A Perception - Dilemmas, Doubts and Determination (SwaSan Post)

Acknowledgements: My first thread.😊 Being a new member here, making this type of post (with images and all) would not have been possible without the support of few people. Thank you Ankhi(LaZyLaDy) and Sumi(xsumi) for helping me getting to know IF, encouraging me and clearing my doubts🤗. I also thank all the people who welcomed me here with open hearts😊.

Swara fell right into the arms of her recent benefactor, a masked obsessive lover and betrayer of trust (that will be revealed soon), in fear of her true love Sanskar. Though, in Sanskar's absence, she could hear his footsteps and feel him via strings of her heart; his voice and gestures make her happy, but ironically she thinks him her alleged (attempt-to-) murderer the moment she sees his face. Clearly, her mind is playing games with her; a gravely dangerous one.

She did not understand this conflict of her mind and heart, rather she chose to ignore it. Because Swara being Swara, had always been like this - trusting mind over heart most of the times, and consequently trusting the wrong person at wrong time (Remember - Ragini's kidnapping). She had fallen prey to people with "not so good intentions" many times before - mainly because of her general good and benevolent nature and trusting wrong people. First, her sister Ragini took advantage of it owing to her insecurities about her first love; then Laksh manipulated Swara into believing that he wanted to be "just friends" while trying to create rift between SwaSan; then Ragini used the opportunity to tarnish Swara's image; and all this happened only after gaining her trust. Most spectacularly, she EVEN trusted Kavita, her husband's EX, over her OWN husband's doubts about Kavita's "good" intentions! Well, it kind of proved how secure Sanskar made Swara feel in their relationship (Still, she did not like Sanskar speak about Kavita😆). Yet, every-time misplaced trust did only crumble her down and there was only one person around to save her with all his might - Sanskar.

The only person she ever resisted not to fall prey to; the only person whose intentions she doubted at first sight; was the same person she fell hard for - Sanskar. She was the first one to doubt (of course, after Sujata😊) that he was not a mad fellow; that there was something dark beneath those innocent chocolaty eyes. She tried to gather evidences against him with all she had, because she thought she was fighting for her love, only to realize the meaning of true love much later. She drugged him, wore her detective hat, attempted to investigate all strange things happening with her (Swara and her jasoosi😆), accused him of not understanding what love really means and the intensity of their conflict increased; so did unknowingly the intensity of their feelings for each other. The day the two opposite forces changed their course to come together; the world (or fans😳) celebrated the beginning of a new love story - the journey of Swara and Sankar into SwaSan.

Alas, this all is a long forgotten story for Swara, all she seems to remember is a man behind the trigger tried to kill her, who is actually her true love she does not remember. She is on the path of making same mistakes as she did earlier - of trusting the wrong person - but she doesn't remember making them anymore, or anything related to last one year as a matter of fact. She remembers only one thing prominently in her conscious mind - that Sanskar (who to her shock will turn out to be her husband) is a khooni - and this time too, she did not hesitate to support her mind over her heart.

A shattered Sanskar looked on dumbstruck as he saw the love of his life, Swara, running away from him and falling unconscious in another's arms. He felt his life slipping away like hot dry sand. He had always believed that Swara was alive. He could feel her in his own pulse, it will go on only till she is breathing. The moment he had heard she had come back to Bari, his happiness knew no bounds. He wanted to make every moment of his bride's homecoming special, to resume their relationship right from the point they had been cruelly disunited. But when he saw his soulmate calling him a murderer and running away, his heart stopped beating. Was he so bad? Why did love always flee away from him from the threshold itself? Perhaps, it was a payback for all the cruelties he initially inflicted on his princess. He had almost become crazy after watching his first love lose her life in front of him.(I so wish Kavita didn't turn negative! She used to be a beautiful memory, and now a horrible truth..😆.) He had attempted to make Swara the pawn in his brutal revenge game; and the girl on whom he had plotted the basis of his revenge became the basis of his very existence. When he thought the struggles were finally over, almost a dj vu occurred. Why does he always had to see his love lose life? Why?? Experiencing it once is enough to kill your soul, but experiencing it twice!? He couldn't bear another heartbreak, he would rather die!

It was only his belief of her return, his faith on his love that kept him alive. She had asked him once if knew the meaning of love, why was he trying to separate her from her love? His heart had bled at her statement, the face of (then presumed) dead Kavita had come alive in front of his eyes, but the revenge denied to die. Still, he felt a strange persisting restlessness at her statement. The harder he had tried to trap her in his machinations, the harder he got drawn towards her. He eventually realized he had never been so wrong in his life. He decided to make all the wrongs, caused by him, right, with the same determination that he had for his revenge. His Swara is so beautifully innocent and generous that her forgiveness had managed to thaw his cold heart - something he imagined would never have happened if it was not the pure angel.He didn't realize when he fell for her head over heels for her and she became his life.

