I watched and re-watched yesterday’s episode…specifically the scene where Vidhi comes to submit her resignation. I also watched the BTS of Dev having a nightmare and he wants to meet Vidhi.
@Telly, you felt the way Dev’s restlessness is shown is out of place. I hope this write-up gives you a different POV.
Dev Raichand fell in love with Vidhi Sharma, a girl 20+ years his junior. Despite all the love he had in his heart, he never had any hope. There were too many things working against that love.
He didn’t know what she felt towards him (Until she blurted it out that day, he assumed what Vidhi felt was infatuation / crush)
Even if she did love, the society would tear into them
The generation gap that would cause too many issues going forward (In his words, she’d be barely 60 when he would turn 80)
That she’d be left alone just like his mom, Satyavati was left alone after his father passed away. At that time, Satyavati had Dev. They’d probably clung to each other and shared their grief. Who would Vidhi have?
But more than all these things put together, he thought he knew the girl he fell in love with. She was gentle. Sweet. Kind-hearted. Honest to a fault. Had an extremely optimistic view of the world. Went with the belief that if she did good, people would do good in return. Brought up in a highly conservative lower-middle class family.
A girl like that, how would she deal with the way society would look down and talk down at her once the news comes out? How can she handle the insults, the name-calling, the mud-slinging? How can she stand and watch the disappointment, anger and hurt in her parents’ eyes? She can’t. She would fall apart. She would break into a million pieces.
So he kept quiet. He never said a word.
Then she confessed. His instinct had been to remain quiet. Let her assume that he doesn’t feel anything for her. He even went ahead and said yes to Amba just to make sure he wouldn’t be tempted in the future and she would lose all hope and move on. But the day of the engagement, the way Vidhi, in her heart-breaking voice said - mujh mein aisa hain hi kya jo aap mujhse… mein pagli hoon sir, apne hi duniya mein rehti hoon, aapne bhi wahi socha hoga na sir. Warna aap kuch toh kehte! Aadha adhura, ek shabd! Kuch toh! Aap ne jawab dena bhi zaroori nahi samjha matlab meri baat hi itni bewakoofi wali hogi! Silly hogi!
He felt himself splintering on the inside. How long he would’ve kept up with the engagement, I don’t know. I doubt he knew either. But thanks to his ma, that didn’t happen. I think even if Satyavati hadn’t nudged him, he would’ve gone and confessed his feelings to Vidhi. Because for him, more than confessing his feelings, he needed to let her know that she was not silly. Tum khud ko kabhi kisi se kam mat samajhna. Tum special ho. Special se bhi zyada ho. He needed to tell her that. He needed her to believe that.
Despite all that, he didn’t give his heart an inch of hope for a future with Vidhi. Nope. That night and every time after that night, whenever he told her there’d be no future, he was telling that to her and to his heart.
Fate intervened in the form of Amba and the rest of the trash talkers. What he’d feared turned into reality. People who couldn’t reach him (some because of his status, some because of his gender, some because they don’t want to reveal themselves to him) targeted her. They tore her reputation to shreds in front of his eyes. Her parents disowned her, refused to even look at her. Her father almost died. Every single nightmare of his came alive in front of his eyes. He didn’t give a damn about who said what about him. He also knew that him going anywhere near her would worsen the situation. Yet he didn’t stay away. Because he didn’t want her to fall apart. He wanted her to know and believe that he was there. That things would settle down. He became her anchor. Her bulwark.
Through it all, he anticipated the end of the whole debacle. Her father would pull through. Her parents would slowly calm down. She would see that there is no future for them. She would step away from him. Any girl in her place would do the same, wouldn’t she? What girl would want to turn herself into society’s freak-show 24*7? No, she wouldn’t. His Vidhi was too soft-hearted and docile for that kind of battle. So, once things settle down, she would submit her resignation and walk away.
She did come. She did submit her resignation. But very sweetly, in the same gentle voice that he’d fallen in love with, said, mein shaadi toh sirf aapse karungi sir. That sheer determination and confidence with which she uttered those words, those unflinching, love-filled eyes stunned him. He, who had been expecting… no… who had been sure of his heartbreak, got his heart taken from him in a gesture so simple that he was left speechless.
There, that moment saw Dev Raichand who began rising in love. He knew his Vidhi was stubborn in her own way. He just didn’t know that she had a spine of steel that might bend due to circumstances but would never break. That there was strength in accepting things that can’t be changed and just hunker down and wait it out without budging from one’s stance. That his Vidhi possessed that kind of strength.
Dev Raichand rising in love is not going to back down. If she is that sure that he is the one for her, then he would stand on the car bonnet and declare that she is the one for him.
Along with this, would come a different kind of fear. Fear of losing her. When before he never believed that he had her in his life, now he knows he has her and can’t lose her. That fear would manifest in a nightmare. But then again, falling in love is easy. No one ever said rising in love was easy.
May you continue to rise, Dev Raichand!!
P.S: I tried to ignore all of today’s BTS while writing this one. I ignored every idiot character in the show currently going high. Dev and Vidhi are the only ones I focussed on. Hope you like it. Do share your thoughts.
I will be traveling from tomorrow morning (22nd morning IST) till 30th morning. Won’t be able to make any long posts but will definitely peep in as and when I can. Please tag me on anything you think is important. Have fun, NUKSH-ians!!
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