vows new, and did it in his own style. He does not need big mandap, big fire as his heart is big, and he the sun her private sun is a fire... Her happiness is what he wanted and he will turn anything into heaven for her and he did...
Quickly wanted to remarry her, gathered for the pavithra agni as agni purifies everything, purified their love again... he took the vows leading but all their eyes on each other... that innocent smile on her face, that happy tears, he allowed her to lead. She missed her MS but I told you my dude knows he will loose so was carrying it in all his jackets as he knows he is in the lost battle, tied the MS and he needs to see his existence on her maang, goes down to fill it with his blood as nothing is pure as his. That minsicule second, she shuddered for he was hurting him, she will not allow him to get hurt but he wants to complete her in his stride...Be it the Gandharva wedding or the current Godown wedding... he does it in style.
Anoki my adories aren't they, I had tears in my eyes throughout.
The hug and the eskimo or the penguin kiss I always like to say, I will henceforth name it as SuKor kiss. This kiss I enjoy with my hands under my chin, I can just seen them endless, she rose, went into him, and he the axis slanted to take his world which started to spin. His chin on her head, eyes closed for he wanted the time to freeze...
I went into my sweet slumber... allowing them to be in that hug, for they have to make all they lost those seven years.
Yes he took the Boarding pass to the loosing battle, but he won his world back!
Meejay, you just ignite my screen, with passion, compassion and I sublime in it never to be woken up!
Anupamaa
