I feel so empty - Page 2

Originally posted by: -SoCalledLife-

You guys never left this place huh? Always active or make random appearances?

Originally posted by: D3viL

I think your actions were disappointing and can no way condone slapping your parent or anyone.. especially someone vulnerable. At that time it was very important to remember the old her and not what she had become.. but in saying all that I dont think you had much support .. and being in your position without support would be a living hell.

I understand your frustration and bitterness when having to deal with someone close to you who is not the old them anymore.  And I know the guilt you are feeling after being short tempered with them.

I believe you when you say she loved you and you love her, and that it was no lie. You became her sole carer and you were in a lot of grief and immense responsibility to treat her the best .. 

I think its important for you to know that for your mother the only person in her whole world who could give her the love and respect was you, so she was in the right hands, and she was lucky she had you, because you loved and took care of her the best that you could.

I think you need to remember that the last thing your mum would have wished was for her to get ill and for you to be hurt, frustrated, sad, bitter, alone, worried .. and whatever else you may have felt. Your mother never wanted you to feel this ever .. never ever. So dont let your mind wander off and remember the times you were frustrated ... remember that your mother was happy and proud to have you as her daughter and that you served her well. 

I think she loves you more than you love her and I think she was able to look past both of you guys acts of frustration and was grateful and proud to have you.

I think you have written here before.. and I'm sorry you are still upset. If you need someone to talk to or anything, I'd love to talk to you.

Take care and cut yourself some slack.. :)

Originally posted by: NitikaSS

Last year my mother passed away. I was deeply hurt, but now I feel so empty. Here is no sadness or happiness. I just feel frustrated and emptiness only. I have forgotten how love feels. I am not saying this all for any sympathy. I just hate to get pity of someone. But I am just here to confess my guilty feelings inside me. She loved me so much and I loved her too. My mom was the best in the whole world wide. I was very short tempered. When she was ill, sometimes she did not eat at all I tired hard to make her eat and sometimes scold her and even sometimes slapped her too for not eating anything. After that I had regrets that I behaved to rudely with my innocent baby (Yes, she was like my baby in her last time). But my love was not lie. Do you think she doesn't love me anymore ? 

Originally posted by: NitikaSS

I know you should disappoint from me , she is/was my angel . Trust me my love was pure. i am just short tememtred . I feared that  if she would not eat or take medicine i will lose her. she was like my child. see God gave me the right punishment. yes you are tight i don't have any support. that's what i deserve.