You're destined to be my life... I will kill myself...Sukor don't kill me
Just my adories I write about...
He just wanted to get away, with his family...far away from the mission, from the colonel, not because his life is risked but, because he cannot risk her life, he cannot see her in pain... He can undergo any amount of pain, but none to her...
The pain of faking love, the pain of seeing his love distancing him, the pain of his love being put as a target... He is pained, immensely but the pain is due to his love for her, his love's love, she inflicts and he endures it... he will...
Yes the song Janam Janam was playing in my mind... continously...
Janam janam janam saath chalna yunhi
Kasam tumhe kasam aake milna yahin
Ek jaan hai bhale do badan ho judaa
Meri hoke humesha hi rehna
Kabhi na kehna alvida
Meri subah ho tumhi aur tumhi shaam ho
Tum dard ho tum hi aaraam ho
Meri duaaon se aati hai bas ye sadaa
Meri hoke humesha hi rehna
Kabhi na kehna alvida
Dam those who said my dude is enjoying faking love and not understanding her pain...
Mixed emotions and questions in my mind... I cannot bear Naina to see your bride.. I will kill her and kill myself... (why kill Naina... Kill yourself??? Too many questions in my mind, varied emotions... thanks Nikki for calming me as you said sometimes words donot match emotions they are said just spoken and not attach any meaning to it... at the spur of the moment.
She is his pain and she is his peace... she pained him to fake love she will bring peace by killing that pain... which will lead to kill herself for she has killed an innocent one's feeling (am staying away from Naina POV)
Hum bhagwan se cheen kar tumhe apni zindagi me le aate.... My dude said it right... He will fight with the almighty for she is just his and he is just hers... He knows, she is gulping the poison within herself... the pain of him becoming another's will kill her more than the wound caused by the bullet, she will die living, and he cannot see her in that pain... Never...
He talks freely to Naina when she is not there... Yes when I am looked upon by my boss at work, I do my work which is being asked to do but still I am not my 100% self when being watched upon but I do the same work more comfortably when I am not watched over... Simple logic... And when being with his chakor he does not find words to talk as she makes him just spill those magical words which cast that spell around me too and I sublime in that... the confidence he has that nothing wrong will happen when she is with him... Yes dude trust me Nothing wrong will happen...
I then realized what she meant by killing Naina and killing herself... She will kill the pain, and will kill herself for being guilty to inflict the pain... well I realized why she did not say kill you too... as she need not... he would have already died the moment she end herself as there is no he only she...
But adories... you are the soulmates chosen by the elements of nature, put through various ordeal and currently the last going through the fireballs... only to emerge more shining more pure as nobody can love as SuKor love each other.
Chakor true you are destined to be his life as he has no life of his own...
Sukor please donot kill me as I will fight with almighty to always be your guardian angel along with that little angel who is waiting for her Titans to return back after the War.
CID
