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Posting this after lot of thinking should I or should I not.
Am not someone who has right to say what you should do with tonight's and tomorrow's episodes of Udaan. Especially not after episodes we had last and this week. But I have right to say what would I do tonight.
If only I can, I would sit in front of my TV screen, turn on on Colors right at 8:30. Why? Maybe it's last chance.
These two episodes are last chance to see last glimpses of Adhya as Saanvi. (Not so sure about this, but still.) If not for Saanvi, her role in the show, then I would sit and watched episodes for Adhya. For all beautiful scenes she did with Meejay, with Paras, Sai Mam... I would. For all her cute but perfect expressions, for all her beautiful smiles and cries she gave to this show during last 4 months. For all beautiful off screen moments captured on sets of Udaan with VJ, with Meera, and rest off the cast. I would sit and watch these two episodes.
Sukor... DP and PP... they will lose their CP. If only I never loved them with intensity I did, maybe it would be easier tonight. Easier to not watch it. If only I could've left them in the middle off the journey, if only I could do it now it would've been easier to not watch these two episodes. But I didn't left and still I can't. I can't leave them now, I can't disapoint them now. They count on me. I was with them when they lost their unborn child. How can I left them now, now when they are loosing most precious gift life has ever gave them, their one year old child? I can't. That's why I would... sit and watch these two episodes.
Outburst of emotions, expressed on different way's, state of shock and unbelief. Parents looking for one year old child in riwer. Words which were meant to be said, or just consequences of shocked state... and guilt. I must be there for them. For Meejay. They will make it so painfully perfect, they will break my heart in numerous of pieces (and maybe each other's). Yet, it will be Meejay. They will give their best to make me feel the worst in last two and half years. But it will be worth. It's their best. And best of the Meejay is the best of their fans. That's why I would... I would still sit and watch these two episodes.
It was not easy for them. I knew it before I watched olv. It was not easy for them to do these scenes. But they did. And they deserve to be appreciated for it. Making edits, vms, analysis... it's all part off appreciation and they will surely get to know about it. But the best appreciation would be to sit and watch these episodes.
What time will bring? How much off Sukor and how much off Meejay I will see from next week on? How long I will have to wait to see outburst off emotions, how long I will wait to see such a strong performance? How much focus and importance they will get from now on? For all uncertanity and questions that are yet to be answered I would sit and watch these two episodes.
I would knew it would be hard to watch these episodes. I would still feel Udaan revolves around one and only. I would still feel need to close my eyes, mute my TV and change the channel whenever she appears... I would question myself for contributing to show who give me one by one disappointment in last week and half. But I would leave all these thoughts, I would strongly put it at the back off my mind. She can destroy everything, my favourite show, my favourite on screen pair and favourite characters. But she can't destroy my beautiful memories, moments when I smiled and cried with this show, with this pair, with these characters. And at the end of the day whatever she did, does and will do can't destroy my love, this love I experienced for the first time, this love off fan for his star/s. That's why I would. I would sit and watch these two episodes.
But I can't.
Am not someone who has right to say what you should do with tonight's and tomorrow's episodes of Udaan. Especially not after episodes we had last and this week. But I have right to say what would I do tonight.
If only I can, I would sit in front of my TV screen, turn on on Colors right at 8:30. Why? Maybe it's last chance.
These two episodes are last chance to see last glimpses of Adhya as Saanvi. (Not so sure about this, but still.) If not for Saanvi, her role in the show, then I would sit and watched episodes for Adhya. For all beautiful scenes she did with Meejay, with Paras, Sai Mam... I would. For all her cute but perfect expressions, for all her beautiful smiles and cries she gave to this show during last 4 months. For all beautiful off screen moments captured on sets of Udaan with VJ, with Meera, and rest off the cast. I would sit and watch these two episodes.
Sukor... DP and PP... they will lose their CP. If only I never loved them with intensity I did, maybe it would be easier tonight. Easier to not watch it. If only I could've left them in the middle off the journey, if only I could do it now it would've been easier to not watch these two episodes. But I didn't left and still I can't. I can't leave them now, I can't disapoint them now. They count on me. I was with them when they lost their unborn child. How can I left them now, now when they are loosing most precious gift life has ever gave them, their one year old child? I can't. That's why I would... sit and watch these two episodes.
Outburst of emotions, expressed on different way's, state of shock and unbelief. Parents looking for one year old child in riwer. Words which were meant to be said, or just consequences of shocked state... and guilt. I must be there for them. For Meejay. They will make it so painfully perfect, they will break my heart in numerous of pieces (and maybe each other's). Yet, it will be Meejay. They will give their best to make me feel the worst in last two and half years. But it will be worth. It's their best. And best of the Meejay is the best of their fans. That's why I would... I would still sit and watch these two episodes.
It was not easy for them. I knew it before I watched olv. It was not easy for them to do these scenes. But they did. And they deserve to be appreciated for it. Making edits, vms, analysis... it's all part off appreciation and they will surely get to know about it. But the best appreciation would be to sit and watch these episodes.
What time will bring? How much off Sukor and how much off Meejay I will see from next week on? How long I will have to wait to see outburst off emotions, how long I will wait to see such a strong performance? How much focus and importance they will get from now on? For all uncertanity and questions that are yet to be answered I would sit and watch these two episodes.
I would knew it would be hard to watch these episodes. I would still feel Udaan revolves around one and only. I would still feel need to close my eyes, mute my TV and change the channel whenever she appears... I would question myself for contributing to show who give me one by one disappointment in last week and half. But I would leave all these thoughts, I would strongly put it at the back off my mind. She can destroy everything, my favourite show, my favourite on screen pair and favourite characters. But she can't destroy my beautiful memories, moments when I smiled and cried with this show, with this pair, with these characters. And at the end of the day whatever she did, does and will do can't destroy my love, this love I experienced for the first time, this love off fan for his star/s. That's why I would. I would sit and watch these two episodes.
But I can't.
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