14 dec 2017.
pure 2 saal ho gaye aaaj.. surprise jo mila tha kese bhool sakta hoon aj ka din.
lekin ye sab meri khud ki galtiyan hain is main kisi ko main galat nahi kehna chahta :) or na he kisi pe koi ilzaam hai.
koi or galat kese ho sakta hai yaar. jab life meri hai to is pe mera he haq tha na . bus itna he ke main ne koshish to ki thi sab samjhte hove ke sab band karna chahiye lekin tab kisi ki zid ne mujhe kamyaab hone he nahi diya tha. bus ye samjh lo ke koi 1 tang pe tha. lekin galat phir bhe main he hoon. koi kuch bhe kar leta life to meri thi na. koi jitna bhe ro leta life to meri thi na... main ne kisi ki zid ko pura karne keyliye. ya ye samjho ke kisi ko khushi dene keyliye khud ko barbaad kar liya. lol
is main A to Z meri he galti hai. mujhe zara matlabi rehna chahiye tha or apni life ka sochna chahiye tha. jab Ap apni life pe kisi or ko haq dete ho na to 2 he batain hoti hain. ya to insaan akhri sans tak khush rehta hai ya ye haal ho jata hai jo mera hai abhe :)
or ye siraf abhe nahi hai. ye hamesha rahega jab tak meri sans chal rahi hai.
ye line sab ko buri lagti hai. jis se bhe kehta hoon na wo dant deta hai mujhe ya samjha deta hai ke ansar khush ho jaoge. lekin kese? main apni life ko behtar janta hoon koi or nahi.
main ne jo os time khushi main din guzare ye Ap ne nahi guzaare. Ap ko to maloom he nahi ke 14 dec 2015 se pehle main kitna khush tha. alsmot pagal tha. khushi se
mujhe wo din to yaad hai jab jiju ne mujh se kaha ke tum ab ja sakte ho. or jab main wapis a raha tha jakarta se apne city to na jane main ne kitne mesgs likhe or on ko remove kiya. dil kehta tha ke abhe ke abhe ye baat bata do kisi ko.lekin dil ye bhe kehta tha ke noo surprise he dena chahiye 1st jan 2016 ko .
os khushi se pehle mujhe tention se nend nahi ati thi or tab khushi se nend nahi ati thi. to jab itni khuhsi ke baad Ap pe bijli gir jaye or dil toot jaye to halat eysi ho jati hai.
mujhe USA jane se kisi ne roka nahi. meri to koi 10 saal se khuwish hai wahan jane ki. aaj bhe hai :) lekin wesi khuwaish ko pura karna mushkil hota hai jahan pain ho... mujhe kisi ne nahi roka.
abhe main wahan geya tha. main to utna time bhe nahi reh saka jitna main ne socha tha. 1st nov ko wapis ana tha lekin sept main he a geya tha. or main ne wahan pe kuch bhe nahi dekha. koi plan tha he nahi mera, or abhe tak visa hai mere paas. 6 month nahi hove abhe. 15 jan 2018 tak main ja sakta hoon. lekin jana he kiyon. lol
mujhe sab kehte hain ke bhool jao. lekin kya main apni he life se zid laga raha hoon? lol nahi hai na eysa..
halaat eyse nahi they. lekin kisi ne eyse halaat bana diye. or wo meri he galti se bane coz mujhe kisi ko chance dena he nahi chahiye tha. isi liye main khud ko bewakoof or loser bolta hoon.
meri puri life 1 tarf or ye 2 saal os se zeyada mushkil they. . or is 2 saal main. baki sab alag lekin ye oct 2017 se ab tak ka waqat bohot bura ja raha hai. balke ye samjho ke dec 2015 is se acha tha. lol. jab ye sab hova tab meri halat is se achi thi aaj os se buri hai.
bus isi cheez se dil ghabra raha hai ke ye 2 saal he musibat se guzare to na jane baki ka kese guzre ga,
main khamosh rehta hoon. .. bus yahan a kar 1 baar sab kuch bol kar bhag jata hoon. adat se majboor hoon na :P
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