Very intense, better than the show making suicide attempts a joke. I like the portrayal of battling feelings of Arnav, Serves him right for jumping to conclusions.
Very intense, better than the show making suicide attempts a joke. I like the portrayal of battling feelings of Arnav, Serves him right for jumping to conclusions.
Finally Arnav pulled his head out of his derrière!!
Love the writing, hope you stay till the finish line ;)
Love your creative juices, keep blessing us with more drama.
Chapter 5 - An Interlude
I cursed my heart a thousand times
I cursed my mind when it failed to heed
I cursed my being for those fleeting moments
I cursed you for making me weak
Your words whipped at my bleeding heart
Characterless… deceitful… a trap laid
Oh, how I wish I understood you more
Or you could read what I never said
The ground implored my broken soul
The sun burnt through my parched heart
So many times, I wondered what for
Why I hoped for a better start?
The truth it lay open ahead
Callous words from a one so dear
If only you knew what that pain was like
If only you saw the truth in my tears
A fall into you startled arms
My eyes they flickered on your face
The anger in them stayed true through the months
It was my first fall from grace
A chamber of glass shrunk before my eyes
A peltering storm struck me down
A ceiling collapsed, a wall caved in
Your arms never let me touch the ground
Where was that moment in this sea of hatred?
Where was that fleeting touch so pure?
Why this abysmal pain my companion?
Why this life is what I endure?
How many smiles can I force myself?
How many more days of joy to infuse?
How crumpled my soul and thrashed by you
My heart borne the brunt of this abuse
I longed for my portion of peace
For a happiness my name foretold
How foolish my heart, I chide
How innocent your wish turned cold
But now I see as clear as day
My dreams were never meant to be
My hopes tarnished like an autumn wind
Trampled on the floor like crushed leaves
I give in to this feeling of certainty
My feet leading me away
Where I know my parents lay waiting
A smile, a hug, a new day
So, let me come to you oh heavenly one
Free me of this constant ache
Let me fall from pain into your arms
Let me soar, let me go for my own sake
I see the dark of night setting in
I feel the river of red gushing through
And then a scream of pain I hear
Oh lord this cannot be true
Why these hands so frantic now?
Why this voice so laced with fear?
Let the darkness come and take me now
Leave me be, my heart implores
Oh heavens open wide your arms
Take me into your home
My body struggles against the pain
My mind already at your door
Silence fills my chest at last
My labour seems at rest
The darkness has creeped into my soul
For once it heard my behest
White like the sky now I see
Where I lay, I do not know
Is this the promised land for me?
Did I stay or did I go?
Hushed voices come creeping in
A deep monotonous and clear
A shiver through my limbs I can feel
I haven’t gone… I’m still here
A voice distant, a plea within
My heart breaking the shackles to hear
It’s coming closer, it’s shrill and pained
Longing in that husky timbre
You’re battling now for what could have been?
The shapes shift as my vision clears
Oh, how foolish my heart you thought you’d win
When has he ever let you, it sneers
Flashes before me white and clean
Hushed whispers faint and fleeting
I know the darkness was defeated
I know he stopped me from going
But why I ask, I scream and shout
Why my suffering couldn’t end?
Why had he to make me stay
Is there more for my heart to defend?
Voice of cheer fill around me
I’d called them family with my soul
Little they knew of the sacrifices made
Little of the pain endured
And then I hear the vicious leer
A voice from hell that stills my being
So close it pierces through my defenceless state
Then ripped away before it stings
Why the need to protect me now?
Why the anger you display?
The lashes are deep within me now
Your silence has no more to say
So, let me go away from here
Stop the charade for my sake
I do not wish to be bait for you
I do not want your concern that's fake
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So i wrote this chapter thrice and from different perspectives but settled on this because I'm always drawn to verse. I hope this convey's her state of mind before and after the incident. Bear with me as I bring my thoughts to paper and stay on the journey if you can.
Thanks for reading, liking and commenting! It means a great deal!
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LibranAngel
Wow, it was truly wonderful, beautifully written and conveyed
Beautifully written!
And i think this was the best way to express Khushi s turmoil.
Cant wait for the next chapter!
Beautifully written!
Cheers
Very well written . How well you have conveyed the different gamut of emotion going through kushi.
She’s lying in the hospital bed and venting her frustration at Arnav for not understanding her when she wanted him to .She’s right in telling him there’s no use of displaying anger now he remained silent then, when she wanted him to lash out. She wants him to stop this charade and let her go from this world
Beautiful, soulful.,. Portrays Khushi’s struggles so beautifully...
Wish he could hear these words. He needs to understand the damage.
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