He had promised to himself to do anything for her to redeem his crimes - even if it meant being her fake husband or reuniting her with his cousin brother in spite of gifting her his heart. He stood for her like a shield and an anchor, uncaring towards his own bleeding heart. He had gathered courage to set his love free at the risk of losing it forever. His belief always reassured him of homecoming. Even now, he was ready to apologize to her for a lifetime for hurting her.

In spite of the pain, it does not mean he was not happy to see her back. In fact, he is thanking God millions of times for granting his mannat. Finally, his faith and devotion towards his love had won. There was a strange contentment on seeing her alive in front of him - hale and hearty. And perhaps, it is not that bad that Swara is calling him a khooni, at least he has a place in her memory. She had confessed her love to him before falling into the river. He is hopeful that someday she would remember her words too that she said on that fateful day. Before getting back Mrs. Sanskar Maheshwari, he would do anything to get back Swara first, even if it means disguising one's look. It is going to be a tough fight, but a true fighter doesn't count his wounds, he keeps going.

As we all already know, there is another opportunist waiting to manipulate our innocent Swara. Sahil will turn negative and create misunderstanding between SwaSan. Somehow I feel, it will play a positive role in their love story, because SwaSan never started with friendship. They started out as opponents fiercely battling for their own cause and friendship came only when they understood the point of view of each other. I feel Swara will avoid Sanskar in MM (which is obvious) and in spite of disguised Sanskar's (Kissen) presence she may get manipulated by Sahil (don't throw eggs, we all know how CVs love MUs😆). But they will fail to distance SwaSan, instead Swara will start remembering what had happened between Swara and Sanskar during the Swara Laksh wedding track. Swara will also do some jasoosi on Sanskar and will eventually start becoming friends😊. Then, seeing his plans fail, Sahil will unite with Pari for creating conspiracies. Meanwhile, Sanskar will be slowly carving/rediscovering his place in Swara's heart. Then Pari will behave the way Ragini used to be and Sahil will behave how Laksh used to be to Swara, and Swara will remember her "sach bahar lana h" mission days. And this way she will keep on reliving the past while slowly getting glimpses about it. Swara will start falling for Sanskar again (I can't say when she gets to know the real identity of disguised Sanskar). When she is finally on the verge of regaining her memory, Pari and Sahil will kidnap her and the "Rajat kidnaps Swara" scenario will be recreated. Sanskar will successfully save Swara, as rockstar maybe, only to discover that she regained her memory. And Swara will say - "Kaun ho tum?" or "Sanskar"... and confess her love😳. Then they will return to MM and renew her wedding vows (This time I want a full on Bengali wedding - with proper shubho dristi and everything😆). So, I think she would remember the exact turn of events and unite again in true sense. They have a long journey together😳😊.

PS - Honestly, I didn't like Swara's behavior today, she could have been kinder to Sanskar. But if we notice her character closely, mostly she is extra kind only to her family.😕

Finishing on a lighter note😉:

Credits: Images by Asha122 and GIFs by Tia (dreamy.tiara)

About the author (you may want to ignore this😆): Hi, My name is Tia. I am a Mathematics student, from Kolkata. I joined the forum on Monday. I am very friendly person, but slightly reserved. I have been following Swaragini since Sanskar's entry on and off, kind of irregularly, then I became regular when SwaSanLak exposed Ragini. Then I became one of their diehard fans.😳❤️ when Swara realised her love. And finally I joined IF now😊. Before joining I did visit this place for any updates and I also found that this place has amazing writers. There are two reasons for it - 1. I love SwaSan a lot😊 2. This new character is getting on my nerves, I need to take out my frustration somewhere, you know.😆.. Well, looking forward to making friends here. 😊

(Well all my posts are not going to be so long.😆.. this was first one, so I made it memorable.😉..)

PS: Since I have crossed the maximum number of posts, the replies may get delayed

Dear Tia,

Welcome to the forum and the mad obsessive love we have for SwaSan😆

It was a beautiful post and brings back such amazing memories of their journey - starting with the lift my all time personal favourite.

I guess Swara's behavior in last night's episode meets with universal disapproval😡 hopefully the track will turn to a bit more logical sequence in coming days. And do not get me started on Mr. Wood😡

Best,

Nyna

if sanky'd ML 2 the stage of his MU 4 swara & he'd been behaving like that 2 swara wud any1had been demanding repentance & begging from him?😕

Aami Aparna, another bengali 😃