Like I promised... daily updates.. Here you go with Part b - Kunj's POV π³π³
Part 15b
I stared at the rain outside... and rains always reminded me of an overexcited girl who wanted to go for a ride whenever it rained...
Long gone were the days...when I could have just drop at her place and she would have happily hopped in my car.. and we would have our long chats...and stupid fights and senseless discussions
How many things we take for granted in our life... And we let so many moments pass without holding them without cherishing them and years later we yearn to have a time machine to turn things back to those very moments...
I wondered if I called her... would she meet me... I looked back and wondered about the million calls I never picked up and now the thought of her not picking up my single call pinched me...hurt me...and I knew I could not contemplate even 10% of what she would have gone through ... all those years back...
I looked at the rain again...it was amazing how she was always there at the back of my mind..in a corner always...but I never acknowledged her.. I had put her in the past ...and now I cringed at the thought of her keeping me as past..
How much has changed in the past few months...
The thought of calling her again came to my mind... I did want to meet her..but what I was not ready was for rejection
But I had to be okay with it considering all those years how I rejected her repeated requests..apologies and finally her friendship.
She did give her soul to our friendship and it is not like I never cared.. I always cared for her...it is just... well.. truthfully I just messed it up...she was always important to me...I just couldn't judge between what was real and what was fake..
Yeah it didn't give me the right to behave like I did...
I never found a friend after she left me...never as honest as caring ...never...
And maybe that is why...life brought me back to her...
So even if I had to face her constant rejections.. her anger... her hate... I would still try...
Because she tried... she always tried and she gave up only when I broke her beyond repair..
Her sad teary eyes were almost a permanent image in my head...which were a constant reminder...of the wounds I had given her..
And even after everything she met me yesterday...she still thanked me for the pizza.. she could have thrown it... not bothered...but she didn't...
So even if I faced rejection I would try again...
Because she never gave up...and even I won't ...
Because I want my best friend back...the friend I need...the friend I adore...the friend I might not deserve...
But I will make sure I become the one she deserves...
And yes of course...I love her..
My reflection in the mirror looked back and it was smiling...
I picked my phone and called her
"Hello..."
Her voice sounded low... like she had been in a deep thought...
"Hi... Twinkle... good morning.."
I tried to sound cheerful... but I was hesistent too.. the thought of rejection hovered in my mind...
"good morning..."
Her voice still sounded low... sounded weak...and that worried me...
"What are your plans for Sunday ?"
"Umm.. nothing much..."
And now she sounded sad... like she had lost a battle.. was she better off without me? I felt something in my throat...the pain...I had given her...her voice reflected off that pain...Unable to form a sentence I could just say
"Lunch ?"
" What?"
I felt stupid...I have to be ready for rejection... but I have to keep trying no matter what
"Umm today can we go for lunch ?"
I finally said it... expecting a no...
"Ok..."
I couldn't believe what I heard... and I was too excited..
"Great... thanks cu .."
And she kept the phone..
I knew she had a better heart than I ever had...I could sense her hesitation...sadness and anger in her voice and yet she didn't reject me...
I looked at the pile of cards she had sent me..
I used to go through them pretty much daily...they reminded me of the days I never cherished when I should have...so I read each of her cards daily... reminding myself of my grave mistakes and her relentless care ...her relentless efforts...and her love to keep our friendship alive
Compared to that I wasn't really doing anything..
I picked the card she gave me in our second year...
"Give life second chances.. and life may surprise you..."
I knew she wrote this because I had recently broken up with my girlfriend..
I smiled...
And picked my phone and typed
"Thanks for giving me a second chance..."
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